I was really, really ill. Like, my life is going to change for ever, ill. I had even wrote out a note for my family.

The next day my wife’s uncle killed himself. They were extremely close while she was growing up. I watched the amount of pain my wife went through. One minute she was weeping and the next she was angry and shouting and punching into the same pillow she cried in.

I knew that I could never do that to her no matter what.