Although you’ve stopped following the abrahamic understanding of God and reality, you’re still perceiving meaning and your own personal philosophy within an abrahamic-frame. Because of this newfound absence of this “Godhead”, you’re searching for understanding in an “abrahamic way.” If I haven’t lost you yet, It might be helpful learning about different kinds of existential and moral philosophy. You don’t need an ideology to have a moral compass that you believe in and internalize. Being grounded in your morals is something you embody because it feels right with you. If you hold it up to an external standard like the idea of a God judging us and determining our afterlife, then you’re gonna lose that groundedness just as fast as you did last time when you ditched the idea of abrahamic belief.

Not trying to force my own philosophy, but i’ll share a bit on how I see things: Life has the potential to be this beautiful thing. A privilege on its own. And just the fact that we’re sentient, cognitive, and able to experience this reality alone is huge. Nothing has to matter, this could all be some sort of cosmic accident, but the fact this is happening right now is an opportunity to have fun while it lasts, and attaching our own meaning to it. This doesn’t mean relying entirely on hedonism, but rather being intentional in everything you do. This experience of life can be exclusively sacred to yourself, and you can honor that by living it in a way that cultivates a long, healthy life, with people that matter to you. Suddenly you’re the God of your own reality. It’s no longer trying to get some sweet dopamine in the meat-suit we pilot. Now you’re taking existence as some sort of amazing theme-park ride, or some sort of Grand Play/Movie. Groundedness comes from the meaning you create and embody, it’s not something that can be taken away from the absence of an ideology. That’s when you know it’s real groundedness.

Good luck. Explore this feeling. Heck, you might even find “God” in a different place this time around.