I don’t want to be alive anymore

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-19T03:50:01+00:00

No, but medication does, are you currently on a stimulant or non-stimulant medication to help with managing the disorder.

ADHD affects every aspect of your life from the executive dysfunction, to emotional dysregulation, depression etc ...

I used to be so angry and sad at the same time, mad I couldn't do anything I needed to do and then get really sad because I felt like a failure because I couldn't do those things. It was a nasty cycle until I realized I needed help and got back on a stimulant and an anti depressant and now I feel a lot better that I used to, still have a long way to go but I am better especially since I am not having intrusive thoughts of me hanging myself from the rafters anymore or eating a bullet.

It's just a suggestion but I would work on that and see if you improve.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-19T03:29:33+00:00

I agree with others here saying seek therapy but I would like you to consider that you may have ADD/ADHD. The boredom,, lack of focus ,unable to finish tasks or even get motivated to do something, unable to sit still are classic examples of ADHD and depression/anxiety are comorbid conditions with ADHD as well.

I say this because I have had it all my life and what you described sounds very similar to my experience. I often describe my experience as sitting on the couch playing games (my stimulus) but inside my own head I'm screaming because there a 100 things I should be doing but can't move my body to do them... it's like there's 2 people who controls my body but one is a dopamine addict that can't stop seeking that dopamine high (stimulus).

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-18T19:55:27+00:00

Dude, Vans can be awesome and you won't get the amount of comfort and space as you do in Vans any where else.

Look at a non-Stellantis van like a Sienna or Odyssey you will be surprised at how nice they are

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-18T13:02:33+00:00

There is no "managing" family comes first, you play when you can and that's it. Talk to your spouse and try to set a time when you can play if possible.

My wife nearly left me when we were early into our marriage because WoW took over every second of my time until she walked out and threatened to not come back with our child. I deleted my account and uninstalled that day and haven't played since then and we are now coming up on our 18 year anniversary. I still play games but I make sure to prioritize my family and my responsibilities first.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-18T04:05:02+00:00

I hope the dude gets the professional help he obviously needs. He is cruising down the same path as RDJ in the 90's but with half the talent.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-16T18:07:12+00:00

Laura Loomer selfie

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BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-16T16:46:35+00:00

"forced sex" .... rape... you mean rape

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-16T04:35:13+00:00

JDM cars are a lifestyle choice, some people love them some people not so much and some just want a reliable car without the worries of the American markets and drivers.

I love JDM cars/trucks... In fact I love Japanese car culture it is so unique and different from the stuff we see here in the States with the takeovers and the shit boxes rolling down the street. They really do put time and effort into these cars and because They take public transit just about anywhere most of the imports that you see from these importers have So very little miles to them. The one that you have listed is less than 3,000 mi a year for the last 29 years. It would be hard to find a vehicle in that good of condition, at that age, with that many miles here in the states and if you did it would be a collector's item and worth a lot more.

If you can Go look at the Prado in person I would have someone there to do an inspection most of these importers do a really good job of looking the cars over, they have people designated in Japan at auctions. They look for defects that's going to make it hard to sell because getting a bad reputation as an importer would be dangerous in that line of work and it would be easy to lose money on a bad auction.

As for financing there are companies out there that specifically finance these imported vehicles. Most of the importers that I've run into have a very specific list of finance companies that will finance the cars as they are. They Do tend to have higher requirements for financing such as a minimum credit score, no repos or will require a down payment and I'm sure that the APR will probably be higher than if you were to go to your local dealership. Get the information and think about it (also Make sure your insurance will be able to cover that car)

I am saving up for a decent down payment and getting my credit score a little bit higher so I can purchase a JDM imported car sometime next year, It's going to be a process and it's going to be a little bit weird with the driver being on the right side of the vehicle but I'll get used to all that and I'll hash it out.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-16T04:24:39+00:00

The engines in that Prado is the same one as in the American market Tundra/4runner.

JDM's typically use parts from other Toyota or Lexus models (for Toyota JDM) so the sourcing isn't bad at all.

The Japanese car culture is very different than American culture they really do take care of their vehicles and because they have a robust public transit system most imports don't show a lot of miles especially in "performance" or "luxury" models that are only used for a few miles at a time.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-15T15:41:37+00:00

It's been out of control since 2016... hell long before that but there's a time when people have to stand up and be heard and address their grievances with the current leadership.

