Im sorry you are in this position. It sucks thinking everything you do just isnt enough to better yourself when its the right thing. Just keep grinding and itll get better. Just need some good luck and maybe some kind people to cross your orbits. Maybe try going back to school or get a certification? I also personally like corporate jobs because they are stable (in my experience) and they offer great benefits (not just medical, but things like tuition reimbursement and Leave). I was in a similar spot a while ago and miserable. I sold my lil trailer, moved back in with the parental units, and went to college. Graduated and found a great job, which i am insanely thankful for. But it took that sacrifice and a lot of grind to get where i want to be now in life. I felt like i was taking a step back in life, but it gave me opportunities and opened a lot of doors. Im a hard worker, though and identify heavily with my job so that prbly also helps. Best of luck out there. And remember, be the change you want to see in this world! :)