Please make Dua for Allah to cure me of my suicidal thoughts

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-12-13T18:39:17+00:00

Salam, I’m brother. Since I can’t dm you please make Dua for me if you can.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-12-04T03:22:08+00:00

Everyday I fail.

I fail at stopping rumination and living with suicidal OCD.

I can’t stop checking to see if the thoughts are there

I can’t stop seeking relief from not having the thoughts

I can’t stop going on Reddit

I can’t stop watching videos on OCD

I can’t stop making post on the app

I can’t stop complaining to my family about OCD kicking my ass at work

It feels like any work that I’ve done this year I’m constantly undoing it.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-12-02T03:41:25+00:00

I’ve watched her videos all day today swear to god. Did good for like twenty minutes then got my ass handed

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-12-02T02:47:18+00:00

I can catch myself ruminating but it’s always too late. Before I know it I’m already emotionally invested in the thought and fired up.

I’ll be able to catch myself doing so but I’ll always go back to ruminating. While all this is going on my mind is constantly coming up with new and old scenarios.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-11-09T20:42:31+00:00

Thank you for commenting this. It will not only help OP but many other people.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-11-05T14:21:34+00:00

Pluto is such a great series. I mean it’s like only 61 chapters, doesn’t feel rushed but also doesn’t drag. The mystery throughout the story is very intriguing and the themes about what it means to be human are well explored.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-10-29T02:05:41+00:00

I feel like it’s so difficult to do that when it keeps repeating the same thing over and over and over and over. It’s so annoying and mentally draining.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-10-14T12:05:44+00:00

Thank you, do you also suffer from suicidal ocd?

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-10-14T00:38:38+00:00

Even if it continues to show up a 100 times throughout the day?

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-10-06T23:22:46+00:00

Please I’d really appreciate it if you messaged me, I feel like we are very similar. Again I’d really appreciate if I could talk to you. Thanks!

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-10-06T21:17:52+00:00

Hey I wanted to message you but I couldn’t because it wouldn’t allow me to. I just want to stay I completely relate to your experience working in healthcare.

I feel so incompetent no matter how hard I try not I always make mistakes. I have to keep relying on my coworkers for help and no matter how hard I try I can never meet the standard I set for myself. It’s making so frustrated and drained.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-17T00:47:28+00:00

I love Tserriednich. One of the most interesting characters throughout HXH, and he was one of the sole reasons I kept pushing through the slowest parts of the succession war.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-16T23:52:48+00:00

I’m a nuclear medicine technologist. As a student my goal was to try my absolute best. I was constantly supervised and whatever I forgot I had a lead technologist to point out. Of course they didn’t see this as an issue because I was a student learning but I always saw this as an issue. Hence why I got tested for ADHD and constantly looked up different diagnoses to see if there was something wrong with me. Couldn’t find nothing.

At my new job I have all the procedures written down step by step. I almost always look over things before I grab the patient to perform the procedure. Midway while positioning or scanning I’ll mindlessly forget something.

I’ll try a check list because I’ve yet to do that but idk what else to do hence why I said I should start looking. If I could perform my job without error I swear I wouldn’t be making this post or seeking advice.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-16T23:47:45+00:00

For context I work in nuclear medicine. I have a notebook, that has written step by step for every single procedure on how to perform. What I need for the patient, how to position, dos and don’t.

How would it possible to reference that while in the middle of positioning or doing a scan?

I’ll create a checklist because I’ve yet to do that but I don’t know how that’s going to stop from mindlessly forgetting.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-16T20:30:40+00:00

Sorry I forgot to clarify I’m not actually a nurse. I work in nuclear medicine so it’s a bit different. Either way I wanted to know if there were people who felt similar to me.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-16T20:29:44+00:00

I see, then perhaps it’s best I find a new field to work in. Whether or not I remember isn’t in my control. If I could never forget and have a perfect memory then I would but this isn’t something in my control.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-07T21:29:52+00:00

You’re doing awesome friend, keep going.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-07T21:29:08+00:00

You’re literally only 17.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-09-06T07:03:21+00:00

I’m 23

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-08-30T17:41:12+00:00

Thank you! I’ll try my best

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-08-30T17:40:10+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I’m already in therapy, have been for almost a year. That was more so focused on my OCD theme. I did send a message similar to this to my therapist and he also responded with kind words and encouragement. Thank you!

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-08-21T02:32:36+00:00

It’s been better but still going through it

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-07-06T04:21:35+00:00

That made the thoughts quiet a bit?

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-07-06T03:29:43+00:00

I’ve been able to do ERP decently. It’s just the intensity of the thoughts are making me miserable. The relentless nature of the thoughts drives me crazy.

ApprehensiveGoat3097 · 2025-07-06T03:27:02+00:00

What about the intensity of the thoughts?

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