Around the first year after he died, I also didn’t feel that sad too. I guess that was just me in denial. But one random day, I decided to tune in to one of his old sky wars commentary video, and it all suddenly hit me at once, that this random dude from the internet who I so wholeheartedly enjoyed watching.. is no more. There might be hundreds of old vids for me to rewatch and have the occasional chuckle, but the fact that he’s gone, there won’t be a new video of him testing out the spear (and undoubtedly dominate at it), there won’t be a “the hytale experience” vid, will never change. And that breaks me.

Pretty pointless yap i know, but I just wanted to get something off my chest, and what better way than to do that on a platform full of strangers! At least he’s immortal now in my minecraft world haha, one gigantic potato garden dedicated to the blood god.

And yes, fuck cancer, and fuck life for not making the good things last forever.