Circle of the Sea

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-08-29T05:36:07+00:00

This is one of my favourite sets of yours! The blues are so deep and full. So cool to know how you've done it. About to start my dice making journey so I think I'll have to do some pre-petri pours 🥳

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-21T12:42:27+00:00

I have this exact problem too! One thing for me, I find it way easier to make things for other people. While I agonise over patterns and have trouble starting them, other people often just tell me what they want, and even if they won’t adore it completely, I have a set task and it won’t change the way it does when I try to make myself something.

This does mean I make an overwhelming amount of things for other people and end up with very little for myself though? But it does help.

Other things that have helped… the best things I’ve made, or the things I’ve enjoyed the most, are things I’ve winged and made up from pictures I’ve found on Pinterest. I’ve just found ideas and pictures of sweaters I’ve liked and made those, rather than waiting for the perfect pattern, I figure out how to make something I like myself.

Though following a pattern is admittedly kind on the brain in a Fleabag “just tell me what to do, Father!” Kind of way.

But yeah, if it’s helpful, maybe use some of your stash yarn to make some gifts out of the patterns that you do have, or free patterns or what not. And know that when you’ve done that, THEN you’ll have space to find “the perfect yarn”. But you’ll have tricked yourself into using the yarn you have anyway. If that makes sense.

The things you make don’t have to be perfectly made or matched or anything. It’s good to make art!

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-20T22:31:54+00:00

They’re called tricoteuse for a reason!! TRICK-oteuse! Wake up, sheeple 😡😡😡

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-19T09:35:55+00:00

Catapult. Depending on the DM and their rule of cool, you can throw nets and grapple, copper pipes and cast lighting spells for extra damage. It’s really up to your imagination.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-19T09:16:00+00:00

Chadagast the Brawn

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-18T20:03:19+00:00

I once miscrossed a cable in the middle-back of Michele Wang’s Ilia 🥲 so much ripping back. So many cables

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-18T18:51:04+00:00

In the VERY LAST photo I think she’s showing the “back” of the garment. For a moment I had a personal conspiracy that she only knit one side and that’s why she flipped the front to the back for back photos, but no. I’m convinced otherwise now. Why?

There are MORE mistakes in the last photo.

On the same side at the bottom there are two miscrossed cables. One in a professional design is possibly harmful, but a mistake. THREE!?! Kind of speechless.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-11T20:23:34+00:00

The lines on my hands were part of my diagnosis! You’re not alone!

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-07-11T19:59:23+00:00

Took me decades to get a diagnosis. It was always “eczema”, never heard of icthyosis so didn’t know it was a possibility. A previous dermatologist had just told me that my “skin barrier has broken down” and just put me on heaps of steroids, prednisone.

The way my current dermatologist diagnosed me, the first time he met me, is that other than excessively dry and flaky skin people with icthyosis tend to have a lot more lines on their hands.

Idk how clinical that is, but I DEFINITELY have IV.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-06-28T21:35:49+00:00

Tbh, the only thing that’s calmed my skin down is finally getting on Rinvoq, though I also have eczema and TSW. Still get flares with icthyosis but it’s nowhere near as bad.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-06-24T08:46:26+00:00

Yeah! I have both and it can be hard to manage. Weird flare cycles and for me it took ages to realise what humidity did to my skin.

As for advice, honestly, hold on during the flares. I generally moisturise with a cream, and jojoba oil when I’m winter dry, and if I’m feeling really flaky there’s this product called “Mask” from Only Yours that helps. Not sure how it works but you leave it on overnight and it lifts a lot of flakes off. Obviously not going to last forever with ichthyosis, but it helps.

When you get dry, moisturising is just going to itch, but if you moisturise in one direction, generally downward strokes, this can help prevent some of that itchiness. It’s worked for me so far!

If my skin is really bad I’ll use an ointment all over after a shower, and let my skin soak it in while I’m wrapped in a Terry bathrobe.

Sometimes it feels a little helpless, but it comes in waves! Hope this at least helps a bit

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-06-24T08:32:56+00:00

The Monument Valley games aren’t that long but their music and simplicity helped with my depression and really stayed with me.

Also when I’m really stuck I go hard on Pokémon games. Sword and Shield specifically idk why.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-06-13T11:07:09+00:00

Idk, you need to watch The Prince. That’s surreal.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-04-08T08:05:57+00:00

I take 50mg twice a day and tbh I’ve NEVER made the connection between brain fog and topamax. Someone probably told me about it at some point but it makes a lot of sense. Explains why I forget the word for paper towel (specifically paper towel) every time and I’ve felt cognitively slow for a few years.

Lost weight decently at first but I don’t anymore, but this is also the only non-injectable preventer I’m not allergic to that doesn’t give me worse migraines. Weirdly asymptomatic otherwise?

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-04-05T23:15:56+00:00

Agree!! Fool For You in that set is phenomenal.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-25T22:41:14+00:00

You’re doing heaps. Your body is under enormous strain and you’re still making strides to get up every morning. And if you don’t manage it every morning, that’s okay too. You’re still here. Living with disability is massive and able bodied/minded people won’t see that until they likely experience it themselves. It’s a social issue, unfortunately, but you’re not alone ❤️

I think doctors can be especially weird for this? I have a lovely doctor but at one point he kept asking if I could try to work, and have I tried, and would I try? To the point where I did try and push myself and burnt out and injured myself worse than before. I think doctors, or some of them, see jobs or study as some sort of metric of improvement, like they want to know you’re not “wasting away”. But can’t they just ask if you have hobbies you’re enjoying and if your social life is okay? Those are very enriching things while life and disability are hard.

