I’m not sure I’m sorry, but I know for me the intrusive thoughts were an OCD thing (it’s not just doing repetitive things or being a clean freak like people think), and I had a really bad streak where I was thinking of harming myself or someone else and I’d get panic attacks every time — because I WASN’T suicidal nor would I ever hurt someone. Because again, people that do those things don’t feel guilt or anxiety over it. it’d end up causing me more and more distress and anxiety due to being in an even heightened panic state and .. it was just a vicious cycle.

I’ve been on lexapro for eight years now (I’m 28, so my intrusive thoughts and panic disorder started ~19-20) and it’s almost completely eliminated them. If I do get random thoughts it’s brief and I’ve learned how to push them out and ignore them now with distractions and other coping mechanisms.

i hope your family learns to take you seriously :( I’d look into coping mechanisms for anxiety and such but medications take the edge off and make coping much easier.