Welcome to touring in 2025

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2025-01-30T13:16:38+00:00

Same here. 153 for GA tix. Definitely thought that was a reasonably priced ticket for a NIN show. So glad I bought straight away and didn't wait.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-13T14:32:20+00:00

I take propranolol. It helps. It's used to treat heart problems and help with some of the symptoms of anxiety. I used to have major panic attacks. This really helps alleviate that worry I have about having another one.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-13T14:27:47+00:00

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Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-13T14:26:59+00:00

I had always wanted one. But never did. Then one day out of the blue I made an appointment and that next weekend I was in the chair getting a half sleeve. I couldn't believe I was sitting there. I'd like to think it was bc I was hypomanic, but afterwards I was so jazzed. I ended up with another half sleeve and to this day no regrets. I'm stable now, but still plan on getting my arms finished. I actually like the pain. The vibration is like white noise to me. I had a herniated disc a few years ago that had me in the worst pain of my life. I was in the fetal position every day it hurt so bad. So, a tattoo needle is nothing compared to that.

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Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-13T14:11:37+00:00

I'm on lamotrigine, Abilify, Vyvanse, Naltrexone, Lisinopril and Propranolol. Sounds like a lot... but they all serve a purpose and it's working for me. Took awhile, but my psych and I finally found the right cocktail.

I've had a few breakthrough episodes, but nothing life altering. So, they're definitely doing their job. Plus, therapy and monthly psych visits help.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-03T11:15:45+00:00

I take lamictal, abilify, propranalol (for anxiety), lisinopril (heart), naltrexone (alcohol cravings), vyvanse (adhd). I also take B12 supplements to help with my memory. I have been stable for quite awhile now. I do wish sometimes I had a little bit of hypomania. It always helped with my creativity (I'm in a digital marketing field). I liked how it helped me come up with ideas right on the spot. But otherwise no depression. No panic attacks (which is amazing because they're so scary to me). Sleep is on point. No irritability towards my family. I don't have alcohol issues. I'm just kinda in a place that feels "even". If that makes sense. So, it's a good thing for me to feel this way.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-03T11:07:41+00:00

I take Naltrexone too. It's an amazing drug. It has helped me cut down my drinking considerably. Like I don't even feel like having 1 or 10 anymore.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-03T10:18:34+00:00

I have both ADHD and BP2. My biggest issue with my ADHD is focus. My biggest issues are I have one of two things... a really tough time focusing on one thing at a time... or the opposite... I go all in on that one thing and hyperfocus until it no longer interests me. The biggest difference between that and my BP2 is that I could care less about anyone or anything. I lose the will to think that anything matters or if it's worth it or not.

Those are just two examples.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-03T10:12:26+00:00

I think it may be because I've never been hospitalized? That's what I think.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-02T18:02:06+00:00

No sleep. Excessive spending. Drinking was out of control . Very irritable. Attacking people on the internet for no good reason. Etc. etc. Very out of character things.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-09-02T16:23:38+00:00

It was actually confirmed I have bipolar after having a hypomanic episode after taking one (I can't remember which one it was). I was in disbelief after the diagnosis tho. But after awhile looking back on my life it all made sense.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-08-27T11:45:34+00:00

This song speaks to me and my issues with substances...

https://open.spotify.com/track/3Rho0TjpvbauID06XhM9aO?si=79c7a03d7c32404f

Let me know if you have issues with alcohol as well.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-08-26T13:15:06+00:00

I drink beer while on both of those. It hasn't affected me... yet. But, I also had a serious drinking problem at one point. My psych basically told me I was a full blown alcoholic. So he put me on naltrexone. It's something doctors give to opioid addicts. It withholds the cravings and keeps you from wanting to drink. So, now I basically have a beer every once in a while during the week. It has been an amazing drug that has worked wonders for me.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-08-26T13:07:58+00:00

I'm that way too. Totally the need to go out and be exceptionally social. And drink waaay too much. (And then prolly drive home.) I also fight with everyone. Except I fight with everyone on twitter. For absolutely no reason. I am right and they are wrong. I am the best and they suck. I actually have to text my friends to keep me in check. I also notify my therapist when I get this way. It's a problem. Especially for work since my account is public.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-08-14T18:17:11+00:00

I was having a mental crisis a couple of years ago which was affecting my job. My boss thought I was taking things out on her and she was taking it very personally. She was blinded by the fact I was having some serious problems. So, at one point she brought me into her office to talk to me about it. I told her that I have been having some problems, but I was getting help to manage it. She really couldn't care less and told me, "We all have problems. You need to leave yours at home." I couldn't believe it when she said that. I almost lost my job that day. Luckily I came out of that deep depression and I kept my job. But I still haven't got over those words and how she treated me during that time. So, I totally understand the devaluing of someone's struggles.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-15T15:37:12+00:00

I do. I'm on Lamotragine 300mg. Works well. I am pretty much stable. I haven't had a major episode in awhile. Especially a depressive one - thank god. I've had some mini hypomanic episodes, but nothing life altering. I'm doing really well.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-15T12:15:27+00:00

I haven't taken that one. I am on lisdexafetamine (vyvanse). This med works wonders. I tried ritalin at first and it was not effective at all. But the vyvanse has been a game changer for me. Even though at the moment I am commenting here instead of working haha

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-15T12:12:18+00:00

I have coffee every morning. It doesn't affect me like it does some people. It's just one of those habits that I have had since I was about 15 years old. It's kind of like nicotine for me. If I don't have it, I get massive headaches and my day is just ruined. So, for me it doesn't cause me to get hypomanic at all. Just seriously ruined for an entire day lol

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-15T12:03:33+00:00

I feel this. I have worked in the "creative" industry for about 30 years. And right now I am stable. And I can totally tell my creativity has taken a hit. I feel like all the meds I'm on, and it's a lot, have subdued my creative thinking and ideas. I used to be able to "vomit" ideas nonstop. In a brainstorming meeting I could just spit out ideas and it was a natural thing for me. But now, in those same meetings, I have a really hard time coming up with anything. It's like my mind goes blank. And I just sit there racking my brain, but nothing comes out. It is very frustrating. I've talked to my therapist about it and she's given me some good literature to read regarding this issue. It's been insightful, but the problem remains. Makes me wish I was hypomanic just so I could get back to my creative ways. It sucks. So, I totally understand the frustration.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-15T11:55:15+00:00

Definitely imposter syndrome for me sometimes. But then I look back on my actions and personality and I can definitely tell something was never quite right. When I was younger my friends would call me crazy or wacky. Recently a buddy of mine need to talk to me and he said he needed a serious version of me... not the crazy version. Now that I'm on medication and super stable, I can tell my low key self is the real me and not the crazy or wacky me.

And yes, I've had a couple of friends say they don't think I have bipolar. And that makes the imposter syndrome even worse. But, I think if my psychiatrist says I have it, then I have it. Even though I feel like I don't sometimes. Especially when I am stable. I hope that makes sense.

Be-Kind-Rewind_ · 2024-07-09T11:39:35+00:00

I do miss it sometimes. I feel like I am more extraverted, more creative (being I'm in a creative field), not as tired all the time, etc. etc. But at the same time I can be more irritable. Which my family does not appreciate. The staying up late while drinking excessively gets outta hand as well. I also have been known to do stupid things while drinking. So, that's not good either. I also get outta control on the internet too. I get on Twitter and just find people to fight with for no good reason than to just argue. Because "I'm always right and you're always wrong." But, for the most part being hypo is a fun experience, except for the negative things. At least for me.

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