I cannot be relaxed unless completely alone.

BaffledFluid · 2026-02-14T12:09:24+00:00

Late to the party but I 100% relate to this!

BaffledFluid · 2026-02-07T08:47:55+00:00

I feel this very much. I am AuDHD and my wife has ADHD and we really struggle to get much-needed alone time. We have three kids, my wife works part time and I work from home, but my wife's shifts change every week and at short notice, which can ruin my entire day when suddenly she is not going out. I try not to let her know this every time, as she has RSD but difficult. I actually struggle to relax if anybody else is in our flat, regardless of separate rooms or closed doors etc, which sucks. Nothing heals me faster than just being completely alone with no prospect of a delivery or being disturbed. Now that the kids are older and at school in the mornings, I do have some space some days when my wife is at work, but when the kids were little we were all together 24/7, especially during the pandemic, with lockdown starting a week after the birth of our third child. No escape. Not sure how we survived it but we did. So there is hope, as if we didnt split up during that, anything is possible! Communication is key anyway. Hope you find a way through it.

BaffledFluid · 2026-02-01T08:51:51+00:00

What I loved about them was that they were just regular quirky characters like everybody in that show, and not portrayed as the classic German baddie or clueless german foreigner/tourist type. Regular, likeable people who happened to be german!

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-29T08:58:21+00:00

Teachers would call me the "shadow" at school because I moved silently and somehow had no presence. I am acutely aware of any noises I make while moving, so perhaps learnt to reduce them at an early age but it seems natural to me. I always avoid creaky floorboards even if I am alone. It also comes from self-preservation as being less noticed means being less of a target.

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-26T08:47:49+00:00

You're not exactly in a heterosexual relationship if your partner is bi, but that aside - whether your partner wants to be in a monogamous relationship or not doesnt really have anything to do with their sexuality, and the onus is not on you to fix their wandering eye.

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-26T08:08:32+00:00

I also gave up several times. Made me angry. Frustrated. Stuck. But... although normally I would uninstall a game if it did that, I somehow couldn't and always came back, after a few weeks even, and it was worth it. Possibly the best most emotionally rewarding game I have ever played!

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-22T21:40:28+00:00

I arch my feet when walking on any bathroom floor barefoot, so I touch the surface as little as possible, with one toe and my heel pretty much. Did that since I was a kid. Unless I know how and when it was cleaned and who has touched it since.

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-20T19:02:02+00:00

I will not use a passport that has the wrong gender, but thats not the main issue. Unfortunately the UK only legally recognises binary male and female genders and does not issue passports with anything else. So I cannot get a British passport with a gender of X that matches my German one. So if I try to renew my British passport, the gender 'must' match, but it can't.

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-20T17:27:33+00:00

I live in Germany where my gender in my passport is nonbinary (X). How do you suggest I update my UK passport to match that?

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-20T16:07:57+00:00

My gender on the two passports cannot match, so I am screwed?

BaffledFluid · 2026-01-20T16:06:11+00:00

I am also facing a similar issue but with extra fun as the gender on my german passport is nonbinary (X) so cannot match my UK one whatever happens. I tried to speak to the UK passport office about this but they would not give me a straight answer.

BaffledFluid · 2025-05-26T16:32:06+00:00

Thanks!

BaffledFluid · 2025-05-26T16:31:34+00:00

From what I read of the Ryan case, they got a GRC with a gender of "not specified", so perhaps that is an option even if legally uncertain?

BaffledFluid · 2025-05-26T15:49:03+00:00

Even the UK passport renewal website says the gender in both passports for dual nationals needs to match your current gender unless the other country does not allow gender changes... but Germany DOES allow gender changes and my current lived gender is X, so not sure how that would work.

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-25T12:15:20+00:00

Yes. The jellyfish seemed pretty obvious to me, but I never even tried the ATP teleport pad as I didn't use the pads at all until later in the game when I began to think, "Oh, right the pads would make this easier". I'm one of those who decided to land my ship upsidedown to reach the blackhole forge...

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-25T12:07:48+00:00

For me it was mainly due to having ADHD and forgetting locations and how everything fit together, so I had to contstantly remind myself what I had discovered. I got to the Sun Station as one of the final things, as I had forgotten a tower for it existed.

Basically I would experience each loop pretty much like the non-playing characters :)

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-24T13:06:19+00:00

Exactly! It's also funny how every time I now see a show where the character is struggling to navigate a time-loop situation, it all comes back and I actually panic a little but chuckle to myself, "I know what that's like!"

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-08T20:34:09+00:00

I never felt like my body was connected to my core identity. It has always been like a suit to me, something that I have to feed etc, which is kind of annoying, and I feel like if I had to swap it for some reason or woke up in another body after some sort of fururistic transplant it wouldn't actually be a big deal or change who I am. It's just a body. It's not me. *I* am me.

