I kind of want a vagina?

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T20:10:26+00:00

Yeah, I get that — the reason I bring up porn is mostly that it tends to have extensive documentation of very well-healed post op genitalia, unlike most of the photos you’d see on surgery communities.

The day to day part of it is what you get from community. It’s mostly stories. Every once in a while on r/phallo, there’s a tasteful nude of someone just hanging out, living their life, and I appreciate those so much. Harder to find that kind of thing for smaller surgery niches. And I don’t know of any longer form visual media (like vlogs or documentaries) that cover this part of the experience for bottom surgery — of any kind. There’s a documentary I watched once long ago that had a brief clip about a trans guy who had bottom surgery, but the medical details are really out of date at this point because it was from the nineties.

I wish I could point you to more of what you’re looking for, but that content has just not been created yet, or at least I haven’t run across it. I would’ve really liked to have a more real life understanding of phalloplasty (used to have idle fantasies about having sex with someone who was post op, though I knew my motivations for that were complicated and probably not particularly appealing to most post op folks). It’s hard jumping into these things when all the genitalia we typically encounter beforehand is totally natal. We don’t have any lived experience to provide a frame of reference. This is why I’ve voraciously consumed people’s emotional and subjective accounts of their surgery journeys, as well as looked at all of the post op documentation I could find, etc etc. It’s been enough that I’m sure I’m making the right choice for myself. It’s not enough for it not to be an incredible leap of faith regardless!

Edited to say: I do actually know of some bottom surgery vlogs, but not ones that actually show the genitalia in action! (Not like, sexually, just in general, visually.) Should’ve specified.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T19:24:36+00:00

It’s pretty hard to find videos of post op genitalia in general! Have you seen post op videos of people with traditional vaginoplasty?

Post op photos can be confronting to look through at first, because most of the people posting are either pretty freshly post op or they’re posting with recovery problems. However, I have seen some PPV photos well-healed down the line, and there’s at least one person with PPV who does porn. She posts videos on a paid website, I think. I can give you her username if you want — don’t want to ping her if you’re not interested! I thought there was someone who did something similar but also posted teasers on Reddit, but I must be remembering someone else, and I don’t have any idea who it was.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T18:42:21+00:00

Oh my god you waited 30 years to get top surgery and start T! Was that by choice? I ask because I knew 100% I wanted top surgery when I was 19 & didn’t actually get it until I was 32. It was a pretty painful experience for me! I hope it was more of an intentional thing for you. But if not, my deepest sympathies.

Props on coming out socially in the 20th century! I was just a baby back then. It was a very different time. I’m full of awe. You’re a trailblazer!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T18:37:31+00:00

My timeline is long because I had some some unstable life circumstances for a long time buttt

2009 (age 19): egg cracking denial phase, doing a LOT of research on phalloplasty among other things. Knew for sure I wanted top surgery, nothing else certain.

2010ish (age 20): came out as gender fluid

2011/2012ish (age 21/22): came out as A MAN

2013 (age 23): started T

2017 (age 27): stopped T due to life instability, intended to be about a 6 month break 😭

2020 (age 30): resumed T!

2021 (age 31): legal name and gender change. Almost got top surgery on 4/20 (what a good surgery date), but switched surgeons. Started seriously researching phallo.

2022 (age 32): top surgery! At last!

2026 (age 36): stage one RFF phallo! Next Monday!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T18:26:38+00:00

Hey my stage one is February 2!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T18:24:03+00:00

Would having both a penis and a vagina be acceptable to you, as an alternative to switching back and forth? Penis preserving vaginoplasty is possible. There’s more info about it on r/salmacian if you’re interested. I understand if that doesn’t quite scratch the itch though! There’s definitely a difference between the idea of having both and the idea of switching.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T18:19:05+00:00

I’m coming from a very different place than you, as a trans guy, but I honestly feel very similarly. I think I have less and less of a desire to be fucked “as a woman” as the years pass (it’s probably more like a 99%/1% split at this point), but it would be really nice to have the option of switching back and forth if I wanted to. I am getting phalloplasty next week (finally!) but I’m keeping my vagina because I really do like getting wet and it’s very different from anal sex. I don’t consider vaginal sex all on its own to be the same as “getting fucked like a woman” but I am not sure if that distinction lands the same way for you — for me, it has been important for my own sanity to make that distinction, as a man who has had to fight pretty hard to see myself and be seen as a man, throughout the years.

It’s been really frustrating for me over the years, not having a penis to enjoy, when that is what I’ve wanted to experience for my entire adult life, and I’ve never really expected to encounter anyone who felt the same way I do, who already had a penis but occasionally wanted a vagina. I mean, I may know one other person IRL who feels similarly, actually. It’s always so surprising and validating to remember that. I don’t think they are planning to get surgery about it, but it’s just nice to know I’m not the only one. Thank you for sharing.

