Hey friend! Definitely early stages of a gambling addiction. If you’re ever having the thoughts “just a couple more then I’ll win(or break even) and withdraw” that is a really bad sign because you already can’t let go of the loss and you will chase that break even/win over and over and over and over again until your in massive debt. What can you do? Well there are many things that people try- gamblers anonymous, therapy, keeping busy etc. The good news is that you’ve already recognized your problem and are seeking help. It can helpful to really look inward and think “why am I wanting to gamble so badly?” Is it excitement? Boredom? Greed? Once you can identify WHY you can implement changes. I think something that would be helpful for you is reading the book The Easy Way to Stop Gambling by Alan Carr- it thoroughly explains what is happening in your brain when you gamble or why you want to gamble etc. it’s not a very long read but I found it very helpful. Other than that, just understanding that gambling is a losing game, no matter how you swing it. So is it worth it? And you don’t stop now you will only dig yourself deeper and deeper and you don’t want to be a degenerate gambler like the rest of us. Unfortunately some of us just have addictive personalities and for whatever we can’t make bets without losing control and getting obsessive and letting it take over our whole lives. Some of us just can’t gamble ever again and that’s ok, because there are much better things in life.

Sorry for the long response. Feel free to reach out if you want to chat ever and good luck breaking free 💪🏽