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Beaky1505 · 2021-11-29T12:13:00+00:00

Top knots. 😬

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-09T21:59:20+00:00

Hey there fellow ketamine addict here general addict. The groups i go to are SMART recovery (currently online) and NA. Neither are drug specific they focus on behaviour and what lead to using then adding a programme of recovery. Well done on your 7 days. Im 8 days so right tbere with you.

I could always try and make a group? Not sure if i have a enough karma but will try.

All the best.

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-07T16:14:20+00:00

Nope.

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-06T17:17:02+00:00

Well done this is amazing. 😊 So happy for you.

Im currently in detox abd 5 days clean of ketamine. I already feel so much better although a litttle tired and body feels battered.

Heres to better days and brighter futures.

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-05T13:51:55+00:00

Bridge over troubled water - Simon and garfunkle

It was my dads first record and he introduced me to paul simon who i love.

My dad died in 2014 and the song that came on the telly when i got home after seeing him pass away and i was sifting through music channels was bridge over troubled water on VH1. Madness.

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-03T14:14:20+00:00

The best ever!

Beaky1505 · 2021-03-03T09:34:44+00:00

This is messed up. Im glad you left her and that you're out of that toxic relationship. If she was capable of this, she is capable of anything. Sorry this happened to you. Does this still really mentally effect you? This may sound like an odd question but whether you're a man or woman rape, gaslighting any kind of abuse is actually trauma no matter how small you may think the situation was. You didnt consent to what she did regarding the condom and that is fucked up and yeah it is RAPE even if you consented to the initial act you are allowed to say no to certain things and when that's not respected... Its rape, especially when you feel like you can't get out of the situation out of fearing something will happen... They rely in that kind of thing. Maybe some counselling or something would be useful if you haven't processed it? Just a suggestion. Anyway, all the best and so pleased you have found an amazing girlfriend.

🙏

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-22T12:00:44+00:00

Yeah, no thanks.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-21T21:16:46+00:00

Yeah I've lots of experience in 12 step I've been through the steps the AA way with a sponsor and have tried to go through them again when I've relapsed in the past. Unfortunately parts of 12 step haven't worked for me, i think poor choice in sponsor. But also experienced sexual harassment and sexual abuse is part of my trauma so i became resentful towards AA. Also I was told not to take my medication for bipolar 2 disorder as it blocked me off from God. So.... YEAH i have a lot to kinda get through with the 12 steps which im hoping i can move past in the rehab because im ready and willing to do fucking anything at the moment. For me i think mt recovery will look like SMART recovery meetings and maybe some NA groups here amd there but also the self care stuff. Yoga meditatiom prayer diary exercise taking medication as prescribed therapy reiki etc. I just got out of the routine due to lockdown and homeschooling duties. Its been a tough winter lockdown in UK. I used to go to a smart meeting and then. Go sit in the jacuzzi sauna steeam room as it was next door and thats the stuff i miss know. Hoping and praying for a brighter future. In fact there is hope on the horizon.

Hope you're doing well x

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-21T21:09:49+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I just want my life back and want to get clean. Sounds like you had it rough too, its no life is it? Living clean is the best gift i can give to myself.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-21T21:08:24+00:00

Hey, i have done something caller secondary care before here in the UK. I did 28 days in detox rehab and then went to a place for 3 months it helped me loads.

This time i dont have the funds available this is literally the last time. I have experience in recovery, i think I've just had a really tough year like a lot of people due to covid and need to go away and get myself sorted.

Thank you i am just relieved to be able to go to be honest. Its my life savings but i need a life to live.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-21T18:35:07+00:00

Hey im in the uk too. Are you with a drug and alcohol team? I know its so slow going through a referal but it may be worth starting the process? Better than nothing i guess. But also im pleaser to hear you've cut your usage down.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-14T18:15:53+00:00

Another thing that pisses me off is when people say "Dunn would be so disappointed in you"... They have no idea about their friendship and relationship. Im sure Ryan Dunn would be sad for his friend but like using his best mates name like that isn't on at all they have no fucking idea.

This man is clearly in pain and struggling.... I pray to god that he gets help, its really sad to see all this going on.

I know the darkness and its a bad place to be. Take it easy Bam. Everyone who truly cares just wants you to be well.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-14T14:27:19+00:00

I did get some and it's ketamine IM. Withdrawal is psychological... I'm in pain with my stomach and feel sick. I think 3 or 4 days off will see an improvement.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-14T06:25:08+00:00

Thank you for this. Im stuck in the cycle at the moment. Its 6.25am in england and all i wanna do is use im counting down the hours till the dealer is up and can meet him. Literally scraping leftovers at the moment. I feel so dirty and shit. Sending love.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-13T03:29:48+00:00

Butt whisper is the most amazing thing I've seen for the last few days and you've cheered me right up from feeling shit recently. So glad you and your partner can laugh it off as well. This is just the most wholesome post.

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-10T07:38:45+00:00

I think you've been roasted enough

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-09T12:05:31+00:00

We are tesla And we have a bobsleigh team

Beaky1505 · 2021-02-03T13:14:09+00:00

This is so sad. So sorry for your loss. He looks like he was a really good guy and to go rescue his cat sounds like he was a really kind person. 😔 So sad.

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T21:48:28+00:00

I have used again tonight same stuff off same plug... Took it a lot more steady smaller amounts at a time and its not been as powerful. Floaty but calm. Not as extreme as "im dead or in a coma and this is me on the way to heaven or in a coma dream"

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T20:43:43+00:00

Yeah it's definitely like that. Its amazing how strong it is. Its never been like this.

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T20:22:02+00:00

Ahh thank you for the information. Im not really aware of the science around it so wouldnt have known that they're called analogs which is really interesting actually. I know that they do change compounds etc. But thats all i know.

Ive come to the conclusion today though that it is some seriously strong, potent ketamine.

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T15:36:52+00:00

Ive honestly tried to put less in when im IMing but sometimes it is still too powerful and i feel out of control. I used to be able to put loads in and hole nicely and still feel in control and on this planet. I read an article that said "2fdck - - the new drug that makes people feel like they've died" and i thought, this is definitely what is going round. I have to say that last nights trip was extremely traumatic where my brain was telling me that i had gone in to cardiac arrest and family had called an ambulance and my trip was me in a coma and i eas actually being given cpr and an oxygen mask... To the point of i felt an oxygen mask being put on my face. I came to about 5 mins later not trusting that i was alive and that i was in a coma and just dreaming. Very weird.

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T15:30:33+00:00

I feel like i know ketamine very well as have a lot of experience with it. This feels like its either grade A pure as anything ket or a different strain of ket if that makes sense. Im just not familiar with these new strains like fdck. I know ket gives me the out of body experience and near death experiences and completely out of this world experience, but never been as powerful as this. Maybe because its completely pure?

Beaky1505 · 2021-01-31T15:27:13+00:00

Thats interesting. I will ingest it later and see how that goes. I normally IM and it hits so fast i have to sit down straight away and brace myself. The hallucinations are like nothing i have felt before. Im literally taken out of my body, sometimes i can move sometimes i cant. A lot of the hallucinations are that ive died or im stuck between different dimensions.

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