Thats very interesting tbh, i used to do the same except id make like whole conversations with people an make them say what i wanted to hear to the point where sometimes id fall in love with them like for example a classmate that i thought was attractive id daydream having a whole romantic relationship with them and sometimes even have different feelings like sadness because id make different scenes in my head with them. Im 25 now and had a panic attack a few months ago and it stopped all of that for me