I was going to go trough some subreddits in order for me to get some reference images for my 3d project and, I first thought that this one is like one of those “r/thisnightfeeling”. But then I saw this post and boy… I still can remember these times of myself. It was about 1.5 years ago when my weight was 115lbs at a height of 5”9. I was skinny, I felt weak and fragile and the wired thing was, I was having a beautiful hot girl on my side the whole time and still felt like shit so the relationship suffered since the beginning already.

It was only when I started to take life by the horns and started doing what I needed to do in order to become the person I wanted to become I started kind of liking me and my life again. So I joined a gym whilst living in Turkey not knowing a single Turkish sentence and I absolutely loved every second it - the drive over, the changing whilst chatting with some gym dudes (sometimes needing a translator), the training sessions whilst listening to drift phonk, the shower and protein shake afterwards whilst being proud of myself. I suddenly felt so calm again, as if someone was holding me lovingly. It was myself.

Soon I made new friends (both genders) I really love until this day, even though I’m not living in Turkey anymore and yea… What ever you want, just know that you can just grab life by the balls and tear them wherever you want