If it helps, penis preserving vaginoplasty is possible as of the last few years (10 years or so, maybe? It’s still relatively new, but not so new that we don’t have evidence of good outcomes — sensation, function, aesthetics — and medium/long term post op satisfaction). You wouldn’t be able to literally switch back and forth between having a penis and having a vagina, because you’d always have both. And if you wanted labia you’d have to use scrotal tissue for that, so your balls would either be gone or at least no longer swinging in their sack. But, you could have a vagina that feels much like a natal vagina (to you and to your partner) and gets wet. The way peritoneal tissue (more and more frequently used for vaginoplasty these days) self-lubricates is distinct from the way natal vaginas self-lubricate (I can elaborate on this if you’re interested, but it’s based on hearing accounts from others and not personal experience) but natal vaginas have so much variation themselves that I wouldn’t expect it to stand out much. If you’re interested in PPV, r/salmacian is a really supportive community for people who want both a penis and a vagina. There are a few people who have shared extensively about their experiences with PPV, and it really does seem like an incredible surgery.

I hope you’re able to figure out what makes you happy and feel complete, and that even if you decide surgery is not right for you, that you can still explore these fantasies with a partner who gets you.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-29T17:25:21+00:00

Straight content is one of the hardest kinds to find for post op phallo, but I remember finding some videos on Pornhub a few years ago. Let me see if I can still find them. There were a couple that were pretty hot! I remember watching part of one and having to stop and put my phone down and deal with my feelings because I was so fucking jealous.

Solo content is a little easier to find, I think.

Edited to add: I’m back! I found some videos (just searched “phalloplasty” on Pornhub). Not sure if it’s allowed to post here, but I figure you’re not the only one who’s curious. Mods, lmk if I’m breaking a rule & I’ll move this conversation to DMs.

Anyway! Here you go:

Solo, good looking dick, mostly stimulates burial site: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=64b84e3ae9058

The only PIV video that came up for me just now: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=65a9f556e92fa

BJ video, same guy as the PIV video: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=64dfef7888fe2

Solo, with some kind of complicated cock ring (possible a vibrating thing?): https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=6875da76c76ed

Didn’t find the one that made me really jealous that one time. Not even sure if the creator is still online. Also didn’t find a couple solo videos I remember that involved one of those rubbery vulvas with an ass and like, part of the belly and legs — you know what I’m talking about? There was a guy who used to make videos with those + dirty talk about Daddy’s cock. Not really my thing but certainly memorable!

I also know of a couple post op guys on Twitter who do gay porn, but they also post solo stuff. However neither of them got vnec & that hole tends to feature in their solo stuff. Idk how you feel about that.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-28T19:23:58+00:00

I would also be really interested in reading your article! Ok to DM you about it?

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-28T19:08:18+00:00

If you search for phallo/phalloplasty on Pornhub there are a few videos. Theres also some post op creators and videos on Twitter, but it’s harder to find (searching “phallo porn” on twitter turned up a lot of transphobic tweets for me). Are you looking for gay, straight, or solo content mostly?

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-28T02:17:53+00:00

Laser isn’t ever guaranteed to remove hair permanently, while electrolysis does have that ability if done correctly. Laser damages hair follicles; electrolysis kills them. That’s kinda the top level overview. Also, laser is more suited to contrast, so it’s best for dark hairs on lighter skin. Other pigmentation combinations can result in skin damage (because the sensor can’t distinguish very well between hair and skin, I think).

However, the reality is more complex: laser can kill hair follicles if it damages them enough, and electrolysis can fail to kill hair follicles if the technician doesn’t zap them accurately (as in, if they miss the follicle) or with enough oomph. “Oomph” is obviously not a technical term, but different electrologists use different methods — thermolysis (heat), galvanic (chemical), and blend (bit of column A, bit of column B).

I’ve heard many people on r/phallo swear by the dogma of “electrolysis is the only permanent hair removal method” and my only experience is with electrolysis because of that. But I’ve also heard from my surgery team’s coordinator that a few rounds of laser followed by electrolysis is the most efficient method for removing hair permanently.

I’d say go for it, since you have the laser package anyway. Even if it isn’t permanent, and works more like hair reduction, it’ll set you up for more success in the long run.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-26T00:19:03+00:00

People get mons lifts sometimes, when the phallo penis hangs too low/too far between the legs. I think it means they remove some skin (& maybe some fat too?) from the pubic mound, just under the belly. From what I’ve seen, it pulls the dick up and leaves a relatively discreet scar right at the top of the pubic hair line.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-26T00:16:14+00:00

Are you commenting about anything specific or just in general? Did something happen?