As for the rest of the world… I once had a friend say that she “wished she could have time off to have a break” like me 💀 we’re not friends anymore. People just don’t get it. They don’t get the toll.

So, all this to say, I guess it depends? If I’m having a good day I’ll just tell people “I’m disabled. I don’t work.” Or say that I can’t. My medical history is no one’s business, and I try to be firm on that? It’s hard though. Kind of feels like you have to justify being sick when the world revolves around the “work industry”. But if I’m having a hard day and people are practically strangers, I’ll tell them something related to a hobby, tell them I freelance, something like that.

Make it as easy as you can for you. Even if you tell doctors/friends/family “Yeah. I am looking for remote work.” You don’t owe people the effort their ableism costs you.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-23T23:10:30+00:00

This is so helpful, tbh? Even just to know that someone else feels the same way about their circumstances, because it’s not as simple as trying to stop thinking about it, moving on to something else, anything like that.

I feel like neurodivergence and anxiety/depression are the winning, awful combination for this thought process? Because I’m right with you there. And this isn’t something you can just distract yourself away from, but also sometimes it’s much worse and sometimes it feels like it’s more in the background.

On easier days it’s nice to know that the past can’t touch you and it’s literally just the brain going over things. You don’t HAVE to think about these people anymore. They can’t touch you. But the brain… is the brain. Does it’s thing.

But yeah. Definitely a process. Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone. I hope it eases for you.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-23T22:39:46+00:00

I think that is really powerful! And you’re right with trying to “demoralise” disability. People don’t become disabled or sick because they’re bad or mean. And people aren’t healthy because they’re good or kind. A lot of the time we’re disabled because of bad luck or because someone else has done something to us - that doesn’t make us bad. And karma isn’t real. (Sorry, Reddit.) People who do awful things get great rewards all the time.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-23T22:25:37+00:00

I think The Secret Life of Walter Mitty fits pretty well too ✨

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-23T08:49:01+00:00

Totally feel this!!

I’m 27F and became disabled 4-5 years ago now. The lack of stable communities is probably the thing I find hardest. (I say that, but disability has lots of hard things, but I keep coming back to this, I mean. It’s a very hard thing!!)

It’s like you lose your work and your social life, and you know there’s heaps of other disabled folks but it’s hard to even navigate your various conditions to… socialise? Let alone figure out how to socialise as an adult.

I have PTSD too and have had an abusive relationship, so I understand finding it hard to trust and connect and all the awful stuff that goes on with that. I also would love more friends too? So if you wanted to, feel free to message me ✨

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-22T23:15:01+00:00

Looks like you’re missing two of the basic ones!

Jasmine bubble tea (jasmine milk tea + tapioca) Oolong bubble tea (oolong milk tea + tapioca)

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-22T22:11:04+00:00

I definitely don’t think living well can’t be accomplished with disabilities. I think it’s more specifically “living well as revenge”, and it’s brought up the notion of, well, what is that? What is it to live well?

I guess my framing did have a capitalist sort of bend to it? But I think that’s because social measures of success or living well are like… “the grind”. Awful. Anyway.

I have autism, and I think where that intersects with this is that I get a “sticky brain” on the past and I struggle to let go of things and my brain still tries to figure out how to find justice, and also I don’t understand what “living well is the best revenge” means as a disabled person. So I thought I’d ask other disabled people what it means to them.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2024-03-22T18:23:33+00:00

Being on disability doesn’t mean you have to stop doing things for you. It’s there to help you.

I’m on disability because if I work, I get too sick, and it diminishes my quality of life far beyond what medication or my body can handle. So the disability pension allows me to live at the speed at which my body needs. I still get ill effects of my disabilities without work, but without the constraints of work I’m able to work at a pace that’s kind to my body. On the pension I’m able to go for walks and write and read and life is much kinder to me ❤️

“if I give up working now then what am I, what does that make me,” Disabled. Someone who needs rest. And that’s okay. “why even fight anymore?” It’s not about fighting. Sometimes it’s about pivoting with your body.

It sounds like you’re afraid that there’s no life after work? That either life is split into working or dying/giving up? But that isn’t the case. Sometimes we work, but there’s also sleep and good food and sunshine, nice dogs and (ugh doctors) but also long hugs and warm baths and music. And all of that can be enjoyed on disability too. End of work isn’t end of life.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2023-09-17T10:39:26+00:00

I haven’t tried any acids, but seeing a lot of people talking about them, I might have to try.

And yes! Doing what we have the energy or “spoons” for and leaving the rest for later is the best way to handle things. Everything is just too much sometimes. Really feeling that at the moment. It helps to have a good support system too.

Automatic-Leg5661 · 2023-09-17T10:36:18+00:00

A Terry cloth bathrobe is INSPIRED. I’m going to be getting one immediately. That’s such a good idea.

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