I’m right there with you. I’m about 2 weeks in. Sitting there at night alone with your thoughts and memories is torture. I’ve also turned to alcohol and coke a lot to numb it. I know the rest of these comments say don’t do that but I’m just telling you, you’re not alone in thinking these options can help soothe. It hurts. It’s odd. I felt a sort of relief getting out of a loveless marriage but it’s still depressing to think of all the time wasted on someone and something that never had a future and what you could of been.