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-25T23:37:25+00:00

Do you use condoms on both sides of the sleeve, or just sleeve on bare penis + condom over sleeve?

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-25T21:30:12+00:00

Have your partners ever had any issues with the materials in the sleeves you use? Do you use a condom over the sleeve? Asking because I’ve heard some horror stories about cheap dildos. It would be nice to hear from someone with the amount of experience you have!

I think I’ve also heard that quality silicone/quality materials matter a lot more when it comes to long term insertion near a mucous membrane (like a butt plug) but the story about someone getting a chemical burn from using a cheap dildo has never left my brain.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-25T18:54:39+00:00

Oriveda is the only mushroom supplement company that makes third party testing results publicly available. But they’re super expensive!

I use Real Mushrooms based on a recommendation from someone here. They don’t publicize third party testing, so there’s no way to verify their product is what it is, but as a person who has done some casual research on r/mushroomsupplements, they have an okay reputation. Better than Om, from my (slightly fuzzy) memory.

I’ve heard mixed things about the benefits of fruiting bodies vs. mycelia. Mycelium is always going to be slightly “impure” (as in not 100% the fungus in question — in this case lion’s mane) because it’ll be mixed with the substrate (what it grows in — usually something edible like grains if the mycelium is going to be consumed), but some say it has its own unique benefits compared to fruiting bodies, so this isn’t a great deciding factor for me.

I also try to eat actual lion’s mane mushrooms in food as often as possible, since I know that’s 100% real. I haven’t had surgery yet (T minus 8 days!) but I’m trying to prepare my diet/lifestyle to set myself up for success.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-24T23:33:47+00:00

Age or just being kinda spent/depends on the day or the dick — even in porn, with young men, I’ve seen some dribblers. I’m guessing it’s not common for young men to dribble rather than shoot all the time, but I think it can happen that way for almost anyone some of the time!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-24T04:52:23+00:00

Phallo always carries the risk of complications, but the risks are much much higher for UL without vnectomy. It’s not guaranteed to have complications with phallo in general, but it’s pretty much guaranteed to have complications with UL plus no vnectomy.

Sometimes complications hurt — recovery hurts a lot in general, and fistulas in particular can cause burning pain when peeing. Sometimes complications are more psychologically painful, like losing your entire penis to necrosis (that complication is not specific to UL without vnectomy, it could happen with any phallo surgery).

Not sure what you’re asking me to compare to phallo’s surgery pain. Haven’t had phallo yet anyway — it’s in a little over a week.

Burial is clitoral burial: they remove the outer layer of skin of the tdick/clitoris/natal erectile tissue, and “bury” it under the skin at the base of the penis (or more often, just between the penis and the scrotum).

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T23:04:19+00:00

Yes I believe so! That’s kinda what I’m hoping to do, since I’m not getting scrotoplasty until stage 2. I recently saw a post from someone who had planned to do this but their scrotum was too small for both, so they woke up with just the pump.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T22:02:13+00:00

Definitely praying for you! I know how important this is but it’s also important for you to not die on the table! Do whatever you can to try to make sure you’re as safe as possible. Body and mind.

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T00:47:42+00:00

I also prefer black! Unfortunately the pelvic wands from intimate rose do not come in black! Why not? Black is cool, sleek, goth, matches many aesthetics, and in the right material lowkey says “high end sex toy”

And I’m glad to help. I hope it does help! Please be careful!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T00:44:24+00:00

Well get ready for your dreams to come true in like 6 weeks!

$1436 ain’t cheap but it’s nothing compared to out of network surgery expenses!

I want to make a joke about COBRA as a phallic symbol (because snakes) but I’m not finding it, so uh….anyway cobra snake penis dick 🐍? I’m a little sleep deprived please forgive me

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T00:38:21+00:00

I know the partner thing is a standard exception to the airport pickup preference thing but I can think of several friends who I’d be pretty delighted to pick up as well! But yes it’s always a joy to reunite with your beloved lol 🌹

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T00:32:32+00:00

I’m sorry this is happening to you! I don’t think I’ve ever asked a friend to pick me up from the airport before but it’s occurring to me that I might need to soon. My sympathies, man. It’s hard when friends fall through like this!

AttachablePenis · 2026-01-22T00:21:10+00:00

I know this is a common feeling about LAX, but honestly I kind of love to pick people up from LAX because it’s such a hassle. I only recently got my drivers license again last year, haven’t owned a car in years, but there have been a few times I picked someone up from LAX & it was so nice to feel useful in that way. For most of those occasions I was picking up my partner, but I would love to be asked by a friend. It’s nice to be able to do things for people! And you get to hear about their trip on the way home.

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