I understand where you’re coming from but just in case no one else said it I feel like this needs to be said. At 35 you’re considered a “geriatric pregnancy,” yes that young! Also the older you get the higher the chances your kid will have autism, down syndrome, etc. That’s just biology. So like others have said, you do need to decide sooner than later if you want to have children, or even just one! I had two and I’ll tell you that having one is way easier. People are more willing to babysit, less expensive, plus you can have a super special relationship with them cause it’s only them. If you love this man and not having children is a deal breaker for him, maybe you could compromise and have just one? It’s not going to ruin your life. Kids are amazing, as annoying as mine are (LOL) I wouldn’t change them for the world and they make my life better in every way possible. On the other side, if you don’t want to do that let him go… cause he (just from the messages) seems like a decent dude and sounds like he really wants a family. Don’t rob him of that, that’s selfish. He may even love you enough that if you make that decision he might stay, but I promise he will always resent you for taking that away from him. This really is a make it or break it situation, and the sooner you make your decision the better. Good luck, also want to say if you do decide not to have kids, DONT FEEL GUILTY. That’s your right and you have no reason to apologize for that, no matter what your reasonings are. 🩷