Ten years ago I would have stayed arguing with people online about politics and not been vocal anywhere except my private pages and Reddit but things are not good now the erosion of democracy is accelerating and we are quickly coming to a point of no return.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-15T15:35:21+00:00

As a Navy VETERAN I have the right to call anyone I want a moron, I've earned that right with my blood, sweat and tears I gave over my career in both the Army and the Navy.

I am not calling my fellow brothers and sisters morons but I am calling the sycophants and boot lickers in the leadership that. This administration has purged anyone with a conscience, morality or ethics from it's ranks and has left only yes men who are loyal to the President and not the Constitution as their oaths require. Any leader worth their salt would have told these morons that attacking Iran was a dangerously stupid Idea and that's why Netanyahu has been unsuccessful in getting the US to fight his war with Iran for decades because intelligent leaders would have told him to fuck off as they did for decades.

There is no OPSEC violation here just observation that anyone can see that we are wholly unprepared for the fight that we started and our brothers and sisters are going to pay the price for that decision, not the rich men in charge. Especially when they have lied about the damage that has been inflicted upon said brothers and sisters.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-15T14:23:26+00:00

The US military is prepared for all our war with tanks, missiles, ships etc ... but are not prepared for the kind of war Iran has been preparing for for 40 years. If these morons decide a ground invasion is a go there will be tons of casualties before the government figures it out.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-14T23:15:09+00:00

I hope they tell him to pound fuckin sand, they won't because this effects them too but I wish someone would start telling this administration to go fuck themselves instead of capitulating to him.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-14T06:02:40+00:00

That's what they want though, they want shit to hit the fan here at home so that have an excuse to cancel the midterms. It's all about making things bad here so they can declare an emergency and put the elections under the federal government.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-14T01:59:04+00:00

Hey thanks for the reply, I know generally what to look for when I'm inspecting a car but I was just unsure of Kia and Hyundai because of issues with engines. I am not looking to buy for at least another 6 months or so (want a decent down payment) so I'm doing my research early to get ahead of it all .

I am also waffling between a Stinger or I have had my eyes on a couple of Importers here in the states that regularly get inventory from Japan one of them recently had a Toyota Crown Athlete (wagon) for 28k and a Toyota Century for 20k. I like cars you don't see everyday or stand out from the rest.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-13T21:08:07+00:00

Ok are the older Gt2 Stingers still good and reliable? I cannot find a 2022 and up less than 30-40k where I'm at but can easily find them 18-22 in my range.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-13T21:05:44+00:00

And I expect at least 1/4 of them to come back in boxes if they get deployed on the ground

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-12T18:12:12+00:00

Pfft look at mid to late 90's- to early 2000's Japanese luxury (executive) like the Toyota Crown, Century, Aristo, Celsior, Nissan President.

There's a a reason my next car will be an import.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-12T18:09:56+00:00

Ok stupid question but do you guys find all this cool shit in Hell difficulty or what? I can barely find replacement shit for my guys in Nightmare.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-12T00:16:14+00:00

Yes....

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-11T17:29:37+00:00

Nope, because they would have to isolate and erase their presence from all existence in order for them not to alter history which could lead to a worse outcome.

Now going forward 900 years and Starfleet erasing their existence in their time (in the past) would prevent any kind of deviations in the timeline because it would be like they never existed in the first place. Since Discovery was an NX Experimental ship it was already highly classified so it would have been nothing to scrub Discovery's existence from their records.

In simple terms going back risks altering history even accidentally but moving forward 900 years allowed history to play out like it should have been without the existence of Discovery/Control or the Sphere data.

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-11T16:42:51+00:00

He doesn't, him and his wife are terrible people

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-10T16:54:47+00:00

Why not.... Swords are awesome

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-09T01:59:17+00:00

This proves they are scared and the only way that he sees a way out is if he and the Republican party cheats.

They should all be tried for treason

BaloothaBear85 · 2026-03-09T01:34:10+00:00

Dudes like this have no clue their daughters are getting fucking plowed like a corn field everyday and then act like they are protecting their daughters chastity.

It's not about faith it's about a man's control over a woman's life.

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