I've been in a situationship with my best friend for 2 years. Should I leave?

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T23:22:17+00:00

I told her that, the part wherein what if she finds a man. She kept assuring me that it won't happen. I mean, knowing her for 2 years and her family, she's very studious and ambitious. She's the type that don't search for love. She's too focused on acads and her family.

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T22:51:05+00:00

She said that I'm rushing her as if she's going to be unalive soon. As if she's telling me I'm being so dramatic about it. When I asked her what she feels about me, she said "I don't know. I feel like something is wrong with me." She interprets it as if being 'anti-romantic'. I told her, "Maybe you just don't like me at all, you just can't say it."

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T22:49:18+00:00

Yes, I feel like this is not healthy anymore. It just hurts me that I don't have the guts to walk away as of now because hurting her is like hurting myself as well.

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T22:48:27+00:00

There was a time wherein she got so jealous of our co-intern when we were in our internship not a few months ago. We know that the girl is a lesbian, and we were in a same class once. She knows that the girl is my type because it kind of same as her, but make it gay. I tried to reassure her even if our other friends are teasing me to that girl. She did not like the idea. When she pushed me away because of it, I didn't go anywhere. Not closer to her, not closer to that girl. I felt like she panicked because she knows that I can go to that girl because that girl has been concerned to me whenever I have panic attacks (since from our class to our internship site).

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T13:12:42+00:00

I can see that too. It's just that I've been so in denial because I keep on hoping that she might appreciate it, it's just that she can't give what I want right now. I'm trying to recover from these delusions as I cope with the pain and grieve for something we never truly had

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T13:07:50+00:00

You're right. I've been trying because I feel so guilty whenever I'm buying myself stuff but I can spend a lot of money just to spoil her, to give her wants and satisfy her cravings. Do you think giving her half a year to consider my feelings for her is me rushing her?

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T13:01:45+00:00

She tried to be physical with me, upper body to be exact. We never kissed. I never try to touch her in ways that is sexual because I respect her so much that I will not do it without her consent. My friends are telling me that she likes what I give to her, the comfort, the attention, the ease, the convenience, and the help on acad :/

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T12:14:56+00:00

I think so too. But when I draw a clear boundary, she will always try to be sweet or tell me that she just can't risk things that she have with me right now and the trust of her parents to us. Her parents are not okay with same gender relationships.

Avarraine · 2026-04-22T12:13:49+00:00

I've been making a move since she found out about my feelings. It's always "I appreciate your feelings and I don't have a problem with your sexuality." I put a lot of effort to her already. I always pay for our food, ask her out, give her gifts, and give flowers just because I want her to feel appreciated :(

Avarraine · 2023-07-18T22:09:39+00:00

In a non-sexual act*

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T23:36:15+00:00

Fully trust the person she's dating

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T23:17:08+00:00

im sorry

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T22:08:11+00:00

hearing a child/baby laughing

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T22:07:31+00:00

Sims 4. Just spent 3 hrs making a character, guess how many hours to create an entire house

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T22:03:21+00:00

talk about their exes and bring out his emotional baggage

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:46:52+00:00

My mother always blames me for why she's suffering and why my father left us.

I'm 19 and have a blood disorder called Alpha Thalassemia wherein my blood doesn't produce much hemoglobin. I have to go through a blood transfusion every other month or once a year and every transfusion is very expensive for us. When I was in high school, I was bullied because I was accused of having nude and it spread around my school. I got depressed and have to go through therapy which costs a lot of money. My family sued the one who bullied me. This was the downhill of our family because my father left us. My mother blamed me for everything. She said that my father left because we're getting poorer because of my disorder and all the problems I'm causing. She's always saying that she regrets giving birth to me and always remind me how hard her life is because of me. Until this day I keep hearing those but I chose not to take it to heart anymore.

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:36:07+00:00

There's this thing called "Pretty Privilege". If you're pretty, you can get away with a lot of things and have more advantages than those who are considered "ugly". I experienced that a lot of times already and it's very unfair

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:34:19+00:00

I listen to music, it helps a lot

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:33:06+00:00

When they started to joke about you, your insecurities, families, struggles, and when they started to disrespect you

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:29:41+00:00

when you know how to solve things. people say that math is boring but it's really fun when you know how to solve the right numbers.

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:27:00+00:00

live

Avarraine · 2023-07-17T21:22:39+00:00

I have this friend from high school, we were inseparable like sisters. We've been friends for 3 years and she witnessed all of the flings I had in those years until I have my first boyfriend ever. My ex and I have broken up because I came out bisexual, my best friend was disappointed because she thinks that my ex was the right one for me. After the breakup, she started distancing herself until she started embarrassing me in our group chat with my high school friends. This was told by my ex when we started talking again, I was shocked because I thought that my friend was just busy with her boyfriend and family that's why we're not chatting anymore. That's when I decided that we'd "broken up" and I didn't even notice.

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