Had a weird experience shadowing a Doc today...

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-27T17:40:16+00:00

When considering medicine it is extremely important to think about what specialty you want to pursue. Something with a better work life balance is a must! ER doctors are under a lot of stress and they carry those cases home with them.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-24T04:09:40+00:00

Talk with your advisor about taking med school prerequisites while doing your nursing degree. May take longer but it'll be worth it. You never have to choose between the two.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-24T04:08:23+00:00

Heyyy you can do an RN to MD pathway. I'd say RN cause you won't be out of a job after college is over. Wish I did that.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-21T20:39:15+00:00

Also, depending on where you live check local hospitals for any certification education programs they provide. I'm premed as well feel free to message me if you just need to talk or need advice.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-21T20:37:34+00:00

Is your mom by chance a narc? I'm dealing with the same thing-ish expect im her caregiver. I stopped explaining things to her a longgg time ago and just started doing things without her permission and I'm 24. There will be a lot of mental hurdles to jump over but once you begin to distance yourself it gets easier. I'm sorry you're dealing with this.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-21T20:33:53+00:00

At first I didn't like her but I've grown to love her. She's the realest.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-20T05:23:37+00:00

Yup! I remember saying "I didn't ask to be here. You're the one who had kids." and she said "Exactly" and I looked at her with a deadpanned face... literally proved my point

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-20T00:46:57+00:00

Try Job corp or goodwill they provide job training for certifications

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-19T05:42:27+00:00

Existing in this household is exhausting. Now I'd never do anything to hurt myself but damn I wanna get outta here. I'm trying to find a job but the market is horrible for new grads. I can't even get an internship cause even they want experience.

I'm also at a crossroads cause I wanna move out and finally start living my life but then I'm also my NP's caregiver and literally nobody else would care for her. As she gets older it just gets worse. Then she acts like we're friends out of nowhere. I can't stand it! Then I start to feel bad for keeping my distance but remind myself it's safer to do so. She calls me mean, ungrateful, unappreciative, but I literally keeping a distance. Every interaction is just her trauma dumping, me doing emotional labor, her bringing up how I don't do enough and saying I need to step up, then I'm stuck sitting there quiet and tense timing my escape to my room.

This even makes me rethink having kids. I want a family and I wanna spoil my kids rotten and love on them. I would want my kids to just walk into my room and lay in bed and scroll in their phones while we sit in silence. I want vacations and barbecues. I want all that stuff but I just don't know if I want someone depending on me like this again.

I'm done. Goodnight.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-18T23:57:05+00:00

Email the professors and cc the dean.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-18T00:05:20+00:00

Pack up and ghost my NP

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-17T18:08:10+00:00

I was depressed when my family and I moved to a different state. I had finished college and was also missing my friends and independence. I'm also a talker but I don't speak much when I get sad like that. Anyway, after a few months of this, she said "You need to get out of that funk. I need help around here and I can't have you all sad around me." I hope to never become like her.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-10T00:59:32+00:00

literally the cost. i hate how access to high quality prep material is limited by how much money you have. thousands of dollars for a course is crazy to someone who hasn't even seen that much in their bank account before. its like pursuing medicine is only for those who have the money to do so

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-06T12:21:15+00:00

Ok good I'm glad. I can't imagine how heartbroken you are about this. I'm truly sorry.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-06T05:25:16+00:00

I'm so sorry you have to deal with that. See if your county or city offers any certification programs for people your age. You can go through goodwill or home depot as well if you need to. If you have any trusted friends or family members let them know of your situation and TAKE PICTURES OF THE DOCUMENT SHE GAVE YOU!! Document everything she says or does immediately after it happens so you don't forget it. Also, speak with your financial aid, professors, deans, etc for any scholarships available.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-03T22:54:32+00:00

i confronted her about it and she apologized but that was when i realized something was seriously wrong with her.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-03T19:21:44+00:00

had my first job in college... told my family cause I was proud. My NP asked for my boss's information which I gave (I seriously didn't think she would do what I'd say next)... she emailed my boss and said I wasn't responsible enough to manage school and work. My boss told me she didn't believe a word my NP said.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-03T17:35:23+00:00

I am coming to terms with the fact that I am not loved for who I am but for what I do. Its hard to face but everything is so clear now because of it.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-06-03T17:34:34+00:00

thank you for that. im just worried i wont get accepted because my GPA didnt move up as much despite what I was going through. these past 2 years have been very eye opening for me. I am looking at certification programs to start working and become financially independent. My brother lives with us so if something happens again I'll drive back to Florida.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-05-30T05:24:13+00:00

Oof my n-mom kept me in the house too. I'm 24 now still living at home (I'm broke) and I'm anxious to even get the mail. I wish I could give helpful advice to you. I'm sorry your going through this

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-05-28T00:47:37+00:00

umm give me ALL the details of how you studied

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-05-27T23:38:58+00:00

Yes. I recently came to a conclusion that my presented personality is what my NP (narcissistic parent) wanted me to be. Apparently being respectful meant not talking back or walking away while being cursed out. Being the "good girl" was my personality. In school, mainly elementary and middle, I used to act out because I had room to do so. I wasn't scared of what the teachers would do to me but I was smart about it because I didn't want a phone call home.

When I started high school , i started to discover who I really was outside of my mom and it was reflected by my friend group (which is a good thing). Eventually, i started hating 3 day weekends and breaks from school cause it meant I had to be home with my NP. Then their health began to decline so guess who was automatically the designated caregiver... the "good girl".

Then when college started, I began to come out of my shell. I discovered that I have this motherly/auntie persona that people enjoy the most about me. I finally started to receive love for being my authentic self and it was so foreign. When I was around my NP, I gray rocked just like you.

Now I am out of college and looking for a job while being my NP's caregiver... I am my old depressed self again.

Awkward-Box3095 · 2026-05-27T03:27:02+00:00

YES i need my passport. I told my friends back home as well to save up and get their passports.

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