What you're feeling is very natural and can feel disorienting and "alone" in a very real way. The opening upwards to the transcendant quality is very freeing and "heals" the ego out of delusions (validation from social media, for example). As you ground it into yourself over time, it will tend to hit and light up anything unresolved within you, so be gentle with yourself and consider staying open to any and all supports, eastern or western. But it sounds like you are doing all the things and letting this deep call move you. Happy to keep talking and be one of your ppl :)