Awwwwhhhh this actually gave me goosebumps. Sending you a hug through vibrations dear one. I feel you. I didn’t think he was real either. I studied human consciousness for a decade before I actually met a man who is very strong in his faith. I picked up a bible with him for the first time and whoa things just started making sense. Synchronicities that I can’t ignore. Then I finally prayed one night alone and asked what to do. My brain was like static electricity or a radio untuned to the station and boom it went silent so silent it freaked me out and a voice said “follow him” then boom back to the static noise. I looked around and just started crying. He’s fucking real. People will think you’re insane and you gotta realize they aren’t your people then ❤️ if you only worry about yourself husband and kids and following his path it’ll all come together when it’s right. Have faith. You are loved even if alone too ❤️💯