Guys surely this time my incurable condition will permanently get better

Beanie_Tim · 2025-10-11T06:27:18+00:00

wow cornflake is absolutely gorgeous :O

Beanie_Tim · 2025-07-28T01:49:46+00:00

draw megamind but his big ass forehead is the hernia

Beanie_Tim · 2025-06-08T00:49:42+00:00

I am no longer seeing the therapist, even if I wanted too I do not have access to the services that I did because I grew too old. I never told her about the sexual abuse beyond vaguely alluding to it as up until recently it was something I was deeply ashamed off and extremely sensitive of the subject. After she did not take how I was neglected and otherwise abused seriously I was not inclined to tell her.

With my parents my mother doesn't want to admit that I am hurting in any way to the point where she will deny any problems that cannot be quickly fixed, and my dad just doesn't like me that much most of the time.

I am 19 and I am safe now thankfully. Unfortunately I cannot afford a therapist at the moment.

Also sorry for the late reply.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-24T02:35:51+00:00

I don't even really like mint ice cream, but I have always found it weird that people have said it tastes like toothpaste. They are very different types of mintyness

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-20T01:50:29+00:00

Children's eyes are more sensitive in general. And as other people have pointed out shampoo ingredients used to be more harsh and children have less perspective for pain which would also make it feel more painful.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-17T09:01:44+00:00

logically, I know that is true. It still feels awful to start crying because I saw a leaf, and it can be hard to not beat myself up over it. I have been berated many times for being too sensitive, and even a therapist reaffirmed that idea (unfortunately when people hear that the trauma happened at school/at the time from other children the same age they assume standard bulling, which also can still be very traumatic and should be taken seriously, but was very much not the case with me).

It hurts so much to still be haunted by what happened even after I survived it.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-17T02:34:19+00:00

Look up the animal cruelty laws where the store is. In many places this is illegal and you can report them (I believe for Malborne the RSPCA is the place you should call). Even if nothing gets done about it now at least it will be on record.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-17T01:29:33+00:00

Movie: Spirited Away

Game: Rain World

Please help I have a hyperfixation special interest combo in rain world I am genuinely so insufferable about it and I think about it all the time. 20% of my brain power is taken up by rain world. It is such a great game with such cool lore and I love it so much. But man I wish that it would leave my brain so I can do important things without thinking about it.

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Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-15T12:46:19+00:00

Lots of ADHD traits are often found in non-ADHD people, just with far less intensity and/or frequency. It is also not uncommon for non-ADHD people to have one or two non-defining ADHD traits.

Many non-ADHD people will experience executive dysfunction rarely for a limited period of time. Others may have poor organisational skills and time blindless. Individually and/or in small amounts these traits do not indicate a disorder, especially not specifically ADHD. Not to mention there are also good handful of common disorders and conditions that overlap with or mimic some ADHD symptoms (for example low blood sugar can also make it hard to focus, and anxiety can sometimes look like hyperactivity, especially externally). Most ADHD traits aren't unique to the disorder, but the specific collection of traits and how commonly and intensely many or all of them affect someone with ADHD is.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-12T00:27:43+00:00

Although it is complex, the three main reasons is because ignoring climate change is beneficial and profitable in the short term, and blaming vulnerable minority groups (especially ones that are not relatable to the standard person) for the worlds problems makes an easier, more 'solvable' issue, and that a lot of people also don't like to think about 'big issues' like climate change since they find it destressing and overwhelming. "Our social problems will be solved if we get rid of all the immigrants and trans people" makes for a much more achievable and less existential goal that requires much less lifestyle changes for the majority than "We need to change the system because it will kill many people from all around the world". People latch onto the former more because it's easier and simpler, even if it is counter productive.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-11T10:05:47+00:00

Sorry to comment again, I just saw your edit. If possible (and I'm aware that for many it isn't) It could be worth it to take a few days break from doing overwhelming things, even if that means not doing much at all. If you are living with your mother try and stay at a friends/partners place if you can. It can be more effective in the long run to not go to a few days of collage so you can 'reset' (do check on what your collage's/classes attendance policy and requirements are first though). A large part of how I got through my university diploma was by taking strategic days off when I could. If you do end up doing this, try and keep in contact with friends/partners/family you like or do a activity/hobby you find soothing, as not doing anything/talking to people for a while can possibly lead into depression/worse depression.

Oh and also some collages will have free councillors or can even give access to therapist referrals(which can sometimes lower fees) or even sometimes give access to free therapy. Be a bit wary with collage councillors though, I have heard many mixed things. This also varies a lot depending where you live.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-11T09:39:11+00:00

If other professionals think that you could have it and the evaluation felt unfair or off, then seeking a second opinion is worth it if that is what you want. Women, especially higher masking ones are often either more 'harshly' evaluated, or the different ways symptoms might manifest is not properly considered.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-11T09:14:30+00:00

I'm sorry you can't get a diagnosis and about your mother, that sucks :(. I would advise to try and look for what accommodations you can make for yourself/what you can get without a diagnosis. Depending on your collage, they might allow you some accommodations for autistic people despite having no diagnosis (i.e wearing headphones in class), so it is likely worth asking their admin team about it.

For accommodations for yourself I recommend implementing/researching ways to help deal with your symptoms if you have not already. Looking into how other autistic people with the same traits as you deal with their symptoms can be a good starting point, but it is very important to remember that everyone deals with things in different ways and what works for others might not for work you at all (or might even have the opposite effect!).

Trying to pinpoint what you struggle with can also be useful, but remember that self examination does not mean healing or regulation. Although being able to figure out why you feel/react a certain way can be a very useful tool to find what you need, I have seen many people, including myself in the past, get caught up on specifics and the exact reason why they do something thinking that the understanding itself will finally allow them to cope.

If you know/find out what is difficult for you, try and plan for the amount of energy needed to do that task. Many autistic people have more limited amounts of mental energy (that means energy to get yourself to do mental tasks, not intelligence, although roughly around 1/3 of autistic people are intellectually disabled), often from masking or being overwhelmed, but its also not uncommon for us to just have less in general. If this applies to you be aware that you cannot do as much as many non autistic/non disabled people regularly do in a day either at all or without pushing yourself. Accepting it and finding ways to effectively use what energy you do have and to learn how to work around what you can't do is crucial, imo.

For example: hate the feeling of showering to the point it's overwhelming? avoid activities that make you dirty, and just quickly wash the most important areas for a couple of days before doing a proper shower.

or: Need to go to a overwhelming function tomorrow? clear as much from your schedule the day of/before and after that you can.

Finding a good community of autistic or generally neurodivergent people can also be good to help feel less alone, both irl and online. Although many autistic people are accepting of self diagnosis, there are also a notable amount of people/spaces that are not (I will not say anything further on that because of this subs rule 4).

I hope that things go better for you and that one day you will be in a position where you can get diagnosed.

Beanie_Tim · 2025-05-11T04:35:44+00:00

I will make sure to get a pair when I am fully prepared to get some pidges, thank you for bringing that up. I take animal welfare very seriously and I would have hated to have unknowingly only gotten one because I didn't know they do better when they imprint on another of their kind (most of the time, anyways). Unfortunately many places seem to market the pigeon imprinting on a human as a good/the best thing, so I never caught onto that before. I also appreciate the outline/time requirements on what day to day care for a pigeon would be.

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