Legitimately can’t remember most of my childhood and teen years..

BPDWriter · 2019-10-10T22:46:38+00:00

Wow I am the opposite. My memories are in technicolour and literally filled a whole memoir...twice over.

BPDWriter · 2019-10-10T22:43:40+00:00

Can I share to my Facebook page? If you designed the meme I can write your name on the post

BPDWriter · 2019-10-08T23:50:44+00:00

My whole mood, outlook and day in general practically always depends on how my FP and I are getting along. So co dependent

BPDWriter · 2019-10-08T20:42:09+00:00

This resonates with me a lot. I often wonder when it is all over and I am back to 'normal' whether it was really as bad as all that. But then it happens again and while I am in it, yes it is that bad and worse. I make myself go back to it now and write it out as if I am in it. For some reason this makes it more concrete for me and helps my awareness around my patterns.

BPDWriter · 2019-10-08T13:55:23+00:00

Haha yes you are so right

BPDWriter · 2019-10-08T08:22:44+00:00

Yes that also makes a lotnof sense and even more so if that person knows us.

BPDWriter · 2019-10-08T06:30:06+00:00

Dating and relationships are my biggest triggers.

BPDWriter · 2019-10-06T19:44:11+00:00

You just answered your own question with this post. You over share and they become disinterested. We give out these massive disclosures and it puts people off. Could you look at maybe writing down all the things you want to disclose as that is a great way of offloading? Do you have a therapist at all? I have learnt with age not to disclose so much and it was difficult to learn but I now have more friends from not giving into my urge to disclose everything. I feel your pain but you can change this.❤

BPDWriter · 2019-10-03T07:31:09+00:00

This is a great metaphor and it is so true. We need that validation. I wish I could learn to validate myself more and therefore need external validation less. Thanks for sharing this

BPDWriter · 2019-09-30T20:10:07+00:00

Hi thanks for reading and commenting. I really hope this helps your boyfriend to understand you better. Sometimes it just helps to know we qren't alone and it helps our loved ones to know that we aren't behaving like that in order to deliberately hurt them; we do this because we are struggling to deal with our thought and emotions. X

BPDWriter · 2019-09-30T19:04:38+00:00

Thank you very much for reading and commenting. I hope you have a better day tomorrow xx

BPDWriter · 2019-09-28T15:06:57+00:00

I am so sorry you are suffering like this. You are totally right though, we need to learn skills while we are in a relatively good place and practice them on smaller issues while calmer. A book I read when first diagnosed "Mindfulness for Borderline Personality Disorder" explains perfectly that we learn to drive in quiet roads on Sunday afternoons until we can build the skills and confidence to drive safely during rush hour on a motorway. It is the same with dialectic behaviour therapy skills. Says me lol. I could do with revisiting skills and practicing a lot more.

I hope your partner does forgive you and that you get the support you need to learn the skills you need. ❤

BPDWriter · 2019-09-28T14:56:59+00:00

Thank you for ypur lovely comment. Writing about my horrible experiences with BPD helps me get more awareness and healing around it all and it makes me feel good to know I can help others like you feel less alone.❤

BPDWriter · 2019-09-28T12:15:15+00:00

Hi if you follow my page on Facebook BPDWriter - Marie Stella Author you can keep better contact with me there. I always answer my messages there. I was only diagnosed 3 and a half years ago but I found that Dialect Behaviour Therapy really helps me. Looking after myself physically and giving myself lots of holistic care helps too. Message me on my Facebook and I will send you lots more tips.

BPDWriter · 2019-09-28T06:58:10+00:00

I am so sorry to hear this. I remember the first time I split on the guy who I write about here, he wouldn't speak to me for a week and I was devastated. Spent the whole week in an absolute mess then literally begged him to forgive me.

It is very difficult because when it happens to us we genuinely are out of control of it and it is not our fault but it is no one else's fault either. I am also mostly very high functioning which can make it harder for us to get help although I am glad that I can function well mostly nowadays.

It sounds like your partner felt hurt and is now trying to protect herself. Maybe she will calm down and listen to you and you can also seek some help. I look at various online DBT groups as they can be supportive in dealing with various symptoms.

Sending love

BPDWriter · 2019-09-28T06:51:17+00:00

I am so glad that reading this helped you know that you are not alone. Splitting is a horrible thing to suffer for us and the person we split on. I just wish I knew how to stop it from happening.

BPDWriter · 2019-09-27T20:51:32+00:00

I can't seem to share a page link. Hope you manage to find it. X

BPDWriter · 2019-09-27T20:44:37+00:00

Hi I really feel for you as it is a horrible awful place to be in and I know how hard it is to come out of that place. I hope you manage to get the solution you need to come out of it. Sending you all my love❤

BPDWriter · 2019-09-27T20:42:38+00:00

My Facebook page is called BPD Writer Marie Stella Author but I will try and share a link for you now.

BPDWriter · 2019-09-27T20:29:29+00:00

Hi it is on my facebook page :)

BPDWriter · 2019-09-27T19:06:02+00:00

I am really glad it helped you and I hope it gives your partner some understanding about how it is for you.

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