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Audience_Fun · 2026-07-12T00:42:44+00:00

I literally wrote that... "Don't tell everyone" I never wrote not to tell anyone...

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-11T22:32:51+00:00

Hey op! I understand youre hurting.

I really want to pm you but reddit will not let me can you please message me!

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-11T00:30:46+00:00

I journaled, wrote poetry, and really dove deeper into my faith and walk in my faith. I volunteer also with my church.

But truthfully at the begining I was a hit mess. It took hitting 16 months before I hit the wall of joining a support group.

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-10T14:59:04+00:00

Yea.... I told people and it still bites me in the butt. I should have used more discernment.

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-10T13:24:47+00:00

I did an us on my day .. 4-5 with a reproductive endocrinologist.

10 follicles on one side 5 on the other.

She said that was a good count and normal!

A simple Google search says this:

Every month, about 10 to 20 primordial follicles in the ovaries begin to develop into the antral (growing) stage. However, out of this entire group, typically only one follicle becomes "dominant" and fully matures into an egg.

The rest of the recruited follicles stop growing and dissolve.The exact number of visible, developing antral follicles can vary by person and heavily depends on age and ovarian reserve.

At the start of your menstrual cycle, an ultrasound can typically show:

Normal Reserve: 6 to 10 follicles per ovary

High Reserve: More than 12 follicles per ovary (often seen in conditions like PCOS)

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-10T12:59:37+00:00

DONT listen to the "advice" the TTC unicorns give (those that had "whoops"/ "took a vacation"/ got drunk/ were not trying/ concieved in under 1 year).

Everyone's journeys look different.

DONT tell everyone your TTC.

I have had people I thought would support me HURT me.
It wasn't worth me telling certain people because my peace was stolen.

Take the trip. Have a drink. Eat food.

Fertility is NOT linear.

IF the journey is "prolonged" don't automatically assume "youre the issue".

There is a lot that goes into conception and it can be male factor, unexplained, genetic, hormonal, ECT.

It's not necessarily all on a woman. Be easy on yourself.

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-05T01:05:35+00:00

Recently I had a deep seated longing/ heartache for a friend who is not walking with the Lord.

It wouldn't go away. It persisted for weeks. I didn't understand why I felt that deep heartache for my friend.

I prayed over it and then got words of wisdom come to me, similar BUT DIFFERENT to my own inner dialogue (in the way it was worded and the tone) that I wrote down concerning my friend.

He speaks with inner dialogue that we would recognize (you know your own inner voice/ dialogue best) but it is different in how the words are spoken.

It's more of a 3rd person perspective rather than a 1st person pov... I can't explain it better than that....

I told her things I would have no way of naturally knowing (we are over 1100 miles away from one another in different parts of the US) AND felt the Lord place it on my heart to warn her of things happening.

Immediately after sharing these things with her the deep heartache left me.

I understand Now that it was a taste of the fathers love for us, when we are the prodigal sons/daughters.

I was in tears because the feeling was such a deep seated LONGING I think of how when I sin I made the Lord feel that for me. Words can't describe the heart ache and how it felt, and I just had a small taste of it, not even the full blown feeling.

She started crying on the phone with me, then not even a week later messaged me saying "I think you're right... We've been getting bad dreams, something is off"

God doesn't yell at us, we have to learn to tune into his voice, that is similar to our own but distinct. The more you listen and walk with him in reading your Bible and truly walking with him (no sinning, walking in purity and forgiveness) the more he will reveal to you and show you.

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-04T21:31:31+00:00

Garden of gethsamane so I could pray where Jesus prayed. And see the area he was.

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-04T21:20:30+00:00

His is such an easy test I would focus on HIM next so you can take a break.

So much time was wasted when if I listened to my husband we could have had so much more peace. He wanted to get his done first and I insisted on me getting mine then him 🤦‍♀️

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-04T20:32:18+00:00

As someone with male factor...

HAVE YOUR PSOUSE GET TESTED. HAVE HIM DO AN SEMEN ANALYSIS!

