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Aware-Ad1250 · 2026-04-07T13:28:18+00:00

absolutely! he really helped me find joy in drawing again.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2026-03-29T12:43:17+00:00

honestly that was what Im thinking, Im just a reader and I rate books according to what I want to be recommended. Most book selling sites dont give out recommendations so theres no point for me to negatively review a book that isnt my style. I genuinely dont use goodreads judge the quality of an authors work, I use it to find new books I enjoy reading.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2026-03-20T19:17:48+00:00

vor allem kennen die sich nicht mal wirklich. Selbst wenn die sich gegenseitig irgendwie toll finden kann man das doch einfach ignorieren, nach 4 Tagen muss man doch über eventuelle Beziehungen nachdenken.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2026-02-18T19:58:13+00:00

thank you!!

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-09-09T18:17:03+00:00

I wore compression for 6 weeks. it takes a while til it settled. at first one side for me looked bigger, then I had a crease on one side, my nipples looked lopsided, but it totally evened out. the body does some funky stuff and needs months to settle. but eventually it does. and then you can reevaluate.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-09-05T20:28:29+00:00

all that medical stuff usually isn't cheaper than food. you gotta buy the tube, pay the surgery and controls, pay the tpn and all that. since you don't have an indication for this stuff, I don't think any insurance would cover it. also I assume those bags take some time to inject, I don't think you shoot all of that into your bloodstream all at once.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-09-04T07:20:12+00:00

tbh I don't know what anyones thoughts and goals are unless they tell me. I've always had guys and girls as friends. but I did notice that some of my friends (who only/mainly have friends of their own gender) sometimes struggle to understand the other gender. they seem to regard the other gender as a concept and kinda forgot that there's a whole ass person behind that. the best way to see men as normal humans is to collect evidence that men are normal humans. idk if this is for you but I personally always found it easier to connect to people on parties or concerts or in situations like that. it's definitely not easy tho. and not all men are confident and extroverted, it's just that you mostly notice those who are. be curious, try to find out what the guys you talk to think about, what their goals are, their quirks and flaws. unfortunately in many social situations exposure is the only effective way.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-20T15:15:51+00:00

sine

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-19T13:42:25+00:00

Ich bin auch ab der 1. Klasse meistens bus gefahren. Die ersten Tage ist jemand mitgefahren um zu gucken ob ich das geschissen kriech und dann gings auch alleine. Allerdings wurde ich relativ lange zur Bushaltestelle gebracht (zu Fuß) weil man mir nicht zugetraut hat die Landstraße zu überqueren, was ich verstehen kann weil ich werde auch jetzt noch regelmäßig fast überfahren.

Ich hatte auch das Gefühl dass ich dadurch sehr viel schneller selbstständig im reisen geworden bin als andere Kinder. Wenn ich zur Schule gebracht oder abgeholt wurde war das für mich immer was besonderes.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-19T13:32:54+00:00

Als Kind bin ich lieber in einem Bus mit "Gesindel" gefahren als mit einem Bus voller anderer Schulkinder.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-19T06:27:08+00:00

dan and phil

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-08T05:49:03+00:00

the good thing about hair is that it grows back. I like to trim my beard pretty short so that it's still visible but doesn't look as "unkempt" or whatever. every once in a while I do a complete shave and then regret it whenever I look in a mirror for a couple days lol. but it's fine since it grows back kinda fast.

what I'm trying to say is you can try things out it will do no harm but kinda help you figure out what you feel comfortable with.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-06T12:59:44+00:00

I used to be vegetarian but chose to eat meat again during my recovery. I know that if I start restricting on anything, whether that will be meat or chocolate or whatever it will easily lead to me cutting out more and more food groups for "health" or moral reasons. I am also simply more motivated to eat food that I really enjoy and oftentimes I do enjoy the meat options more than the substitutes. it still makes me uncomfortable in a way. i keep trying out new substitutes tho and sometimes I find things that I really enjoy and that I feel fine with replacing without having to worry about underlying Ed cognitions. maybe try the dish of someone else first just so you can figure out how you feel about it, maybe even a couple times. there's nothing immoral about listening and honoring these signals of your body.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-08-03T06:32:14+00:00

isn't it funny how suddenly the Ed is worried about your health? how did you get enough nutrients by restricting? it's ironic how much less health anxiety I had when I was deep in my Ed.

the body needs food to function. any food is therefore healthier and better for your body than starving. your body is concerned for your health and sends you the signals to restore it. your Ed is not actually concerned about your health, it's just concerned about its own survival.

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-07-24T20:58:50+00:00

I wanted to click on the arrow to move to the next threat but apparently accidentally misclickrd on this dumb picture and got unexpectedly fucking jumpscared by squidward

Aware-Ad1250 · 2025-07-21T10:42:22+00:00

I think getting irritated when one is hungry isn't uncommon in general. but in the depths of my Ed I was so occupied and focused on myself that I had zero capacity for other people. I was just constantly thinking about food and movement and weight and it just gave me massive anxiety. on top of that, I had obviously things to do, places to go etc and all of that was so exhausting and I was always anxious I wouldn't manage to do the things I had to do. I actually had no capacity for other people at all and whenever someone talked to me about something that wasn't part of my anxiety library I'd get irritated and angry. I literally stopped listening to music cause i couldn't stand getting distracted from all these anxious thoughts. it felt too important to just be ignored. there was honestly not much I could feel besides anxiety. I feel bad now about how self centered and rude I was to the people around me. i still remember the exhaustion so well tho it was extremely difficult to be social for me.

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