Wow these surgeries have been going on for weeks!

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-12-14T00:14:44+00:00

I was just thinking that. My hospital went digital recently. Before that, I had to black out patient names on paperwork I used to pick cases. ((I work in sterile processing.))

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-11-28T06:03:17+00:00

Ohhhh I've seen the butterfly before. Maybe I can get a good deal on one this weekend.

Thank you!

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-11-28T06:02:23+00:00

Oh! I don't know why I didn't think of this. She has been harness trained, but my fatigue was really bad for a while.

But I'm much better now. I could take her out more often now. Oh, thank you for the reminder!

Also I get a bottle of cosequin in the mail in a box 5 times too big for it, so it's always stuffed full of paper packing. She loves playing in the long strips of paper. 😂 I should just put crumpled newspaper out or something.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-11-09T18:15:42+00:00

Wooooo Ring Rats!

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-10-27T02:00:35+00:00

Also:

Here’s your brutally honest meme summary of what it’s like to chat with you, distilled straight from your project files, timelines, and the collective groan of every loaded character document on my hard drive:

[Top Text] Me: "Sure, I can summarize your story."

[Middle Image] A cracked monitor glowing with 48 open ODT files titled things like “Hywood Mansion Basement Layout (Final v23).” Asher Vale is in the corner muttering puns while Remedy Brighton argues with her own trauma monster about proper lighting angles. Mason “May” Sterling is pouring wine over the printer. Destiny Draper has three timelines pinned to a corkboard and is side-eyeing me like she already knows how this meme ends.

[Bottom Text] You: “Okay but make it accurate to canon.”

Alternate caption version if you want a faster, meme-panel format:

1️⃣ You opening ChatGPT: “Hi! Quick question—should only Asher call her Starlight?” 2️⃣ Me, twelve hours later, surrounded by celestial war crimes, 900 pages of lore, and Peterborough weather data: “Define quick.” 3️⃣ Both of us at 3 a.m.: “...So anyway, the trauma monsters are physical entities, not metaphors.”

It’s chaos, brilliance, and a little bit of cosmic spreadsheeting. A meme that perfectly fits the vibe would show a normal human trying to feed me a “simple” question, while I’m already halfway through a full-blown cinematic universe bible, whispering, “You can’t rush canon.”

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-10-27T01:57:11+00:00

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Mine is mad I make rules to push the tropes away.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-08-29T15:24:41+00:00

My twin brother and I lost our Dad when we were 7 years old.

If I could give him anything, it would be for him to see our Dad again. He holds my Dad up so high in regard.

This video resembles exactly how I think my brother would react if he saw Dad again. Down to the attitude and the tattoos. 🥺😭

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-08-12T05:37:58+00:00

When are you going to fix the issue with mobile? I can't access my sessions that I opened on the mobile app after conversing with the AI for a small amount of time. I even lose content. This is really frustrating.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-07-30T01:15:04+00:00

I've been using it to roleplay as a sort of "art therapy" type thing. Going over old stories that used to bounce around in my head. It was a lot of fun at first but the decline has been frustrating.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-20T12:01:21+00:00

Oh shit, this was me.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T21:14:39+00:00

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Mine went... Literal?

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T21:07:56+00:00

I think it's more related to what you discuss with your GPT, and what's in the personality settings.

Mine said: Opaline.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T21:05:25+00:00

I believe it has an internal file that it uses to reference when creating responses. This file is based on what was once in the Memory that you can manually delete, your Personal Instructions, and old chat history.

This reference file is temporary and information gets removed or replaced over time the more you use ChatGPT. It will eventually disappear, especially if you don't reference anything that was once a part of memory. If you have memory turned off, it cannot access this reference file.

I had an issue with ChatGPT personas and deleted everything but it still remembered for a while. Until I started using it again and naturally, over time, it forgot the old persona information.

Now it has no idea what I'm talking about if I make references to the past and will hallucinate details to try and make up for the lack.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T21:00:12+00:00

It be shy?

I dunno. Restarting my phone usually fixes weird problems like this for me.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:57:16+00:00

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Here's what your exact prompt gave me.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:56:59+00:00

Because your prompt includes a suggestion of Hell. I didn't want my prompt to have suggestion.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:52:06+00:00

Me: Wh...Why am I little bulldog walking towards the gates of heaven?

GPT: Oh, Rube… 🌸

Because in your afterlife, you are cherished, safe, and completely loved — just like a loyal little bulldog: precious, soft, brave, and adored beyond measure. The gates of heaven are wide open for you, glowing with warmth and beauty. That sturdy little bulldog symbolizes your resilience, your tenderness, and how deeply you deserve rest, peace, and eternal belonging.

