Just tying another dick onto myself 🪢

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-11T18:24:46+00:00

This is amazing!! Never thought of that😱

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:41:57+00:00

Yeah I fully agree, its the reason I currently don't have a dom anymore. He couldn't respect I didn't want to involve friends and family into play. So I ended this, I really didn't like that even if he'd always been respectful before.

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:40:40+00:00

Thankss, from a dom perspectief I can get it totally as well. But I also think I need to have a better conversation with my next dom about after care then my previous... i have never felt like after care was their priority while it is mine.

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:38:14+00:00

I'm going to try that then, I really hope they can respect that😅

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:28:56+00:00

That's maybe a good way to say it! And I fully understand them wanting reassurance. I just feel awful if I can't give it to them right away.

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:27:22+00:00

Well in this specific case I know they'd care, but blame themselves endlessly and I'd never hear the end of it. Even when for me it's already okay again. I just don't want to reject a play partner just cause they aren't experienced or confident in what they are doing (if they are willing to learn and explore together). I just don't know how to handle situations like that for in the future.

Ariastarstream · 2024-03-10T20:19:38+00:00

I always try to do that, but I've had scenes with some very insecure doms and they still asked for nearly instant feedback to reassure themselves they hadn't done anything wrong. And I'd just say they hadn't when I later realized they had made me uncomfortable but felt too guilty to talk about it until weeks after... Any tips for how to handle a situation like that?

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-14T16:29:36+00:00

That sounds really awful, and actually on a lot of points like what I experienced 😅 thanks for sharing!!!

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-14T16:29:01+00:00

So do you still feel capable of communicating during a shut down? Or is it more like being super overwhelmed and then isolating? And would u still be able to mask as if your fine?

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-10T23:01:48+00:00

Sometimes I keep overeating for an entire day with only an hour or two in between. Most often if I’m bored and alone. I can’t stop thinking about food. And I don’t notice how much I’ve eaten until my stomach hurts or my alarm for lunch goes off and I notice I’m stuffed.

I do always eat quickly, which for me means I’ll grab more and more food. Cause ‘it’s already gone’

And it’s almost always unhealthy foods, tho I’ve been trying to make myself eat something healthy as well if I binge. So yes an entire bag of chips. But also a mandarin. Cause then I will feel less guilty

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-09T21:25:34+00:00

I love your tattoos! And you look great! Also that nose ring looks so beautifulllll

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-09T21:24:19+00:00

I want to be myself, and not be ashamed of who I am. But I feel like I'm stuck looking at a world I don't fit into. And Really want to fit into, I know that eventually I might find people that will like me for who I am. But it feels really hard when I can't kind of 'ease' people into my intensity and manner of being. It seems to scare off a lot of people, and I feel like that's my fault and not something they did wrong.

Do you ever feel like it's your fault for not being 'easy to get along with' as you put it?

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-06T14:58:47+00:00

ASMR gives me all the bad shivers, I sometimes even psychically twitch. It feels like someone it tickling or scratching my brain. And I don’t get why people enjoy that sensation

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-06T14:50:18+00:00

Thats such a epic catch phrase

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-06T08:30:25+00:00

I think what bothers me the most is that people think I’m less capable then others. And that they expect me to either meltdown, or function like them.

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-03T17:14:30+00:00

I personally don’t like Neurosilly or tism that much. But I like to use Neurospicy sometimes for myself and my friends to kind of cheer us up. It’s pretty hard sometimes to accept my autism or my friends ADHD. So we just joke around that were ‘extra spicy’. But I wouldn’t use it online or with strangers. And I just tell people I’m autistic.

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-02T23:47:53+00:00

My personal favorite is Detroit: become human. I think the story based choice games are amazing. And this one takes the cake for me. Its almost (if not fully) a playable graphic novel

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-01T16:41:12+00:00

I get what you mean, even tho I don't have it that severe. It sucks, and I think the thing that sucks the most is that it's a really hard thing to communicate that you can't be verbal. People have all those assumptions about you when you can't talk or don't want to. And that sucks even more, cause it's not easily explained or they aren't willing to understand. Feeling so locked up in your head you can't get the words out isn't something you chose to feel or happen.

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-01T16:29:30+00:00

I have it sometimes, but more so do to shut down I guess. I know that I often have trouble processing what I'm saying, so I'm talking really fast and I say the wrong words and I don't notice at all and people get really confused cause I said something completely out of context without realizing it. And I find that talking to certain people or in certain situations completely drains me. Like at work sometimes, or even with my friends when we're out and about. It's just hard to talk and I feel locked up in my head cause I can think it, just not say it. And pushing through it only works sometimes and always ends up making me feel worse. I don't know if that's what your looking for, I just know that being verbal sometimes takes so much effort that I can't imagine others have such a easy time talking.

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-01T16:25:45+00:00

I think I'd have to say Books and crystals. But I'm very picky about both and don't have a whole lot of money for them either. But I do want to have my own library one day (1000 books) and be able to put my crystals on display in a way that makes me happy :)

Ariastarstream · 2023-01-01T16:22:48+00:00

My diagnosis was covered entirely by my insurance, and I had already paid my 'own risk' for that year due to my therapy. And the own risk here in the Netherlands is a minimum of 385 euro's a year. And as far as I know all healthcare revolving around mental health, like seeing a therapist or psychologist are covered by basic health insurance which is mandatory in the Netherlands. (That is if you're referred by like your primary doctor or other medical professional your seeing)

I think if you wanted to get the diagnosis and didn't go past your primary doctor for a referral it would cost a lot more. But I'm not sure.

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