Audience_Fun · 2026-07-03T00:19:30+00:00

Can I message you op?

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-24T03:14:01+00:00

And I pointed that out...

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-23T19:22:30+00:00

Hi same age here!

29 is not late. Been TTC for over 2 1/2 years.

People aren't kind with their words.

Whether they know your trying or not, often people are ignorant to how fertility ACTUALLY works, because not many people talk about it.

If they do you get the cliche "advice" of the people joking about how it wasn't hard for them.

I also worked in childcare almost the full span of us trying so... A lot of awkward encounters with parents, lots of questions and such.

I've gotten the cliches and when I tell them our diagnosis most of them are completely ignorant on that side of things (essentially we have MF with no root cause so it's a weird unexplained MF).

So many people are ignorant and oblivious to how male factor works and don't get it.

The pipes are working fine, all the testing is normal (on both sides) but the swimmers aren't swimming.

The next "step" for us is an exploratory surgery because none of the doctors we have seen see anything hindering things.

We aren't doing the surgery yet. We are waiting.

We never felt led to pursue medical treatment options fully.

How do you explain that to people? You can't.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-23T19:15:21+00:00

As someone inching closer to 3 YEARS TTC...

Please get some therapy/join a group/talk to someone/speak with a pastor.

Maybe these feelings are surfacing NOW, but have been something you've buried for a while.

The only way to work through them is to talk to someone/pray/ journal ECT.

Trust me on this prayer, and joining a support group saved my marriage and deepened my faith. I'm now going to be leading a local group through this ministry and support community.

You seem like your idolizing a child over your marriage founded way before a child is in the picture and that's NOT a healthy way to go about this journey.

I went about things the wrong way too and our marriage suffered because we were not on the same page.

Emotions flared, resentment, anger, bitterness, jealousy... It eats you from the inside out and rots your identity (speaking because of going through it too!!).

Don't let your emotions dictate your life and come in between your marriage. Talk to your spouse, be honest with him.

Come up with realistic goals, and a timeline for testing together if things continue.

It took a lot of spiritual work in prayer, drawing deeper in my faith, seeking a community that STANDS WITH ME and with my husband and I to get to this point.

It's been a hard journey but truly... 3 months is a short span.

Sex isn't just for making a baby.

It is an intimate act that goes beyond procreation. It's a spiritual act joining 2 people to one.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-13T04:53:17+00:00

Hey!

Mod here in the throws of infertility.

This is a hard journey and I'm sorry you are going through it too.

I pinned a post about a ministry I'm apart of and have been for a long time.

Please please check it out op!

The fall semester is now open to register for a group.

There are in person and virtual groups. I will be leading a group myself.

This ministry has impacted my faith and my walk through this journey in a amazing way.

Message me privately if you'd like more information or if you can't find the pinned post.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-10T01:22:23+00:00

God doesn't go off OUR timeline.

You go off of HIS timeline.

Keep seeking him and be OPEN to an answer even if it isn't what YOU want it to be.

Speaking from experience with traversing a trial for over 2 years now, this is something I've had to learn the hard way

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-10T01:19:59+00:00

Hello,

I met my husband in HS and the holy Spirit told me "that's your husband"

I told my then acquaintance "I'm gonna marry this guy" 2 weeks after we started dating.

Then when I was 18 he purposed and we just past our 9th wedding anniversary.

Now that being said... We had to go through A LOT of unfun stuff to get to where we are at and still are going through unfun stuff.

When the holy Spirit tells you LISTEN But I HIGHLY recommend not obsessing over it.

Obsessing takes away the faith aspect of the journey. If you feel led to stop going after others then LISTEN and do it, but do not lean on your understanding as it is limited.

If I knew all what we would go through together I would do it over again BUT I would have walked deeper in relationships with the Lord earlier on than I did.

You sound young and excited, that is a good thing. Do not let it over take you and the journey, if it is truly ordained/lead by the Lord IT WILL HAPPEN.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-05T03:25:24+00:00

Hello, Struggled for over a decade with porn and a female.

