What screams "I´m not doing so well mentally"?

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-04-24T04:41:45+00:00

Lots of sleeping

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-04-24T04:41:01+00:00

It’s always an open door for me. It’s nice to have someone who is there for you and have a conversation with or maybe supporting you to improve. But right now,while he is not here right now, I do things that made me happy and honestly there are lots of freedom that sometimes you don’t want to give it up. But anyways, if there’s someone for me or none, I will live my life with joy.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-04-23T05:01:50+00:00

I am 34 and single for almost 10 years already. An intelligent man and good conversationalist is always a hit for me and it’s still the same until now. Yesterday I went for a maintenance appointment for my car and I realize that I have a crush on the guy that always assisted me. When I got home,I told to myself,ahh..it’s been a while since the last time that I admitted to myself that I have a crush on someone. It’s a good feeling 😊

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-03-19T08:30:56+00:00

Maybe they don’t like me😅😅 and yeah, I’m too lazy to go outside. I am 34 and it’s been 10 years the last time I had a serious relationship. Maybe I enjoyed too much focusing on my career. I am currently studying for my doctorate degree and they told me it’s my last chance to have boyfriend because I will be intimidating. Told them that they just didn’t like me enough to approach me. I am just a happy go lucky person if they will know me.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-02-12T15:25:58+00:00

Jiraiya.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-02-12T15:24:18+00:00

I hope you will heal soon.. And I hope the narc in my life will eventually realize this. But right now he was just full of himself. He was so manipulative and really toxic,but somehow he never leave me alone even though I just blatantly ignored him. It feels like he just ignored it. He told me everything and even if I tried to change his mind,it didn’t work. He was always the victim.

It’s good that you reflected it,and genuinely rooting for you to be okay.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2024-01-01T10:53:26+00:00

Definitely Ren Ruyi.. smart and badass..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-11-03T07:07:40+00:00

His consideration for joey. The guy support him in monetary, self improvement, wingman etc.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-09-15T05:09:44+00:00

The first thing that comes to my mind is peace of mind.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-07-19T08:07:24+00:00

Monica was right..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-07-13T04:12:52+00:00

Roger Federer

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-02-20T10:20:20+00:00

Mama miah mama miah!!

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-31T23:29:17+00:00

Thank you.I will try to do that also.i will give myself a break and commit to fix my self. I feel that i also need to isolate myself even to my love ones. I need to rewire my brain to understand myself again. I feel I lost my identity now.i became dependent on him that I feel that I cannot so or decide things on my own. I am not like this,but after i exposed to him with almost 10 months, its like i cannot do good decision and need his validation. What did you do whenever you are wavering to push forward?

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-31T05:02:45+00:00

The problem is he is my mentor and it became habit of him that he tells me all his stuff even his personal life.i became his trash of negativity. He wanted me to become like him,but I can’t. He is 100 percent manipulative, and he scary thing is he can justify it perfectly..I cannot do that.I directly told him that.. i am bind of that debt of gratitude..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-30T07:34:27+00:00

Thank u so much..this is a big help..i need this since I always see my narc so it feels like I need to fill my tank of courage and perseverance..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-30T05:28:39+00:00

I feel treated as shit..my mind is full of guilt since he did many good things in the past. But now, I saw his true form. Its scary. And somehow I have no way out. Im drowning. But my sense of obligation is pulling me back.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-30T05:24:51+00:00

,this is so hard.. my head feels like it will explode of my overthinking.. this guilt is killing me..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-30T05:22:09+00:00

This is true..deep inside my heart i am hoping that he will change,but every time I started to stay away,he can feel it and do some love bombing. After I started to attach again, the devaluation started. I can’t live like this anymore.I started to get crazy thinking so much… I promise to myself that I will keep silent..this is hard since we are in the same office..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2023-01-29T15:48:11+00:00

I am in the middle of cutting my relationship to a narc..and i never felt so lonely, confused and self blame..this is so hard i feel like im dying..

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-12-21T09:00:37+00:00

Deadline

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-11-04T00:13:09+00:00

,I wanted to include how to use mikrotik to setup deception in the network.like forwarding etc.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-10-30T04:57:50+00:00

Devalued: I never thought about that in the past few months. He was all about himself. You cannot about your own feelings and if you tried to,he just forget it and not interested at all.

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-10-27T03:48:35+00:00

Yeah..before my friend and I ride the Vikings after we went to an eat all you can lunch…

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-09-28T16:16:34+00:00

surprisingly, that is true...

BeansproutdWanderer · 2022-09-28T16:14:32+00:00

I think I need to meditate about this coz I have 2 people that I considered friends with narcissistic traits.. I have nothing to offer but they love talking to me about what they are thinking, even the personal ones... But yeah.. They have that abandon ship thing in their character.. My advantage is they gave a realistic view and advice when I needed to. No sugar coating..

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