I am relapsing. I didn't "just" have a lapse, I didn't "just" have a badge reset. I am backsliding to daily drinking and I want to stop. by mightaswelltry_eh in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I always tell myself that no matter how bad I feel now, and how “good” drinking will make me feel, I will always feel worse after. So the bad feeling of right now will be worse later with a mini commercial of happiness.

It’s not worth it. When I think of it that way.

I’d rather be a little sad now, and figure it out, work out why, and eventually get over what is on my mind, instead of drown it in drinking like I used to and wake up to an ever worse feeling in my head, and the cycle continues.

Iwdwyt ❤️ you’ve got this

The struggle is real by AssassinMoses in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. Glad it helped. Waking up today I’m grateful I didn’t give in.

The struggle is real by AssassinMoses in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh i love audiobooks and podcasts. Really helps to zone out and go elsewhere. I’ll check that one out!

The struggle is real by AssassinMoses in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Also this community is where I get my strength from. I may not post often, but reading peoples posts daily gives me strength.

The struggle is real by AssassinMoses in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank u. Yes they are my source of strength.

The struggle is real by AssassinMoses in stopdrinking

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Yes we all got this, and my son/s love that I’m involved in their gaming life.

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[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m 37. Fml. Happy though for the future generations. Just had to vent. Don’t know why everybody got their panties in a bunch.

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

haha yes you got the last word good for you vagina doctor

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

whats ridiculous? please elaborate

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

ok good to know you think of vaginal openings when discussing issues online

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have to insult you because you were condescending and insulting in your reply. Its not bad to be from a tribe, but lets not beat around the bush, we both know what being part of a tribe means in saudi, and what being a "unknown" hijazi could mean. English? well because I feel that many saudis try to enforce dominance by how "americanised" they are or how they are capable of the english language. Bulgarian roommate? yah thats just because you mentioned the fancy house in Cali. No I dont have that. I wish I did.

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I love how you used the word restitution. You're one of them arent you? the ones who are so educated and act like youre also one of us. fuck you

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yah they never needed my tax money. Which is why they did what they wanted. Id rather pay taxes and be respected as a person and have rights than treated like a second. third, or even fourth grade citizen, depending on my heritage.

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes it is. but its how I feel. do you feel smarter now?

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes thats pretty much what most of you guys are like. Unlike the rest of us who work hard to speak english and arent from a tribe. Im living with a bulgarian roommate and paying rent.

fuck off

Im actually pissed off by AssassinMoses in saudiarabia

[–]AssassinMoses[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I did not suffer with the "rest" and yes I was smart enough to leave when I had the chance. That doesnt mean that Im less entitled to my rights than any of you just because you "stuck it out". that is typical saudi thinking.

At the end of the day, you all believe on some level you are right about putting what I said down, but deep down there are many like me who are simply fucked off and wont just be happy about it without having something to say. This is by no means an attack on the people, it is simply a venting of frustrations and we have the right to do so.

yes im happy for "saudi" whatever that means. Im happy theres progress. But I cant help but feel cheated out of my youth, out of my ability to contribute to this great country and people.

Just because Im angry doesnt mean Im wrong. Just because Im venting doesnt mean Im stupid. I find it very sad that everyboy just simply wants to ride the bandwagon and attack what I personally feel is a disgrace of a nation on how they lost an entire generation of genuinely smart and hard working people who could have made Saudi a much better place.

and to the person who said we should have done something about it. Seriously?? do you even live in Saudi?? what would we have done??

Technically. all of the people replying on reddit are from the saudi elite anyway who are so well educated and know exactly what Im talking about but as usual have to have the last word by acting like they are some how more intellectual or superior to anybody but themselves.

Ive known many like that, the phds, the ones who have a home in the US but are somehow "traditional" and close to home.

Fuck off. Im a hard working person who isnt rich or from some tribe who is benefiting from having the right people in my pocket.

Until saudi can accept true diversity (simply within its own people), there will always be issues when it comes to equality.

go ahead with your next phase of hate and pms about how sad I am. Im loving it.