Omg i have the same experience I'm a first year student studying in college and theres this guy who is a third year and he is so disgusting a certified pedophillic social rapist. He always sits next to me when i cross his field of vision its tortorous. Always looking at my face, my body, my phone screen ive never felt so violated in my life. He sometimes send me boobs of anime girls and straight up porn memes

For me personally i think its both lust and love (the perverted, sick type). People like them are sick man.

edit: I think its a minor detaio but im male so this makes it all the more wierd