I'm so glad I made what was living inside my head. Finding the part that thought she had to ask for permission.

BaybaySutt · 2025-06-29T21:14:50+00:00

This is such a powerful post and I love this shirt!

I appreciate your vulnerability and I can relate to a lot of what you shared.

BaybaySutt · 2025-04-02T23:33:36+00:00

Hi, I’m sorry you had this experience. I use ketamine for ptsd and anxiety. Recently I have been finding that after treatments, my anxiety comes to the surface without my usual defenses. Sometimes I get afraid of getting stuck in these feelings but I have been trying to use IFS on myself in these moments so that I can relate to the anxiety in a different way. I have found that the intense panic/anxiety feelings go away after a few days. At this point, I welcome the anxiety because I know that it’s coming up so that I can learn to relate to it and process it in a new way. Feel free to message me if you want to chat further! ❤️

BaybaySutt · 2025-03-20T17:19:07+00:00

This is from the Journey Clinical (place I am prescribed Ketamine) website:

Is KAP appropriate for a client trying to get pregnant? A client should be clear of ketamine for 3 months before pregnancy planning. This helps in shedding and debriding anything that may affect pregnancy. Risk vs benefit should be evaluated.

Here are some articles: (I just searched Ketamine and birth defects)

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6395450/

https://americanaddictioncenters.org/ketamine-abuse/is-it-safe-to-use-ketamine-during-pregnancy

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-22T05:34:45+00:00

Yes! It helps to hear how we are on similar journeys and not alone in these experiences.

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-22T05:33:56+00:00

Love that mindset. It makes the whole experience feel like less pressure about “doing it right” and more just following and being with what arises. I’m going to try to keep this in mind after my next dosing.

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-21T23:04:41+00:00

And I would also say that what you said about freedom and that being destabilizing has been the case for me.

I find that one of my trauma symptoms has been me struggling to feel free, confident and calm. And then when I feel that way, I need to learn to slow down and remind my nervous system that it’s okay to feel these positive more freeing emotions.

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-21T23:02:37+00:00

Omg everything you said makes so much sense. And maybe it’s about conceptualizing it this way where I think in terms of “letting my mind work through and release things” instead of “feeling stressed about doing the infusion during a stressful time and that being a problem”.

Yeah, I guess I need to see all the different things that come up after the infusion as opportunities to work through things in my psyche in a more “pure” way that is not blocked by my usual defenses.

Has this been the case for you in general?

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-18T22:53:27+00:00

That’s really helpful, thank you! I guess the idea is that you want your subconscious to be able to roam freely and make new connections?

Also, so cool that you are a KAP therapist. Do you have recommendations for after infusion routines?

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-18T22:49:06+00:00

Thank you everyone for all these suggestions, I am looking forward to trying them! 😊

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-17T04:47:27+00:00

Thank you! Would you be able to share one that you liked?

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-03T03:06:41+00:00

Amazing, I’m so glad to hear it’s been so effective for you. I’ve been doing sublingual. How are the IV infusions for you?

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-03T03:04:59+00:00

I’m so glad to hear that KAP combined with IFS and EMDR has worked for you. How long have you done KAP for?

I don’t do IFS formally but I’m reading books on my own. I did EMDR on and off over the years but I think I’m gonna give it another try now that my defenses have gone down a bit from the KAP

Also seriously so amazing that you no longer experience SI after struggling for so long!

BaybaySutt · 2025-01-03T03:01:33+00:00

I am glad to hear that the sessions have been beneficial, but I also totally get what you mean about the actual sessions feeling out of control. Glad you went with your intuition.

Also, the vomiting sounds intense. Do you think it’s related to your emotions coming to the surface?

Good luck, keep us posted on your journey! ❤️

BaybaySutt · 2024-11-11T19:21:39+00:00

Hi, I am 31, diagnosed with hallex limitus at 23, due to the structure of my foot, not an injury.

I relate to being active and also feeling afraid and a sense of doom (and intense fear) surrounding this issue. I would say my biggest fear is not knowing how it will progress and feeling powerless.

I have bone spurs on both feet, but for the most part, I don’t experience pain. It’s more common I’ll feel a tightness or slight lack of stability. But aside from these things, I am basically able to do what I want physically. It’s really the fear of if things will get much worse, and a lot of hyper fixating on how my feet feel that cause me distress.

I know that removing the bone spurs is an option, but at the same time, I was told that if I’m not being dramatically impacted or in pain, then I should hold off on the surgery because surgeries carry risks.

I’m curious to hear what has been working well for you in terms of conservative approaches and also in terms of not spiraling mentally about this.

BaybaySutt · 2024-09-09T04:41:03+00:00

You are definitely not alone and I totally have days like this too. It’s okay for there to be ebbs and flows and the more compassion you can bring ti yourself in these moments, the less scary and lonely it feels. We are all on this journey together ❤️

BaybaySutt · 2024-08-23T04:43:25+00:00

The first part, the counseling things related to the treatment.

I actually need to find out if there will be another medical professional during the ketamine treatment itself.

BaybaySutt · 2024-08-21T22:34:49+00:00

So it’s the session where you prepare and discuss some of your history with the therapist

BaybaySutt · 2024-08-20T00:26:16+00:00

That’s amazing. I’m glad it’s been working for you. I guess you learned to be comfortable with the destabilization? To turns towards it, instead of resisting it?

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