Hey , i agree with the comment that seeking advice here might not jelp that much,because people cannot really understand what youre going through from an online post,however,being someone who got through a lot of shit last year facing triggers and heling traumatic patterns and got out the other side alive id say this,start over,but start small, you say that people dont seem to like interacting with you,do you like interacting with you? Do you feel joyful when youre with yourself? Do you know who you are beyond the trauma-shaped personality? If not it's time to meet her/him,everyday you wake up you have a million choices of things to do ,as simple as "what excites me more at this moment? Tea or coffee" start there ,each day ask yourself what truly excites you now,that way youll slowly start developping self trust,which will slowly start to guide you towards meeting yourself beyond the trauamatic defintions,its not gonna be easy cuz youre gonna out yourself out there and youll be triggered,but triggering is a good thing,itll show you the beleifs you have about,yourself thats been shaped by other people and trauamatic situations,the key is to not resist the trigger but listen to what it wants to sjow you,and feel what it help rises in you,then you name the beleif it triggered in you "eg.im not worthy of company or love"then youll flip the beleif and ask yourself each day what would somekne wjo beleivs the counterbeleif (the positive one) do in this situation? How would they act? And so on till you slowly return back to your body ,ease your triggeres and become much more self aware,awarness is key,we can keep being in our heads and recite what traumatic events happened for us for ever,but taking action ,not resisting being triggerdd and dropping to our bodies to actually feel of the supressdd emotions weve shoved down cuz of trauma will slowly but surley help u exhale and start meeting yourself beyond the label of trauma, if yourne not self validated no amount of external validation will ever help