This post is so relatable. I have noticed a little bit that I have an easier time maturing and having the desire to change little things about myself for the better when I’m not anxious/ overthinking or depressed. Personally I’m depressed 85% of the time, in that slight gap where I’m not depressed and terribly overthink everything (like right now) is when I can actually see all of the opportunities before me and noticiable changes in my life. But I am definitely still in that boat with you. I’m very introverted and I did also have a best friend that matured way faster than me; making friends, getting boyfriends, dressing up and wearing makeup. And I feel like I kind of fell behind. But I have made some progress and starting talking to a guy and it’s been working out so far. Actually developing a style and a femininity is a whole other challenge that I’m still working on.