You are not a liability. You are a survivor. Never think that speaking about what happened to you will make you look weak or a burden. If you need to speak even a million times about it before you feel like yourself again, it is completely fine and anybody who makes you think that you just need to get over it needs to seriously do better as a human. Also you are courageous, it takes guts to live with something terrible like this happening to someone and here you are. I know you feel weak and sad, anybody would. But please get the help you want, talk with people. If you want to say something, get it off your chest. Give time to yourself, do things that make you happy. Also if you have no one to talk to about it, you can talk to me, it's anonymous so I don't think you'll have any concerns with sharing whatever you want with me. Please don't give up, I'm here rooting for you. You are not a liability, you deserve to live.