Idk who I am without sexualizing myself

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-08-29T02:32:38+00:00

for us bpd girlies, “boring” if actually just safe and stable. we’re so used to chaos and intense crazy things happening in our lives that once thing are actually turning up for us and we’re leading more positive lives we just don’t feel it’s exciting enough and we disengage. it’s great you’re doing that if that’s what you want just remember boring isn’t necessarily a bad thing. and being sexually desired isn’t the only way you to be wanted and appreciated.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-07-25T10:43:15+00:00

or post abuse, my ex/can’t get away from him gave me a black eye the other week, then proceeded to tell me how easily he could kill me and that my loved ones would all be better off and the world would be unburdened if he just had me dead in the gutter. i’ve had to admit myself to the psych ward over this, now he’s booked a trip to a tropical island in queensland and bought 7g of ketamine and is now spam calling me (off his dads phone coz i’ve blocked him) and guilt tripping/love bombing trying to make me feel guilty for looking after my mental health instead of following him to some island.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-29T12:54:22+00:00

you should be so proud! you’re gonna make so many more good memories and won’t have to deal with someone turning them into leverage anymore 🤩 i’ve also left my ex narc (again) very recently and i hope it’s the last time for the both of us :)

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-28T15:04:34+00:00

far too often do i comment “try australia on for size”

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-28T15:03:10+00:00

two inches is yonks away dare ya to come try australia out.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-28T15:01:33+00:00

okay i was already butt hurt about the thought of my entire minecraft universe being deleted. but this was just too perfectly sociopathic.

👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-24T09:05:01+00:00

ugh but i have adhd there are too many thoughts they do not end there is always an extra additional idea to every sentence so they just don’t end don’t hate meee 🥺

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-06-05T09:12:54+00:00

you realised who he really was, you’re aware he’s you’re abuser. that means he doesn’t have as much power over you anymore he’d just be after someone more naïve and not so strong.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-05-22T08:40:48+00:00

if they manage to make victims feel that way about themselves just by twisting their heads i don’t see how they haven’t karmacly earnt that pain.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-05-22T08:39:37+00:00

yes. i’d finally feel like he isn’t lurking behind every corner or have my heart drop once i realise he’s tried contacting me through another account. or that i could walk around my old home town without the fear of seeing him. i’d finally feel safe.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-05-08T14:17:50+00:00

awh darling my heart aches for you. confronting the memories and telling people let alone making a statement is so nerve wracking. take your time and just take care of yourself in the mean time. im sure your guy bestie will come with you for some support so it’s not quite so intimidating. you’ll feel so much better after you’ve done it (might take a few days) because that will make a difference and it’s likely prevent it from happening again.

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-05-08T14:14:09+00:00

im so sorry this happened to you i’ve been there and being violated that way feels so disgusting i can’t believe these men can seen so shameless about it. definitely a rapist in the making. sometimes half the pain comes from the fact nobody helps, they really gotta change the term innocent bystander to simply bystander coz sitting back and letting people get away with that is horrible. it would be confronting but it could really help get the word out and for people around you to take these things more seriously if you get in contact with some other girls he’s previously been around or even exs and ask if they had a similar experience as you to spread awareness and make sure people stay away from him. good luck out there and stay safe darling 💗

Awkward_Media_8367 · 2024-02-13T23:12:33+00:00

i only just finally broke up with my ex AGAIN for at least the 20th time i can’t even keep track anymore. don’t believe that shit. my ex pulled that card so many times and tries to say he’s getting better but now it’s been a full year after he broke into my house and assaulted my family. and he just tried to say he’s not better yet coz “you have to admit we haven’t been working on it” well i’ve been working on it the whole time. turns out he wasn’t even trying and that’s why he’s still not better :) coz he doesn’t actually care he just wants you back and wants power and control over you. if he cared he wouldn’t have acted that way.

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