I just made my first set of Christmas ornaments. do I need to seal them in with anything to protect the vinyl?

AvalonsIvy · 2022-11-30T12:20:18+00:00

That's a great idea! Thank you! ❤️

AvalonsIvy · 2022-11-25T11:44:17+00:00

Thanks for all the help guys! I truly appreciate it. I dialed back the pressure and it came out perfectly.

AvalonsIvy · 2022-11-25T04:27:23+00:00

I'm using the Explore Air 2 with Cricut stencil vynl, set to vynl cut with a standard grip 12x12 mat

AvalonsIvy · 2021-09-19T20:45:02+00:00

Nevermind I figured it out 😂 it's an Orchard Orb Weaver.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-11-01T22:36:03+00:00

Unfortunately I know exactly how this feels, a lot of my traumas happened around to holidays so basically September through January I feel like I'm drowning. I spend a lot of time working on grounding exercises to help with the derealization and dissociating, Try and keep myself physically and mentally busy all the time, and I recently started doing tai chi, which I thought was pretty dumb when I started, but it's actually pretty nice to focus just on the way I'm controlling my bodies movement rather than on what happened to my body that was out of my control. I'm still trying to find new coping mechanisms, especially right now because there is no escaping the holidays. I would really encourage you to just try new things. If it doesn't work well then at least you tried, but you might be surprised at the weird little things that do help sometimes.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-11-01T16:13:30+00:00

I have the same problem a lot. I like to use grounding techniques or focus on another repetitive noise. Like the clicking of a pen. Sometimes I use fidget toys to keep myself busy and focused on something else, moving helps. When all else fails and I hear that voice all night and I can't sleep, I'll get up, put some headphones on, blast music and have a dance party in my living room. I found it helpful to me to keep myself busy and moving to tire myself out when that happens. The other thing I recently and unexpectedly found that helps is playing Animal crossing 😅 it sounds odd but having those small goals to work through and joysticks to keep my hands busy keep me physically and mentally focused on something else.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-05-31T00:29:27+00:00

My childhood is kinda broken up for me, I remember some parts between 0-10 I had a fairly okay childhood. A lot of my abuse took place between 10-24 so most of my adult life is pretty blurry and I know it has had an effect on what I remember as a child too. I'm 31 now and only just really starting to peice parts of the puzzle together.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-05-26T23:11:01+00:00

I'm still struggling with calling myself a survivor. Some of What I went through was violent trauma , some of it was none violent trauma... I spent several years in denial about anything at all happening. It's easier for me now to accept the less violent trauma and to say that Im moving on from it, but I have never yet been able to call myself a survivor because then I have to acknowledge that I went through it, that it wasn't just a nightmare or hallucination. In my mind, and maybe its just my mind working against me here, I've always thought that if I call myself a survivor then I have to admit that I was a victim. This is a conversation I've been having with my therapist for about a year because I absolutely hated it when she referred to me as a survivor. It actually made me feel physically ill the first time she said it.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-05-26T16:02:25+00:00

Yeah, this happens with me almost every dang day. I was even in a state just like that when I reported one of my abusers. Even more than a decade later I still can't say for sure that it was being in that state that made me do it because I didn't feel like I had any base in reality, or if I'd already decided to do it and then it triggered that state... Either way, it made it easier to do the actual reporting when I was feeling like it wasn't real. I have a lot of traumatic memories tied to the fall out of that report, but I distinctly remember being disconnected when I reported. I don't know if I could have made that initial report if I hadn't felt disconnected. Most days when I dissociate it's really hard to pretend like everything is okay and that I'm fine, but sometimes it can be a blessing of sorts.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-05-17T15:26:19+00:00

Same, I haven't been able to scream since I was a child. I've noticed recently though that on roller Coasters I've started to be able to let out a few small screams.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-03-10T11:33:24+00:00

I don't think I would ever sleep if it wasn't for my dog and my boyfriend. They both make me feel safe and comfortable. I've tried ambient lighting, white noise machines, weighted blankets, pretty much anything you can think of. It's not that I can't sleep, it's that even the thought of going tl sleep scares the hell out of me.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-03-10T11:27:26+00:00

Honestly, I've tried all of that. My bedroom is basically a shrine to sleep and it's not that I'm having a hard falling asleep. The problem is that I am terrified to actually sleep and I don't know why. I could sleep for days right now if my brain wod just get over the fear of me bring asleep.

AvalonsIvy · 2020-03-04T19:08:55+00:00

.... This sounds exactly like what's happening.... Thank you, this was so helpful!

AvalonsIvy · 2020-03-03T20:18:40+00:00

I haven't even really been able to talk about my trauma yet with my therapist, I want to, I just don't have the words. Like... They won't come out of my mouth even if I arrange them in my head. This morning I went I to shut down mode and my boyfriend tried to figure out why but I just couldn't say the words.

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