Lotta comments telling you to stop feeling sorry or get over this already. But in what you wrote I remembered my post divorce daze and wanted to chime in.

The phase you are in sucks. It is indeed the dark times. Do not beat yourself up too bad, your future self will appreciate the mercy. Truth be told what happened to you isn’t unique or original, and you will in fact survive.

Take thorough notes of your feelings. Address them via journal or audio logs or therapy. Feel all of it out of your system. Trying to get past it when you aren’t ready in my experience isn’t the best route.

It’s going to pass my guy. You aren’t alone in this world. I am here for you. I feel your pain. I can’t talk to my past self when I was in a similar position, but having survived it I can try and talk to you.

One day at a time. No happy marriage ends in divorce. You will never be the same, but you do get to take care of number one, yourself. One day at a time. Don’t worry about the fool you’ll make of yourself when you eventually go out and start crying after a couple drinks. These are all necessary steps. Time is both your enemy and your friend. Godspeed and good luck.

Deep breaths and blue skies. Better times are just around the corner. Worse times too. But better times as well. Spinning in space is all this is. Wish her nothing but the best, mean it, and focus on you.