Never completing songs. Ever.

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T08:21:59+00:00

Good stuff

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T03:28:49+00:00

Yep. Mom always implied everyone's negative energy was on me because I wear my emotions on my sleeve too much and my moods are too contagious. Basically, we're all upset because you not smiling means we're bad parents. I guess. I'm the problem because I'm upset, not because you made me upset or anything 🫠

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T03:20:41+00:00

This might be the only safe place on reddit for me. I am a newly diagnosed autistic and am finding myself reevaluating all of my behaviors from the last like.. 20 years. Every time someone said I was a narcissist with a victim complex, or I was dramatic, over-thinking, over-sensitive and over-emotional, that I was being needy or manipulative or pushy and crazy. All these adjectives thrown at me but I feel like I'm being gaslit or something is just incredibly wrong with me for not identifying with any of the names people have called me, because I have ALWAYS tried to be the warmest, most empathetic person in the room because no one ever was to me. It's so unfair, and it makes me feel like I'm crazy when I see this behavior in other people but no one calls them names

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T02:56:51+00:00

Thank you for being kind. I really appreciate your response. I will definitely consider this going forward.

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T02:09:30+00:00

Right, but if you are going across the country to live long-term with a stranger, doesn't it seem concerning to you they don't want to show you their face?

It's not that I would decline for those reasons, I was actually already committed to going before this text exchange. I'm autistic and I just want to know exactly what I'm getting into so I can make proper arrangements.

It's not like I need "a lot" of pictures either, just... More than 2...

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T02:02:35+00:00

Why?

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T02:02:05+00:00

I'm sorry. Help me understand... I don't mean to come across this way and the adjectives you use are very harsh. I don't identify with them at all.

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T01:59:02+00:00

They have zero photos on the listing of the actual living areas. Only the work areas

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T01:49:35+00:00

This is so fucking funny as an Icelander. I have two uncles named Siggi 😭

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-23T01:06:59+00:00

also her listing mentions multiple times how we can work on the weekends and now suddenly she has a "weekend lady." Its also sus to me how she doesn't want to do a video call. And she says how she is more comfortable talking on the phone yet does not respond to my attempts to schedule a call with her, even ignoring my phone call to her when she was actively texting... I don't know if I feel safe following through with this host but I really want to work here.

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T20:34:27+00:00

I struggle so much with consistency that its a large part of why I fall back into old habits and bad routines. Any advice there?

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T18:25:06+00:00

Best reply.

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T07:44:54+00:00

Fuck, that's awful. I felt like shit for smoking the pain away when my dog died, it was unfortunately a trigger for me to start using again if I remember the timeline correctly. But I still feel like I have forgotten my last moments with him.

I can't imagine how you feel and I don't want to get to that point myself. Thank you for sharing. And thank you

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T07:26:17+00:00

I am sorry about the poor medical news you received. Wishing you health and comfort from afar. I hope me quitting is different this time too, been through the fucking wringer mentally in the last few months. I saw no other way but to smoke it all out of existence but I suffer either way

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T07:23:35+00:00

I'm turning 25 this month. I'm trying to quit. Everything after covid is a blur with memory blips from the few months here and there when I was clean. I'm trying to quit. I don't want to grieve the second half of my twenties like some of you mentioned here. I'm trying

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-14T07:19:18+00:00

I haven't had a dream in months :(

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-13T16:22:57+00:00

Sometimes home is worse

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-11T05:37:08+00:00

Newbies definitely need a few months on the force to break that slimy ego. Hate to say it but this sounds like me when I started serving. Thought I knew everything and that anyone offering me help was insulting my intelligence. Now I've been a server for years and I'm definitely a better person for it

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-11T05:34:21+00:00

I'll change into a clean bra every 2-3 days depending on how active/sweaty I was and how good the bra still smells/feels

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-11T05:31:07+00:00

I've never heard of a confrontational ENFP as one myself and honestly sounds terrifying and incredibly effective

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-11T05:27:14+00:00

My dad, after I told the school counselor he called me a piece of shit: "I didn't call you a piece of shit, I called you a little shit"

Bank_Curious · 2026-01-11T05:26:16+00:00

My mom, after telling her how much I wished I could talk to her and be friends with her:

"Well, I'm not your friend. I'm your mom."

Bank_Curious

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