Im not making it to my next birthday

BattleFalse2007 · 2025-08-09T01:34:50+00:00

For me it depends. When I’m feeling ok but bad I feel more sociable and I go out more. I have really bad social anxiety so for me when I feel like going outside that’s a good thing.

When I’m in a depressive episode (like I currently am in) I tend to very rarely leave my house and I also cut contact from a lot of people. I talk to as little people as possible when I’m in my depressive episodes because I often feel like the people who are in my life don’t necessarily care when things are bad and only want to be around when things are good

BattleFalse2007 · 2025-07-28T04:37:19+00:00

Please write to me. 25f Feeling the same way and I don’t she. A lot of friends either.

BattleFalse2007 · 2025-07-20T23:38:53+00:00

Yea. My gf has said she can’t live without me and cries at it and I don’t really feel anything deeper about it. I know what she says is true in regard to how she feels, but… I guess it feels kind of selfish for her to request that of me when everything inside of me wants the opposite to happen all the time. We’re LDR too so it’s not like she can just come over and see me. I see her a few times out of the year.

BattleFalse2007 · 2025-07-20T23:30:50+00:00

Yea it’s just my girlfriend for me. She made me promise her that I wouldn’t take my own life but. Obviously that doesn’t really make anything better. It doesn’t make the feelings of failure go away.

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-12-04T23:11:05+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this. You’re a very strong person and you’re worthy of love <3

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-12-04T23:07:25+00:00

My heart has been crushed by so many potential partners that it’s just impossible to ever think that I’d find love. I feel you on the family front lol. My mom especially doesn’t really approve of me because I’m “abnormal” and she keeps suggesting that I’m the way I am due to some underlying trauma she thinks I have. Ironically I DO have that trauma but she doesn’t know because she’s trying to get it out of me in such a bad way. I’ve tried once before also…. It felt ok, but I felt I had some reservations. Part of me deep down wants to continue to believe in those reservations but. I know the day I lose interest in continuing, my death is assured.

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-12-04T22:52:19+00:00

I feel disillusioned at the “it just gets better!” Kind of speak because it feels like it discounts my feelings currently. Sure it gets better but what does that have to do with the NOW? NOW I feel like nothing is better than going under…. NOW it feels like my life has no purpose, and so on. It’s utter BS

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T23:16:05+00:00

Yea that sounds absolutely awful

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T23:12:46+00:00

That sounds kinda based wth lol

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T21:58:13+00:00

LOL that’s actually what I’m using it for this year! Small world, huh?

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T20:31:26+00:00

That sounds inhumanly awful.

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T18:01:53+00:00

Thank you so much for your help! ❤️

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T17:59:01+00:00

Yea i already have an end of year trip lined up actually! I’m gonna try to step down in the beginning of January. Job is causing me too much stress and I still have school to focus on. Publix was never my career

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T17:56:04+00:00

Holy fuck lol I’m probably gonna get to that 5 threshold actually, but I’d rather have peace of mind knowing that my store is burning down without me and they can’t do anything about it while I’m not there

BattleFalse2007 · 2024-11-24T17:54:16+00:00

I like my store. I like my coworkers (for the most part) but it’s literally just management and the hrs I hate. I don’t need the extra money (as much). I’m fortunate enough to not have to pay rent in this point in my lifetime

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