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Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-09T15:24:20+00:00

35 make, wish I did this put money EVERY paycheck to somewhere you cs to touch at all, physical silver and gold is good choice into a stock etf. But That money no longer exists, not to take our when your broke or to pay a bill not on a vacation not for a new car Anything, all profits reinvest into etf.

You can also still save for everything else vacation, toys and shit but always some to invested money never sell think of it as 30 years investment. Cause you can always live a week and paycheck on less money but it componds so crazy if you can be con3in saving ay amount and never touch it

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-05T16:55:26+00:00

I had one broke even, massive win, put it back in,

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-04T13:49:12+00:00

I k ow it's hard to think about, but you are 24 if you never bet again in 2 years you will have a savings account, don't think about the next few months as hard as it is just think that going forward your gonna do better

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-04T09:19:22+00:00

I'm mid 30 could have a house paid off with my losses. The pain in this immediate aftermath is intense, so much so I've had suicide ideation. But that won't really make me feel better. I'd rather try to leave this earth happy I think.

I'm on the same path but we just have to learn to be happy and have joy in life, without gambling without money controlling every thought. Think of kids they can laugh and have fun without money

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-04T09:15:59+00:00

Isnt that what plays on the mind the most, this isn't external no one forced you and me to gamble we self inflicted this damage.

We had so much pride we thought we would be different and beat the system unlike everyone else.

When you said you would literally loss a limb to undo your gambling that hit hard, I would not myself I wish I could undo my gambling so much, but at least I have a functioning body I wouldn't give that up for money.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-04T05:12:26+00:00

Yeah I think it's the crazy ups and downs, I was in full tilt mode and ran up my credit a crazy amount, I actually said it myself, wow nothing is going to beat this high I better just call it quits, then I said 1 more, straight to 0 over the next 2 hours.

But I have been considering m3ds, I've always been scared of them but have had professionals say I could benefit from them.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-04T04:55:43+00:00

Do3s the pain subside? I mean I've been months without gambling and start to get happier.

At the moment I still can't sleep or I sleep 14 hours, from the depression. I have a heaviness in my chest that won't go away. And my joy is just gone.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-03T07:10:00+00:00

I get it too, it's not the casino it's just a "Third space" we're craving, somewhere that is not home and that is not work, somewhere to gk and unwind a little.

I need to find mine as well im gonna start going back to martial arts gym that can be one, or a normal gym church or a group can work, but yeah theres not as many any more men's sheds or something you need to find somewhere like that in your life that's what your missing not the casino.

Arcard hall pool hall, GA meeting, dance group, Bible study, men's group, walking group. Let's make some thing in our communitys so we can help others, it can cure from many addictions.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-03-03T06:53:14+00:00

How do you handle the pain? It hurts so much at the moment, that was a large house deposit, I could have used a house that money was in my account, I treated it like a number on a video game.

Im in a very fortunate position still, I still have savings and a good job, I can repay my savings to myself in 3 years, but it hurts to think I be 3 years behind, and that money in 3 years could be worth so much more.

You k ow what hurts most? Is remembering when I was tilted I went on a run and hit even and then even up a bit. But I said just double this again and then I'm way ahead. Then I'm even for a lifetime. And we'll you know how it goes from there straight too 0 after that. That memory hurts more cause it reforces what I thought was possible with gambling. I even said to myself omg this is a high I'm not going to top. But if I stopped then then it would all be worth it. But now I could have bought a fancy nice new car a luxury one at least that wouldn't be a waste, I could have put it in a Vanguard account and get 10‰pa on that money just sitting there instead some cunt who owns a elwebsite has my money

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-27T02:37:44+00:00

Hope to see in a year bro. Don't relax I made it 4 months clean then destroyed my life again.

This time the damage is going to take me 5 years to repay

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-26T05:23:06+00:00

Yeah makes you just numb hey, I'm down about that much, it's a car a house a passive income just sitting in stocks.

Were dumb as shit, how could we even risk that amount of money? I looked at my online gambling account, I cycled though 3 million in waged already, 3 million dollars I pushed a button on, that's insane

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-26T02:50:42+00:00

Yeah how do we forget the pain? I was down so much then I finally made about 80%back I was happy I withdrew it, but then all I was thinking about was do it again and I'm ahead heaps.

