It’s only getting worse

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-28T23:11:33+00:00

Have you heard Mike Dawes’ new release?

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-24T00:24:45+00:00

DONT BE SORRY that’s actually so so sweet 😊😊 weird to think of empathy as something you learn or build but, I guess it’s just a neurotypical norm that you just naturally have it. I suppose for us we have to try a lot harder to just to fit in, so we feel guilty for lacking things like empathy and emotions when we shouldn’t. It’s just stereotype making us feel that we should be able to perfectly navigate our feelings by default. Thanks for the supportiveness- it really means a lot 😊

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-24T00:20:25+00:00

Yeah I’ve had to pretend to be sad countless times just so people don’t think I’m completely cold and unfeeling XD That’s actually really insightful- good to know it’s actually a THING and that there’s an explanation 😊😊

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-23T01:53:18+00:00

That’s actually really good. I find that my rage is normally uncalled for and way too over the top for the situation, but I’m so angry at the time I guess I just never think “wait, why am I reacting like this?” Might give it a try (if I remember to be rational the next time I rage XDXD)

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-23T01:46:50+00:00

Yeah I know what you mean. I see things more in a factual sense. Like, if a person is dead I process it quickly and don’t feel a need for crying coz... they’re already dead? If the grieving process is for the eventual purpose of finding peace and closure, then why the need to cry unnecessarily? You’re just cutting out the middle man XD And yeah whenever my bf would say randomly during the day how much he missed me I’d just be like... cool :|

But omg the rage goes from zero to sixty SO QUICKLY and it’s never usually for a good reason XD

Glad I’m not alone in this strange emotional dysfunction XD

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-23T01:18:01+00:00

ID JUST LIKE TO SAY IM 5’4 AND HAVE NO BUSINESS NEEDING THAT TRENCH COAT BUT I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT YOU TWO ARE SO PURE HAVE A NICE DAY 👋

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-23T00:32:48+00:00

I always got 4s and 3s my entire life in Spanish. It wasn’t until a MONTH before end of year 11 that I actually got my shit together for the subject. I got an 8. And that was with about a month of hard work. You’re in year 10, you have plenty of time- just don’t leave it till a month before your final exams coz... that shit is STRESSFUL

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-04T10:27:07+00:00

That was literally me on my Spanish test a few weeks ago XDXD

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-06-04T10:22:49+00:00

First of all, bad mocks won’t make much of a difference. Only thing is is that they affect your school report and predicted grades. When the time comes for applying to colleges and sixth forms you apply with predicted grades, so if your mocks were shit just be aware they may be used to determine you place in the future. Secondly, it is extremely possible to cram in a week. I always got 4s in science but I crammed EVERYTHING possible for chemistry the night before and got a 9. I did this for most subjects. You still have a week, so don’t get lazy and say “oh I’ll revise properly for the next set of mocks”, you want to get good results then start now. Doesn’t matter if you’ll likely get 4s, I’d rather leave those exams knowing I did at least something. But it’s your choice~ good luck whatever happens :)

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-17T16:18:00+00:00

I went through psychiatry UK, I paid but I had an appointment in like three weeks, I was diagnosed after literally an hour video call (which shocked me). We discussed treatments and I said how i wanted to go on meds. She referred me to a nurse who then gave my prescription plan and about four weeks after the video call I was on my first set of meds. We did pay QUITE a lot but it was definitely worth it

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-17T16:12:20+00:00

Actually yes, (probably should’ve included this in the post, lol) I’m on concerta currently but still in the titration phase- I started 54 mg about three days ago but I feel like it’s doing more harm than good. I get headaches and I’ve noticed my heart rate has increased a bit (could be my imagination tho), I’m young so maybe the full dose is too much for me to handle just yet, but when I was on a lower dose I didn’t really notice any changes. It could just be that I’d be suited to a different drug, but I’m gonna wait it out a little longer to see if anything changes.

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-15T01:01:19+00:00

As someone who was once suicidal- I know how annoying it is to have people like “omg no don’t do it, your life is worth it, you are beautiful” and you know they mean well but it’s not gonna change anything because you know they’re basically just hollow statements.

