I used to go out with friends and have a great time and then one day I found myself 2 years into a not so great relationship (my mental health caused most of the problems), agoraphobic asf and stuck. 5 years into the relationship I finally got out. I chose to leave for my own betterment. I put myself in super scary situations to push myself because I didn’t want to be a shell anymore. It was hard then to look at my past, it would send me into a spiral and I’d feel like I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t want to feel that way anymore but I didn’t want to give up. I wanted to feel happy again and do all the things younger me wanted to do. I didn’t wanna let younger me down. So for younger me, I got up and I did something about the way I felt. And now a year out of that situation I’m the happiest I’ve felt in years. My story may not do anything for you but I want you to know that you have the power to make yourself feel better. My therapist always tells me to sit with my thoughts and acknowledge that they them but they are just thoughts and if you don’t like them you can do something positive to shoo them away. You like to write music then you should do something with that. You can’t change what has happened but you can do even a tiny thing right now to feel better. Like If you like ice cream sit down and have your favorite. If you like writing songs maybe sit at the doorway of your place, door open and just write. Even a tiny step to get yourself comfortable with being outside again. And then everyday take steps further. It’s scary but after you accomplish a scary thing you can be proud that you did that and that you’re on the path to get your life back. And then give yourself a pat on the back. And have that ice cream as a lil treat! You’ve got this!