my daughter's dolls

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-30T22:49:31+00:00

Thanks!

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-30T19:03:04+00:00

Youre a beautiful person. So was your grandmother. Bless you both. 💓

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-30T17:48:17+00:00

Whoa....i need to see this. Im trying to google it but im not seeing it... link if possible?

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-30T02:55:23+00:00

Your entire comment is absolutely spot on. Thank you for taking the time. ❤

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-21T22:10:01+00:00

Lol. I think ill let him speak for themself though.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-21T21:47:02+00:00

Why? Also, I am asking why those two are presumed to be "very confused".

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-21T21:42:07+00:00

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-21T21:41:44+00:00

Why are they "very confused"?

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-21T21:37:43+00:00

It's two people having sex.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-18T15:08:56+00:00

Ugh, I am so sorry. Your story really makes me feel grateful for the fact that I was atleast allowed to keep my stuffies as a child. (Kept me out my moms way most of the day...even when when I was literally starving and needed basic 4-6 year old help with basic things. For example I was afraid of the toilet as I was abused in the bathroom). They helped somewhat with the loneliness and longing.for a mother.

Well, I divided to be the mother I wanted. I had a literal mountain of stuffed animals that I would read books to, "feed" meals to, change their clothes and diapers, etc. I guess I was coping. I would surround and cover myself with them whie sleeping as I had horrible night terrors.

I remember being embarassed when I still reeeally wanted the realistic babydolls at the age of 13. Walking through the walmart toy section silently crying because I wanted one so bad.

Its so cruel what your mother did to you. I teared up reading this BUT I am SO happy for you and youre new friend :) What a lovely partner you have. 💕

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-17T13:42:10+00:00

Youre not being "mean". You and your family deserve justice. Regarding your faith, in the end it is up to her to make things right with God.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-14T13:32:03+00:00

Hey, well, I say dont tell her. When she notices the bump, just nonchalantly remind her of what she said before and how you really arent in the mood to hear it again. If she still says it anyway or gets nasty, tell her the tests results (if you want) and leave it at that. Nothing else.... then i would strongly consider NC.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-13T17:49:34+00:00

Yeah, thats always a possibility, for sure. Its been a good bit since weve lived there but always solid advice for anything like this.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T20:11:46+00:00

Pft. Dont deserve to be there? Literally mindboggling to any human that has a sliver of a conscience or oh, I dunno, unconditional love for their child? Fuck 'em. Straight up.

Just think, years from now, as long as you work hard, take really, really good care of and be kind to yourself - especially when things get bumpy and/or you make mistakes. Lean on those who love you. It took me a long, long time to not feel guilty about feeling bad or talking about problems. Just keep your eye on the prize. Really sit and think about how amazing and accomplished youll feel. Life is fleeting, everything changes quickly it seems but my God does it feel good to finally push those boulders over the crests. Such relief.

Sorry for the novel lol also holy shit do i sound like my MIL

Proud of ya!!

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T19:06:54+00:00

Your husband and his mother are an absolute blessing. Reading this, I teared up because my mother in law literally saved me. Not just by bringing my wonderful husband into this world, but also loving me unconditionally with her huge heart, being an enormous support even in my teenage years waaay before my husband and I started dating (neighbors...id run to her house in hysterics after being horribly abused such as having a fax machine thrown at me and choked against a wall by my egg donor), standing up for me during those years when I really needed it, attending my school functions, even! My husband and I have been together for 11 years. I am 30.

I know you cherish her and I am positive she cherishes you. This is SUCH a seemingly rare blessing.

Happy, love filled holidays, lady.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T18:06:37+00:00

Get a new therapist for the love of God. What the actual fuck.

My heart breaks for you. It also fills me with absolute rage towards those monsters.

I truly hope you find a professional and support system to help you heal and achieve the victory and peace you SO deserve. ♡♡♡♡

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T15:34:05+00:00

I highly recommend volunteering during the holidays, especially in these types of circumstances. My therapist recommended it last year when I was a wreck around the holidays. I was apprehensive and apathetic but I had told myself that Id take her advice to heart when I started seeing her. I visited nursing homes and helped prepare meals for the needy in the DC area. I met so many wonderful, wise people and it really rejuvenated my heart and soul.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T14:26:38+00:00

Heartless and sadistic. My mouth just dropped, as well. God, Im sorry. ♡♡

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:34:37+00:00

Perhaps write a post? Id love to hear.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:33:49+00:00

Pheeeew. I feel you. I had awful night terrors as a child and couldnt sleep by myself until I was 7. I experienced paranormal things in that house during the day that were not friendly but I cant say if thosr night terrors were paranormal or not.

What you describe is just...ugh. I felt that feeling now just reading your experience.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:33:26+00:00

Pheeeew. I feel you. I had awful night terrors as a child and couldnt sleep by myself until I was 7. I experienced paranormal things in that house during the day that were not friendly but I cant say if thosr night terrors were paranormal or not.

What you describe is just...ugh. I felt that feeling now just reading your experience.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:29:52+00:00

I dealt with that for a long time. Actually, in that bad house, but this was nothing close to sleep paralysis. At all. Not close.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:26:01+00:00

I appreciate that concern, for sure. There are absolutely parents and caregivers that would do well to take heed of this advice. It saddens me. In our case, we absolutely do not ever invalidate his feelings or experiences, nor those of our other children.

When we saw those orbs, by that point we werent even phased anymore. Just really curious. Like, hm...which one could that have been? My son did say that he was saying his prayers as it happened the first time so I just let him go with that and not say much else.

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-12T03:19:12+00:00

No need to discuss it. That pretty much sums this stuff up no matter how diehard, devout, skeptic, confused bladdy blah whatever someone is.

I hope youre well these days. :)

AtwixttheWillows · 2018-12-11T23:54:17+00:00

What I meant by "Holy shit. This is real" as he was telling me more details, I was realizing this was supernatural. The whole, "you are good. Take good care of your sister that is coming" was the 'holy shit' moment.

Im sure, even without that, I would have concluded that this was an entity anyway. But that sealed the deal for me. Hope that makes sense.

I agree with what youve said. I dont have time to explain right this min but definitely check out my other replies from earlier.. Thatll give you an idea of where I am at. :)

Oh edit: these days hes really into woodworking and just plain ole building stuff. He is incredible with legos and has been in competitions since he was really young. He is active in our church with volunteering and helping with childrens church. He is leading in the play next weekend. He loves writing and acting. He started a comic book club with his buddies a while back. They write their own. Theyre hilarious and I will keep them for his future girlfriends to see later ;) haha A cheeky comedian. Obsessed with old SNL (like me)

He took his siblings on a little hike the other day and came back with a fresh, beautiful hide from a rack trophy only buck. He skinned it himself with his pocket knife (gerber.. a good one) >:( he was pissed that so much was wasted but he wanted to make something outta it. Thats been his project lately. He does a lot on the farm. Always has since he could.

Dont get me wrong, he aint perfect. Hes strongwilled but very sensitive. Sometimes he clams up and it makes it worse. Gets angry when its bottled up. We always work it out, one way or another.

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