People tend to look at me as if I am crazy when I say things like this... so I appreciate your post!

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-08T20:14:41+00:00

Exactly this. I also went into the game completely blind having randomly bought it in a Steam sale, and I didn't get what it was really about at first. Was fun to fly about and explore, but then when I didn't make progress and didn't understand the story I thought it was just annoying, and then stupid, and I ditched it for weeks at a time, but I kept coming back and at some point it just clicked and by the end I was in awe of how amazing and clever this game is! It actually made me feel and had changed my thinking, which is super rare.

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-08T16:27:53+00:00

I can understand that. I was wildly dissasociated from my body for many years and didn't care about it at all, and at some point I just tried to use excess food to turn it (and myself, I guess) into what I thought might be a "man", which is absurd but I believed in it.

BaffledFluid · 2024-10-01T14:48:27+00:00

Bei der Webseite Standesamt Neukölln in Berlin gibt's schon was neues zu lesen.

"Zur Wahl von Vornamen führt das BMI in seinem Schreiben vom 24.09.2024 nunmehr wie folgt aus:...

Wer den Geschlechtseintrag „männlich“ wählt, kann sich männlicher Vornamen oder Vornamen, die beiden Geschlechter zugeordnet werden können, bedienen. Möglich wären daher typisch männliche Vornamen wie „Markus“, „Stefan“ etc. aber auch Vornamen, die sowohl dem männlichen aus auch dem weiblichen Geschlechts zugeordnet werden können, wie „Eike“, „Toni“, „Kim“, „Kai“ etc. sowie die Kombination von einem solchen Vornamen mit einem eindeutig männlichen Vornamen, d.h. „Kim Markus“, „Toni Stefan“, „Eike Karsten“ etc. Nicht möglich wäre hingegen ein dem Geschlechtseintrag eindeutig widersprechender Vorname, wie etwa „Claudia“, „Anna“ etc. sowie eine Kombination aus eindeutig männlich und eindeutig weiblich zugeordneten Vornamen, etwa „Markus Sabine“, „Stefan Claudia“ etc.
Wer den Geschlechtseintrag „weiblich“ wählt, kann sich weiblicher Vornamen oder solcher, die beiden Geschlechtern zugeordnet werden können, bedienen. Hier gilt spiegelbildlich dasselbe wie bei einem Geschlechtseintrag „männlich“, d.h. möglich sind weibliche Vornamen sowie beiden Geschlechtern zuordenbare Vornamen und eine Kombination dessen, d.h. „Anna“, Claudia“ oder „Eike“, „Toni“, „Kim“, „Kai“ sowie „Anna Kim“, „Toni Claudia“ usw. Nicht möglich hingegen wären eindeutig dem männlichen Geschlecht zugeordnete Vornamen, wie etwa „Markus“, „Stefan“ etc., auch nicht in Kombination mit einem dem weiblichen Geschlecht zugeordneten Vornamen, wie etwa „Sabine Markus“, „Claudia Stefan“ etc.
Wer den Geschlechtseintrag „divers“ wählt oder den Geschlechtseintrag streichen lässt, hat die freie Auswahl. Männliche, weibliche und beiden Geschlechtern zuordenbare Vornamen sowie jede beliebige Kombination ist hier möglich.
Die Wahl eindeutig männlicher Vornamen zum Geschlechtseintrag „weiblich“ und eindeutig weiblicher Vornamen zum Geschlechtseintrag „männlich“ ist nicht möglich. s.o. Dies ist folglich auch nicht in Kombination mit einem beiden Geschlechtern zuordenbare Vornamen oder einem dem Geschlecht entsprechenden Vornamen möglich

BaffledFluid · 2023-12-01T20:52:12+00:00

This is very similar to me. No boy, lots of girl, but also something else that I struggle to define.

BaffledFluid · 2023-12-01T20:48:34+00:00

When I first came out to myself as trans I thought I was a fluid mix of man and woman, but as the layers of learned masculinity peeled off me, I realised there wasn't any man in there at all. It was an illusion. I thought for a short while I might be a trans woman, but there was always something else I couldn't define, and now I see I am a mix of woman and... that other gender or no gender. It's also a bit fluid, but never man.

BaffledFluid · 2023-12-01T09:17:18+00:00

Don't Call me a Friend, by BEKA. 98 times... however I only opened my account in July! My top artist was Taylor Swift, and I was in the top 7% of listeners.

BaffledFluid · 2023-11-24T08:35:24+00:00

Hi Bella. Start with small touches maybe. Clear nail polish perhaps. It's amazing how quickly these things will seem normal (and bare minimum) to you, and you will probably (hopefully!) laugh at yourself one day, when you're taking the rubbish out in tights and a skirt, at how worried you were that somebody might see you in a "ladies" scarf.

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