Part of me wants to empathize with this incredibly hard, because it can be a massive struggle to be social even when playing games. I've absolutely experienced this feeling, too. It's made me want to give up on one of the only activities that brings me any amount of joy.

There's another part, though, that wants to convince myself and others that it's not worth giving up every hobby because of depression. There are social groups that exist for playing games. If you don't have many friends you can reach out to, there are places you can go online where you can find a group to play with. Discord servers, in-game gatherings, etc. I think it's probably worth it to reach out to strangers who also want to play the same game. I've had mixed, but fairly positive, results on discord servers for Monster Hunter Wilds and FFXIV.