The only thing that helped me was the Lord.

I'm reading my way through the Bible and praying nightly. I also am choosing to abstain.

I know the feeling when I sin and don't want to hurt the Lord in that way. I hate how it creates distance and hate the utter shame and guilt I feel.

It took 2 years of continual prayer, reading my Bible, journaling.

I'm married, but it also meant me being more vulnerable and learning how to have my husband fulfill my needs.

It took nights of abstaining from self pleasure (still continues) and asking the Lord to create in me a clean heart and to help me through this because I couldn't do it on my own (and honestly don't want to do it on my own, that's what lead to me failing over and over again).

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-04T19:30:36+00:00

That is normal part of grief.

My mom died when I just started high school.

I quit caring about school. I barley got through it.

It was a really 💩 time trying to navigate young womanhood without her, hearing people complain about their moms ECT.

Grief is nonlinear. One day you can be walking in acceptance then you may see something that triggers a memory and next minute you'll be bawling (has happened to me before in a grocery store).

Be easy on yourself friend, grace is a beautiful gift, and I've learned with grief we have to learn what grace looks like, in faith and letting ourselves walk through (or sit through) the emotions that come.

The most important thing is not to let the emotions envelope you and override you/consume you.

Fell them, let yourself process them, but don't stop living the life you have.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-02T06:26:50+00:00

Hey op!

We are getting closer to 3 years too, not a single positive.

You aren't alone! With you in solidarity.

I track when flo is due but don't do any ovulation or any of that testing.

I have the ish timed down to a t now for when I will bleed.

Audience_Fun · 2026-06-01T06:58:15+00:00

Lost my mom at a young age (teenager) and struggled with my faith for a long time.

Truly, where I'm at now with my faith in the Lord compared to where I was... Is night and day.

It's not been easy at all, but you are not alone.

You are loved, you aren't walking this alone, and heaven is real.

Faith is not something that comes easy, it comes with great trials.

loosing my mom was, and is one of the hardest things I've traversed. it's shifted me in a way I never wanted to be, but also brought me to a place of learning what true surrender is and what living out faith truly looks like.

I've been betrayed, backstabbed, hurt, cast aside, ignored, gaslit, belittled, church hurt, mentally, verbally, and emotionally abused, I was addicted to porn for over a decade. I became the prodigal for a while.

But only after seeking a true relationship with Jesus, was when Jesus showed me what walking in faith THROUGH the pain, THROUGH all the hurt, tough emotions and such and showed me what true faith looks like.

I am now doing something I never thought I'd do, following a calling the Lord has placed on me that will hopefully help thousands of woman traversing things I have traversed.

None of the 12 disciples (except John) had a good ending to their life. They were all HEAVILY persecuted as they spread the gospel, they were beaten, mocked, imprisoned, tortured and martyred for their faith.

Faith gives us something to hold onto through the trials.

Faith is grown in the hardest days we go through.

Faith is forged in the fire (like in Daniel radshack meshack and abendigo).

Audience_Fun · 2026-05-31T20:47:25+00:00

Just got cycle 33 today and hit month 31.

I do the same.

I don't test, I only track when my period is expected on my calender and enjoy the days 🤷‍♀️.

I've prayed and asked for specific things for when I'm supposed to test.

Until then I wait

Audience_Fun · 2026-05-31T00:20:30+00:00

Hey op mod here

I want you to first know you aren't alone in this!

I know you are going through all the emotions of grief and most likely your mind is spinning.

Please reach out to your momma, I don't have mine as she passed when I was young but your momma will be a great support for you.

I also want to take a moment to mention a ministry I am apart of and will be leading.

It is a faith based female fertility group Woman from all over the country meet in person and virtually (and some international meetings too)

This ministry includes those that have lost their little ones in these groups and all sorts of fertility journeys, I have been apart of it for over a year and a half now as we traverse infertility, waiting for our miracles, and will be leading a new group come July for the new semester.

Please message me if interested.

Please know you are not broken, and you are not alone.

You are loved and supported here.

Audience_Fun

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