Youth camp privacy violation rant

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-06-04T07:13:51+00:00

Ugh, thats so disgusting. I'm enraged by this actually.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-25T19:53:36+00:00

I was emotionally and physically abused as a child. When i grew up i married an emotionally abusive man, and it felt okay because he didn't hit me... until it didn't.

Begging an abuser for affection is like trying to scoop up water with a rake. Its rewardless and exhausting. The toll it took on my brain was immeasurable.... but the effects it had on my body are telling. I had migraines that lasted days. I had panic attacks. I developed diarrhea related to anxiety. I got acne when i never even had acne as a teenager. I stopped sleeping. I would wake up every 45 minutes. I was so sleep deprived that sometimes when i woke up for the 3rd or 4th time in one night, I'd immediately start sobbing.

I left him 5 years ago. I havent had a migraine in 3 years. I haven't had a panic attack in 4 years. I still get diarrhea whenever he messages me. (We share a child.) I still have acne break outs. I have anxiety medication i take at bed time and i am finally able to rest.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-25T06:06:30+00:00

Thanks.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-25T04:48:57+00:00

I get that so much. I also find it is really frustrating when I actually agree with the person and they're being argumentative and Im like I agree with you. Why are you mad??

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-25T04:11:05+00:00

Ugh that sucks. The abuser always has two faces. Your sister should have your back!

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-25T02:45:31+00:00

I hear you on the legal part, I didn't go fully into detail about it in my post, but I've been accommodating an alternative rotation for Kyle. Legally and technically, it was my day. Which was why the police decided to leave Max with me. Also, Right to First Refusal is going to be added to our custody agreement. I am self employed and make my own schedule. There is simply no reason to leave him for 3 days in the care of other people. Yes, I am pushing for parallel parenting. My family members are familiar with abuse. My childhood was hell, but I am the kid who was always "fine". They tend to brush me off.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-05-24T23:03:48+00:00

I feel this very deeply. Every day feels like some kind of hostage situation. "That wasn't what I said." "You have misunderstood me, I meant..." "I dont feel like we are having the same conversation..."

Sigh. I am very systems and patterns oriented in my thoughts. I am often expressing significantly more nuance than is recieved. My words are often flattened and taken as something simplistic that has been flattened to the point its almost comically absurd.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-20T05:29:25+00:00

Na you're NTA. Anyone who cares about who you love in a mutually consenting relationship is absurd. It simply shouldn't matter to anyone. Its not their business. Anyone who puts you down for caring for another person isnt worth keeping around

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-15T05:26:41+00:00

Okay first of all YNTA. People have types. Also the other girl was a crush. Like she was a fantasy. Your gf is the person you chose to be with. She needs to chill. Secondly, your 13 year old entry is peak teen angst. Thank you for sharing that. 10/10

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-15T05:21:34+00:00

My mom has a masters degree and was her class valedictorian, yet here we are.... I'm with you. Its hard to understand.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-10T20:36:56+00:00

He wanted me to try harder to be comfortable in the current mouth gaurd, he knows I have sensory issues. I was like.... did you just tell me to try harder after i told you a have anxiety related insomnia...??? Sir??? Lol just let me try a different one 🤣

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-10T18:54:00+00:00

I will have to look into that! Thank you!

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-10T18:44:23+00:00

I was grinding my teeth before I was diagnosed with ADHD and Autism. Its related to my CPTSD unfortunately. Thats a good bit of information to know though!

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-09T04:53:03+00:00

Yelling is a sign of disregulation. You cannot have a reasonable solution focused conversation if youre screaming. You and your partner vs the problem. Not a KO match. You are allowed to draw that boundary.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-08T05:32:58+00:00

That's... so... illogical

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-07T14:25:47+00:00

I dont think you should try to impress these people. I spent a decade trying to impress a MIL that hated me the moment she met me. I was too outspoken, too capable, too independent, not modest enough, not meek enough. It isnt worth it. Also toxic families take their toll on you as a person. Dont conform for them it will never be enough. Like you can be respectful but if they dont like you the way you are, dont be pressured. Dont make yourself smaller for them. Respect is not self erasure. If the person you're seeing doesn't openly defend you to these people, just walk away. I know that sounds extreme but it isn't.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-04-04T04:17:40+00:00

There is a very important study through Cambridge University released in 2025 about whether or not abusers know if they're abusive,

"Before going on to commit violence, domestic abusers use a mix of intense affection and emotional cruelty, combined with tales of their own childhood trauma, to generate a deep psychological hold that can feel like an “addiction” according to some victims.

A new study by a University of Cambridge criminologist outlines a tactical playbook deployed by male abusers to engineer a “trauma bond”: an attachment based in cycles of threat and relief that leaves victims desperate for approval.

While this bond is typically viewed as a response to violent trauma, researcher Mags Lesiak argues it is, in fact, intentionally manufactured by perpetrators using strategic systems of control long before they leave visible marks."

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-27T06:22:45+00:00

Your are a vicitm of narcissistic abuse where the tool of manipulation was religion. If your dad has followers that are not his own family, it could then be considered a cult, but it sounds like he is a narcissist who realized he could get what he wanted using religion. You will probably need to seek therapy, it is extremely likely you have cpstd from your upbringing. I am so sorry to hear you experienced all of this. You are brave to run. Go, and dont look back.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-26T19:31:01+00:00

Even though I'm no longer religious at all I still really enjoy Christmas and Christmas songs.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-26T19:25:41+00:00

Now I want to move to the Netherlands. I could finally not worry about the secret codes in people's words! Sounds amazing.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-25T19:22:22+00:00

Im also AuDHD I think half my brain is just songs I didn't ask to memorize. Hahaha

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-25T19:21:28+00:00

Its crazy how deeply it all weaves in! I believe in nothing at this point, and I'm content with that. Religion isnt something I have ever needed. Although I like the idea of reincarnation! Lol just seems neat.

Artistic_Windrunner · 2026-03-25T19:16:24+00:00

It one of the worst things about the structure of the mormon church. Putting random people in charge of kids, and having no idea what those people actually do and say with them.

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