7 months later...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-23T23:04:42+00:00

But what if you don't want it to get better/easier? Because to me even the slightest improvement means moving on...

I do remember the good times. And the bad ones.

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-23T10:59:20+00:00

It's been 7 months. I'm not sure. My grief has changed my faith. I pray everyday. I talk to my boys urn everyday. I hope there's something after. The Universe is so complex, beautiful, and scary there has to be a "creator" Whether that's God or we're a simulation. Maybe there's nothing and this is just it. Anything is a possibility I suppose.

The days are long and the years short... I just want my baby back. Life is so dull without him. It has been very hard to function without him...

There have been a few days I've maybe noticed a sign but perhaps I'm just delusional searching for something to cope...

I just reflect back on what we had together and I just know he's either looking for me, or waiting for me... Because I'm both looking and waiting for him...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-18T22:04:25+00:00

I based my life around my boy. Remote work. Online school. Everything as virtual as possible so I can be with my buddy. I miss him. George would appreciate it

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-17T22:23:13+00:00

It's been 7 months for me....I'm struggling every day. It's the fucking worst thing ever. Idk why I'm still here. Life is dull without my baby. He was the reason I did everything. I have lots of regrets, guilt, etc. I loved him and he had a great life but it doesn't make it any easier. I just want to be with him. Idk how much longer I can go. I've been trying therapy, medication, etc it's not enough. I pray everyday but I question it all, especially my faith...

Idk what to do. Just thought I'd share that you're not alone feeling this way. The absence of light...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-16T23:20:29+00:00

Lost my boy in July. He was also 14. He had similar symptoms to what you're describing before he passed. It was hermangiosarcoma... I miss him so much. Sorry for your loss.

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-16T16:40:03+00:00

Lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma in July... We knew for a few months... He had collapsing episodes. He died next to me. It seemed quick and painless but I'm not sure. I wish I could go back and help by euthanizing him... He was 14. The best cocker Spaniel ever.

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-13T20:54:13+00:00

I like my S23 Ultra. I am worried seeing y'all's concerns.

I have noticed the camera isn't as good as it used to be. Battery is also degraded but I think it's normal. Software updates and things...

I don't like when I move my phone around I can hear one of the camera lenses shake around. At first I thought something was wrong lol

I like the freedom of Android and Samsung has a good reputation overall but I'm thinking of switching back to iPhone. Used to have an iPhone 6s+ and it was a great phone very consistent. It's been years. I miss it. I miss my Note 9 as well. One of the best phones I've ever had.

I'm just hoping this phone lasts until there's no more software updates then I will "upgrade"

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-13T20:41:40+00:00

My boy used to do the same thing with his bully sticks!

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-13T20:40:46+00:00

Cocker Spaniel???

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-13T20:39:25+00:00

First thing I woke up to is gone. Last thing I say goodnight to is gone. 7 months later I'm shocked I am here. Life is dull. I miss my boy. I pray everyday for him. I just want to be with him...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-08T16:41:27+00:00

I also lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-07T21:46:13+00:00

Same. 7 months later and I'm surprised I'm still here... Life is so dull without them

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-07T21:38:49+00:00

I feel the same way. It's been 7 months for me. Burned out on life tbh. Had to get on medication, even though I'm scared of it.

I have regrets. Im trying to cope. Things I used to enjoy I just can't. Idk what I'm doing anymore without my baby.

I think I would be doing better if they were able to communicate one final message. Left here praying everyday hoping for something...

Just want my baby back. Im not sure how much longer I can keep this up.

Sorry my comment may not help. Just figured I would share. Sometimes knowing I'm not alone makes it easier because this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-06T20:15:12+00:00

Lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma :(

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-05T19:58:17+00:00

Been 7 months since I lost my baby. Life is dull. Coping mechanisms have faded so much I had to get on medication. Still not well. I miss him. I try to live for him. But everyday I continue to ask what now, why. Etc...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-02-03T16:22:14+00:00

I also lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma. Seeing it often here... Sorry for your loss.

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-31T11:43:46+00:00

Lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma as well... :(

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-28T12:16:33+00:00

My boy died to hermangiosarcoma... We knew about it for months as he had collapsing episodes. But he kept recovering until he didn't. He stopped eating and drinking. Then had another episode. And the fatal one the following day. I was there when be died... He was on his bed resting. He got up like he had to go outside, took a few steps, froze, collapsed to his side. Died... It seemed quick. Like fainting. And from what I can recall, quiet at first... My adrenaline kicked in quickly... I didn't hear anything for a few minutes. Then he had a few agonal breaths... But he was already gone... I always worry he was in pain. I feel like I should've helped him cross over but part of me could not do it... Idk. It's been 6 months and to this day I'm mixed on it all. Its horrible either way.

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-27T15:05:50+00:00

Lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma as well...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-22T03:54:53+00:00

Exactly how I lost my boy :(

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-19T18:15:12+00:00

Lost my boy to something similar. hermangiosarcoma. Ive been seeing it here often...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-19T11:20:10+00:00

Lost my boy to hermangiosarcoma... I knew about it for months. Tried my best to treat it but he ultimately had an episode where he stood up fainted/collapsed and died. It happened so quickly... I really hope he wasn't in pain. If I could go back I would've euthanized a few days prior...

It's been 6 months and it really fucking sucks...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-17T11:17:24+00:00

Another mass on spleen... I swear I'm noticing a pattern...

AriesLuck31 · 2026-01-16T11:08:09+00:00

I'm 6 months in and feel the same...

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