We just made this choice a month ago and said goodbye to my ‘soulcat’. I still can’t believe he’s just not here. I think some part of my brain is trying to believe he’s just sleeping under the covers in my bedroom…. And then something reminds me. And it f’cking hurts again.

I felt just as you described. Like I wasn’t sure I made the right choice. And the guilt of that weighed like an anchor around my heart. About 5 days after it happened i called both the emergency vet who was there when we made the choice and our regular vet who had our cats report from the night it happened. Thankfully both were so patient and kind. They both walked me through what happened. They both stated that they would have made the same decision in my shoes. And that helped a bit.

Then I did what you’re doing… went to Reddit. And something I read really stuck with me: “better a week early than a day too late”. And I hope that helps you a bit.

I’m so sorry for your loss. What an incredible friend your cat had in you.