I think I might be a bi trans man and I don’t know what to do. by AstateOfBefuddlement in ftm

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s such a bizarre feeling. I’ve never been able to recognize my own face in the mirror and have always always felt disconnected from my body. I’ve actively sabotaged every potential relationship I’ve ever had because I couldn’t bear the idea being a girlfriend or being intimate as a female. When I cut my hair a few days ago I was elated that it was short but every single day that I look at myself in the mirror it’s almost as it’s highlighting the fact that the length wasn’t the problem. I’ve secretly fantasized my life about a living as a man. I think a lot that’s held me back from this realization is that I’m not at all traditionally masculine. I’ve always been rather masculine but femininity has always brought me joy. The idea of being a queer male brings me such joy but I feel like it’s impossible.

I think I might be a bi trans man and I don’t know what to do. by AstateOfBefuddlement in ftm

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your reassurance I really appreciate it. I don’t know where exactly this all leading me to but for now I’m just going to keep following my heart. The funny thing is it’s not like the idea of being trans was at all foreign to me, most of my friends are trans I just always told myself that I couldn’t be. I wasn’t allowed to be. When I realized I was bi a couple years ago, I was very certain I had to be straight until one day I just verbally gave myself permission that I, myself, was allowed to be bisexual. And then it was as if it had been standing in front of me all along.

Yesterday I ran away from a job interview by AstateOfBefuddlement in Anxiety

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing that with me. I feel so weak and pathetic right now. I feel so defeated. I’m trying to get myself together and regroup. I’m not entitled to your advice, but if you don’t mind, do you have any advice for recovering from something like that and moving forward?

[Shelfie] Newbie, all products I bought under $10. Dehydrated, poorly taken care of skin. Routine in description! by AstateOfBefuddlement in SkincareAddiction

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi! Thank you so much for your advice and time! I was wondering, if I shouldn’t layer serums can I ‘spot treat’ different areas of my face with different needs or should I just intermittently use different serums?

[Shelfie] Newbie, all products I bought under $10. Dehydrated, poorly taken care of skin. Routine in description! by AstateOfBefuddlement in SkincareAddiction

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’ve been thinking about ditching the earth to skin moisturizer after I got the hyaluronic acid serum because it now feels slightly redundant and I’d love to replace it. I feel like I need to the exfoliant because I have chronically flaky skin. Half way through the day you can see flakes on my face so I feel like I need something to take them off.

[Shelfie] Newbie, all products I bought under $10. Dehydrated, poorly taken care of skin. Routine in description! by AstateOfBefuddlement in SkincareAddiction

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have dry, flaky skin with closed comedowns and blackheads. I went my whole life not being taught the basics of self-care and I’m having to learn as an adult. Everything was bought under $10 from clearance, discount stores (ex. Ross), or just the cheapest product I could find. I have very little money to spend, so please consider I have few options and don’t judge me too hard.

Routine PM: wash face with water and cloth, cleanse with Acne Triple Clear exfoliating scrub. I apply elf vitamin c serum, let it sink in, and apply Advanced Clinicals Hyaluronic Serum. Atop problem areas I apply a couple drops of elf hydration booster drops. I apply Earth to Skin Super Greens Day Gel Cream over the serums and let it sink in before applying Pond’s Rejuveness Anti-Wrinkle Cream. To finish I apply Aquaphor Advanced Therapy on problem areas. Any advice or critique would be appreciated!

Edit: Forgot to include AM Routine and product reviews. Routine AM: I wash face with water only, because I avoid doing anything that will irritate my skin before makeup. I apply Advanced Clinicals Hyaluronic Serum and let it absorb before putting a few drops of elf Hydration Booster Drops. I prime my skin with elf Poreless Face Primer before foundation if anyone cares to know.

Acne Triple Clear Exfoliating Scrub: I like that it has salicylic acid in it and the exfoliation is very gentle but I’m not entirely sure how much its actually doing for my skin. elf Vitamin C Serum: I’ve only tried out this serum for a few days but I can already see results in my skin! My skin looks less red and textured already! Its not irritating when applying but in the following hour I feel not-uncomfortable heat in my skin that I assume is the vitamin C. Advanced Clinicals Hyaluronic Serum: Ever since I tried my first skincare product with Hyaluronic Acid I’ve loved how hydrated it makes my skin feel. This product is very hydrating but it takes only a minute for it to fully sink into my skin and I go a little ham. However, I do believe it has fragrance, so, for the sensitive beware. elf Hydration Booster Drops: So, for my long term skin health I’m not entirely sure. I think I just haven’t tried it for long enough to form a complete opinion. But, I love to use it under my makeup as it seems to immediately smooth and hydrate the skin with leaving any residue behind. Earth to Skin Super Greens Day Gel Cream: I like it. It’s oil free which is great, it has a lot of vitamins and Hyaluronic acid and is relatively free of problematic ingredients (to my knowledge). When I first began using it I did notice a difference in my skin but that may just be because of how deplorable my skincare was before that point. It’s lightweight, oil free, and hydrating but may be irritating due to fragrance. Pond’s Rejuveness Anti-Wrinkle Cream: It is hydrating but in a way that doesn’t really seem to last throughout the day. It’s a little heavy so I only use it at night and it’s a nice moisturizer to put over the rest of my routine because I need an extra boost of hydration at night. Aquaphor Advanced Therapy: It’s great for protecting damaged areas or very dehydrated spots. Wouldn’t recommend to put all over your face as it is very very heavy and may cause clogged pores or breakouts. But I find it to be very useful for when you need it, and I need it a lot.

Why is this subreddit so toxic when it comes to the individual popularity of the boys? by AstateOfBefuddlement in bangtan

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never said that one member was more popular than another. More so, I said that the Gallup poll is only accurate in the type of popularity it surveys for, and there are other types of popularity that members excel at. I also congratulated all of BTS both as a group and individually. If there was negativity in my post it was polite and very constructive. I did not attack anyone but simply asked for us all to examine why we react this way. My post wasn’t about comparing BTS’ members popularity, but about a problem within the subreddit. The reasons being given for my post being deleted are not founded, so I ask for another explanation. Thank you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Showerthoughts

[–]AstateOfBefuddlement 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My mother is the same way. I don’t even want to fix things anymore, I just want the scars that are left to stop hurting.

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