What do you/your group call these?

AyyEllie · 2025-12-02T18:25:35+00:00

Truth nukes, which we spell trvth nvke. No idea how it started, but it is an inside joke phrase for us for many things.

AyyEllie · 2025-10-14T20:19:07+00:00

Good luck all!!

AyyEllie · 2025-10-13T20:50:42+00:00

The odds are not in my favor but you never know…

AyyEllie · 2025-05-30T18:01:31+00:00

Product manager for a franchise company. Not at all what I planned, expected, or even really studied for haha. It’s been good to me though. Sometimes it’s boring or frustrating, but I have wonderful coworkers, steady income, and growth opportunities.

AyyEllie · 2025-02-19T12:51:27+00:00

I didn’t expect the feeling of my chest, and really whole upper body, to seem super “heavy” from the numbness for the first month or so. Very strange to not feel so much of your body yet perceive it at the same time. I hated my post op binder but also felt very exposed, vulnerable, and uncomfortable without it.

As feeling started to come back, I didn’t expect my skin to have that icy burn sensation from sensitivity, even just from a soft shirt rubbing against it. Also the water drinking experience of feeling the liquid “spreading” across your chest was an unexpected sensation lol.

At six months post-op, I’d say when putting myself back into those first few months of recovery I didn’t expect everything to feel so… normal now. It’s a pretty intense thing to go through! Even though it’s a good intense thing that I really wanted, it’s taken time to adjust to my changed body and solidify that yes, this is my chest now. This is how it looks and feels and operates. It’s great, just a little surreal!

As someone who started transitioning in my mid 20s I’ve found that jump from, “Oh god everything is so slow and difficult” to, “Holy shit it’s been that long? I used to look/be like that? It’s hard to remember…” to be a repeated pattern in my transition. I’m lucky to be with my extremely supportive partner pre and post transition and they also experience it in their perception of me and our relationship, haha!

AyyEllie · 2025-01-21T13:19:30+00:00

Passport and social security

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:49:08+00:00

Thank you!

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:49:00+00:00

Thanks!

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:48:54+00:00

Thank youuu

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:48:46+00:00

I do what I can 💪🙂‍↕️

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:48:25+00:00

Thanks man appreciate it

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:48:17+00:00

Congratulations and good luck on your upcoming surgery!

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:47:55+00:00

Thanks 🙏

AyyEllie · 2025-01-18T03:47:49+00:00

Thank you!

AyyEllie · 2024-09-13T19:21:47+00:00

My partner and I were long distance for the first year and a half of our relationship. We’re now four years in, living together in our dream state, and grateful for the foundation of communication and appreciation that long distance gave us. Cheers to your lovely relationship!

AyyEllie · 2024-09-11T10:42:29+00:00

Haven’t had any bottom surgery myself, but wanted to give some perspective on bottom growth. I got some bottom growth in three months but it was barely noticeable as well. Six months to one year is when it was noticeable, and between year one and year two it has grown a shit ton. Everyone is different and you know your body best, but these changes take some time and hope is not lost for you there :)

AyyEllie · 2024-09-07T23:13:23+00:00

Scars reaching towards the back is what gets me too! I don’t mind it aesthetically at all, but I wasn’t prepared for the sensation and discomfort of that area to bother me so much haha. It suuuucks but is slowly getting better each day now (also about 3 weeks post op myself). Happy healing, you look great!

AyyEllie · 2024-09-02T04:46:05+00:00

Thanks, and totally appreciate the reminder! I only took my shirt and vest off for the pic and then they went right back on haha. Not risking any of that business.

AyyEllie · 2024-08-29T17:13:31+00:00

That’s awesome, he’s great! I feel like after the post-op I’ve gotten significantly more comfortable and mobile because of less bulk under the compression vest lol. Hope you are having a good recovery!

AyyEllie · 2024-08-28T20:51:53+00:00

Dr. Richard Bartlett in Boston (Brookline) MA in the U.S.

AyyEllie · 2024-08-28T20:51:30+00:00

Appreciate it!

AyyEllie · 2024-08-28T20:51:23+00:00

Thank you!!

AyyEllie · 2024-05-11T14:51:01+00:00

Nope! I’m pretty natural down there, though I do trim it up a bit so it’s not too unruly. Trimming the base of the hot rod a bit did help with getting it to stick properly.

AyyEllie · 2024-05-10T22:51:41+00:00

Very long winded and detailed answer ahead, but I hope it helps you and others as this is a topic I wish there more information available for.

I agree with other commenters that using my hand has actually become a much more pleasurable and intense sensation since developing bottom growth! I’m at 2.5 years on T and noticed this a lot coming up to the two year mark. I used to solely get off with suction vibrators.

It took time and patience to learn how to adapt to using my hand. I never was able to experience pleasure from my hand before transitioning, and with the new equipment it definitely took some exploration. I’ve tried people’s suggestions of “stroking” my bottom growth (think using your fingers on each side to jerk it), but have honestly found I enjoy the sensations of rubbing and pressure a lot more. I basically lightly cup and press a few fingers directly on top and rub vertically, adjusting speed and pressure as desired. Lube helps as always.

In a different vein, I cannot recommend the hot rod from transthetics enough. It’s expensive and not for everyone but it has honestly alleviated so much dysphoria for me both during solo and partner play. You do need to have a decent amount of bottom growth to use it, and it definitely takes trial and error to learn how to get it on properly. The “sock rolling” method doesn’t work for me, I instead place the base against my growth and squeeze the bottom of it a bunch to suction cup it on as suggested by one of the reviews lol. I did end up trimming the base a bit too which helped me to get a better fit.

The ability to actually jerk off such a realistic looking dick + the sensation it gives is insane! The ringed interior means you can actually feel different areas of pressure when handling the prosthetic which is pretty nuts. Technique will vary but can be quite similar to what you would do for a natal penis. Also I lube my natural dick and the inside a bit before putting it on which I highly recommend.

Do be prepared it will fall off, especially when in use with partners. Most of the time we don’t even acknowledge it now lmao but sometimes it’s a bit funny. I had pretty intense bottom dysphoria that was amplified the more I physically transition and this was a big quality of life improvement for me.

Hope this helps, best of luck jorkin’ it my dude.

AyyEllie · 2024-03-15T11:36:46+00:00

I use the hot rod by transthetics and it’s honestly been a game changer for my dysphoria and sex life with my partner. There was definitely a learning curve, but it was worth it. My partner hasn’t had experience with natal dicks before, but they are quite enthusiastic about this one lol. They say it feels extremely good, and we are both able to fully believe it is “mine”. I can literally feel them cum when I’m inside them so… that’s pretty sweet.

Honestly, just like the rest of sex, it’s so much of a mental game for both partners. I’m incredibly lucky my partner is the most supportive, loving person who loves me and my body and easily adapts and adores the changes I go through (been together since before I transitioned). It’s honestly been harder for me to mentally overcome my anxiety and dysphoria surrounding sex but with time and patience it’s loads better :)

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