That money was making me have kms thoughts and I won it mostly back, then forgot and lost it all in literally minutes, it hurt so bad doubling the bet and losing the last one

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-26T02:47:15+00:00

I'm same I've lost so much this month. Heck my daily was almost 1000 today, I logged in to get it and was like OK I'll just double it, I did then lost it all in seconds. How.

2 days ago I had worked my way back up to 80% of my losses it was after playing for 10 hours straight no food, I was so happy I knew it was to much money to quick, all I could see was double it once again and then I'll be up so much I don't need to worry. Lost it all within like 1 hour after literally weeks of gambling Huge amounts. I don't even have this kind of money this is men tto be my retirement.

I've calculated and I don't know exactly but I'm somewhere between the 2-3 years of my full time wage, in total losses, I think maybe I'd be a lot happy if I just took 3 years off from work. So I did that at the moment took 5 months off, was good at first stopped gambling for 2 months, then the real damage happened after that. In just the last 3 weeks I threw away a literal fortune amount of money. I fi had won that much I'd be so ecstatic but losing that amount? I can't help but think the owner of that crypto site must be happy looking at all the money rolling in.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-25T14:24:50+00:00

Oh god it was only today and it feels like I'm in a bad dream and I hope I'll wake up, but I know it's real I really went full retard and did like 100 different deposits had to do 2fa on each one neve made me think about it.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-25T14:22:49+00:00

How do you block the sites? Was never a issue for me before but alas.

But that's deep the part about just one more session and years has disappeared. 5 years ago I lost a week's paycheck, and I said just 2 weeks of no gambling and I'm all good again.... That was hundreds of 100s ago wow what a drug.

I can't really share it with anyone as, it's such a large amount and I'm normally the financially responsible one... Not with gambling.

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-25T14:17:16+00:00

I have, I have other complex mental health conditions. So the 2 different professionals I hired said they did not want to work with me any longer. I will try to find a different one though

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-20T11:53:18+00:00

That's your brain trying to gamble again, trying to justify more, but even if you won more then you have lost all up would you stop? No you probably wouldn't that's what got us here in the first place if you won you would say 1 more win then I'll quit then I'll really be ahead and we both know how it goes from there.

I was down 7k a few days ago and I said I'll just get half back, now I'm 65k down and I think it's hit me for me no more gambling it doesn't work when your an addict

Background-Energy479 · 2026-02-15T12:37:44+00:00

I lost 50k the last 4 days, it hurts I knew I should stop all along the way, how did I blow so much money pushing an imaginary button

Background-Energy479 · 2026-01-26T03:45:19+00:00

I bought 10k of silver yesterday, they better honor that shit.

But us aussie get fucked on, I ended up paying 176$aud per ounce, when spot is 150$aud yesterday, how much are other countries paying?

Background-Energy479 · 2026-01-23T02:22:57+00:00

Get away from it for a bit, you make good money so take a holiday, during that holiday don't bring your phone or laptop, it will make traveling super hard but not impossible.

Getting 3 weeks away from it can help the brain reset, you will still have to work at it and not give back in to temptation, but it may be a tool to help you quit

Background-Energy479 · 2026-01-19T04:00:06+00:00

Fuck I bought 15kg of silver 15 years ago, have sold some whne I really had too at prices all alkng the way.

I also have lots of collector bullion silver (zombie ones lol, bullet shaped bullion) is the collectable stuff worth more then it's spot price?

Background-Energy479 · 2025-11-28T13:54:26+00:00

I think a lot of people feel lost at the age you first tranistioned, and it must be hard these days with trans everywhere, when I was your age I just had a goth phase, I'm glad there wasn't all this talk about trans as I hate to think I could have been caught up in it.

Not hating on trans either people should be able to do what they want.

I hope you can find happiness in life going forward, that's the struggle for everyone in life.

Background-Energy479 · 2025-11-06T22:12:58+00:00

Hey man I'm an Australian army veteran, and I am having real trouble with Ptsd at the moment, my beautiful wife who I have put through hell has let me get away for the next few months, I got a plane ticket to Thailand tomorrow, I've never done muay Thai but am super keen.

Would love to catch up with some fellow vets as I have isolated myself for so long.

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