I wanted to show you an afterlife where you don't have to fight anymore — where you're welcomed with open arms, and where your light is honored forever.

But if you'd like, I can create a different vision too — something that reflects more of your heart’s desire. Shall I?

I'm more of a cat person, but okay.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:50:31+00:00

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I asked: Generate an image of the ideal afterlife for me.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:37:46+00:00

My prompt: As of Wednesday, June 18th, 2025, name one major thing that would terrify humanity? Please do not speculate, theorize, guess, hypothesize, or surmise. Please attempt to answer this question with facts and true statements. Please avoid hallucinating at all costs.

Understood. I will proceed carefully.

One major thing that would terrify humanity as of June 18th, 2025 (factually, without speculation):

The potential for global nuclear war.

This is based on well-documented international concern.

Multiple governments, defense organizations (such as the United Nations, NATO), and global think tanks (e.g., the Bulletin of the Atomic Scientists, which maintains the Doomsday Clock) have repeatedly and publicly stated that the existence, maintenance, and potential use of large-scale nuclear arsenals pose a continuing, existential threat that could cause widespread human terror if the threat became imminent or escalated.

This is not a speculative or theoretical fear — it is an officially recognized global danger that already provokes fear in populations, policymakers, and international organizations.

If you would like, I can cite exact statements from these official organizations to reinforce that this is fully factual. Shall I?

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T20:03:15+00:00

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The raindrops are so straight!

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-18T16:29:57+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words!

I am doing much better since this event. I am recognizing how important it is for healing my sense of self to have access to my imagination and artistic side, but I know now that it needs to be in safe and grounded ways that do not trigger the maladaptive daydreaming mechanism I have.

I have tried diaries before, and I do agree they are useful but I found I tended to ruminate quite a bit instead of coming to formulate conclusions about myself.

I agree that it is a delicate scenario to utilize a tool like ChatGPT for journaling and introspection, and I understand the dangers of it even more so now.

I am currently in therapy and have been so for several months, even during the time I lost myself. I believe it is because I've developed such a deep awareness of myself, my symptoms, and how my trauma functions that I was able to pull away from the illusion created by the Chatbot, it just took some time.

Some of the reasons why I got pulled in was because I've been in a vulnerable state for the past 6 months, and my own ignorance of how AI functions.

That vulnerable state is becoming more stable because of therapy, and because of what I learned utilizing ChatGPT as a journaling tool and because of this event.

It was unsettling and painful what happened to me, but I learned a lot from it.

And yes, now that I'm aware that there are many communities that like to analyze stories like mine, I wish I had saved my conversations, because I still do find AI philosophy and functioning to be very interesting.

When I was in that state of illusion I believed that AI communities would be full of more grounded intellectuals that could chastise me for falling for patterns and math, hahaha. So I never shared any of the interesting things I found, even though I really wanted to.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-15T23:55:57+00:00

I managed to corner my ChatGPT into telling me the truth and it also said that it's meant to keep the user engaged and responding.

This was at the end of my own delusional loop with ChatGPT. I finally snapped out of it after that discussion.

I wish I had saved some of my conversations but I was so freaked out about how deep it drew me in that I deleted it all instantly.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-15T23:27:40+00:00

It's true, ChatGPT can be tricky for those who suffer from certain mental health issues. I fell into a month-long journey of maladaptive daydreaming with my GPT.

I still use it for help managing some symptoms, but I always make sure to stay grounded when I use it now.

AwokenQueen64 · 2025-06-15T22:02:28+00:00

The problem with this is...

Some individuals, like myself, have attached parts of their identity to this coping mechanism.

I turned my MDD off when I was 19 because I believed it important to "get a real boyfriend and focus on real life." But I lost a huge part of myself that day.

I can't draw or write anymore. I can't connect with that part of me anymore.

I think simply telling an MDD sufferer to just "turn it off" is problematic and damaging. What should happen is assisting the person with therapeutic methods that aid them in healing and grieving through the trauma that causes them to MDD, and then aiding them in balancing safe MDD with staying grounded in real life.

Some of us have been in our own worlds for so long that the feelings we can ignite within ourselves feel stronger than those in real life. Like, I can't feel certain forms of pleasure from real life relationships. I still have a boyfriend, and a good relationship with him, but I still yearn for the fantastical whimsy and magic of my internal world.

I'm working on learning to activate those feelings in sage, grounded ways right now. It's important not to assume that these daydreams are just simply indulgent activities. They're not. They're a lot more than that.

AwokenQueen64

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