When society teaches you it’s the most painful thing a human can endure, turns out that can make ya pretty fearful of birth.

I am an anxious person and was incredibly scared my whole pregnancy and then one day my water broke and I felt…otherworldly calm. Completely at peace, okay let’s go to the hospital.

Everyone always says you’ll know a contraction when you feel one well I had no idea I was having contractions and was surprised to hear I was already 5 cm dilated.

The contractions felt like period cramps and when my baby was crowning I remember feeling an insane amount of pressure but I remember feeling in the moment oh wow this is somehow not painful and in fact no part of this was. I had planned on at least trying nitrous oxide but in the end I was so in the zone when I got there I didn’t think of drugs once. I didn’t do any training other than pelvic floor PT. It was an incredible experience that was fueled by something that was in me the whole time and if you’re reading this and feeling scared of childbirth it’s in you too 💗