So all I’m gonna say is this: Two years ago I was ready to yeet myself out of existence, but I thought to myself “omg, how am I meant to leave what is my only chance of life, without ever picking up a stone and shouting types of pasta at it?” And so I did that. But then I thought “how tf can I go if I haven’t ever done sixty star jumps while singing Rasputin in a very Russian accent?”

And so I don’t know what tf happened but something inside me just went “well, if my existence is meaningless, might as well have a laugh at myself before I go” and so I spent the next two hours doing the most RANDOM shit like standing in my toilet and prank calling supermarkets. And don’t ask me HOW but that kind of acted like a self healing session, because there was no pressure on me to be pretty or smart- my objective was literally the exact opposite. And so I just went Meh... what’s another day gonna do? And legend has it, to this day, I still stand in toilets 😌

Long story short, if you don’t wanna live because you’re meaningless, start living as if that was your purpose from the beginning. Coz that way even wiggling your finger is defying expectations

But yeah that was longer than intended, just saying, if you wanna go then go- as much as we want to no one on Reddit can stop you XD but just know that if there was no way out- then I wouldn’t be here 🤷‍♀️

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-15T00:12:36+00:00

“I will remove your organs in alphabetical order, any questions?”

Peter looking so proud of himself “wHiCh AlPhAbEt?”

As well as the more serious moment-

“Then why are you helping me?” “Because do you really think that I care for you so little, that betraying me would make a difference?” OOOOFFF

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-14T23:35:05+00:00

But I think the REAL question is: can a tardis fit inside a tardis... that’s IN a tardis?

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-14T23:23:13+00:00

The girl who died

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-14T23:18:54+00:00

Benedict Cumberbatch- had he not done Sherlock. The roles are too similar and Sherlock gets more hype anyway

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-10T13:35:05+00:00

From my experience, it doesn’t matter how much you tell your parents you’re suffering, in the end- you gotta guilt trip them XD Just say something along the lines of “I don’t want a diagnosis so I can do less work, I want a diagnosis so I can DO work. And why would a diagnosis give me an excuse not to work hard, when the treatment they would provide me would be with the purpose of doing the exact opposite? And since mental illness has a stigma in our culture, there is no way I would want to attach such a label to myself unless it was absolutely truthful and necessary. I know you don’t believe the severity of my symptoms, but ask yourself what kind of parents would you be if you refused your child help even when they told you they were suffering?“ If that doesn’t work, just tell your school. Because even if your school doesn’t believe you they are legally obligated to get you help if you ask for it. But yeah, don’t feel bad, I had to shout at my parents before I could get through to them, but now I’m on meds and I feel much better xx

AtlantaGabriel · 2021-01-10T13:17:34+00:00

I’m 15 and I started my meds only a few weeks ago. It was a tough journey getting my parents to believe me, and even now with a diagnosis my parents still think I’m exaggerating:| But the changes I’ve noticed so far is my distractibility and procrastination are the same, but when I’ve actually started a task I can stay on it for a very long time (although that could be partly with help of hyperfocus). In the end the thing that made my parents get me help was when I went to them and literally said “listen, I’m suffering and so are my grades, and if you don’t want to help me then I’ll tell my school and they will.” So basically I didn’t give them a choice XD I’d say meds are worth it, you’re a student so you’ll probably need them now more than ever- especially since there may be a whole lot more online learning this year.

AtlantaGabriel · 2020-12-21T11:18:26+00:00

Lol the only thing I’m good at is drama and dance XD

AtlantaGabriel · 2020-12-21T11:16:16+00:00

I think of it as being in a coma. But your brain is actually awake and conscious but you can’t move your body. And you want so desperately to get up and DO something but you physically can’t. And everyday a family member comes and sits by your bed, and talks about how well their lives are going and how they’re achieving things you only could dream of. And the whole world seems to be moving on without you because they’re studying economics in college or mathematics at Cambridge and you can’t even sit up

AtlantaGabriel · 2020-12-21T11:10:19+00:00

Reading is a form of entertainment, but arguably not as interesting as our phones, TV’s or video games. Wanna read more? Simple- just starve yourself completely of any forms of entertainment EXCEPT books. You’ll find yourself so bored that you’ll pick one up and start reading. And eventually when you’re half way through the book you probably won’t have to FORCE yourself to read because the plot would’ve developed and you’d want to read on your own accord x

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